timid pyromaniac

Luhan | 19 | Junior | Changdeok Hall 111 For roleplaying purposes only. I track the tag 'lluhansnu' (No dash)

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a helping hand | luhan-eunji

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What was this kid’s problem? Yeah, she’d snapped at him for digging through the bushes, but he reacted as if she were a 180cm tall body builder with a fist raised instead of… well, Eunji with her eyebrow raised. She’d yelled at a lot of kids before, and had been met with a lot of different reactions- anger, threats, pleading for forgiveness- but speechless, white-faced fear was a new one.

He gaped at her, and it looked like he really tried to say… something… but no sound came out of his mouth (it wasn’t until much later that day that Eunji noticed the humor in the idea that she might be an illiterate lip reader). When he held up his hand and started flicking his thumb against his forefinger, Eunji thought maybe he’d gotten a bug bite while digging around in the bush and was trying to scratch it, though she couldn’t actually see any marks on his finger.

"Do you need to see the nurse?" she asked. "If you got stung or something she’ll get that stinger right out. Eunji grabbed him by the shoulder and turned him around to face the right building. "Just walk straight and follow the signs once you get to the building," she said. "You wouldn’t have this problem if you’d stayed out of my gardens." She gave him a light push in the right direction and then turned herself back around to survey the damage.

It wasn’t too bad, the bush more or less just needed fluffed up again. It only took a second or two to get it looking right again. She was just about done when a silver glint caught her eye- stuck way down near the root of the bush was one of those little fancy lighters, the kind you refill instead of just throwing it away and getting a new one. She pocketed it before standing up, wondering if that kid had dropped it. Oh well, just a lighter. He can get a new one.

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Luhan violently flinches at the sudden grab of his shoulders as he is hastily turned around to face a building. Hearing the groundskeeper's words, the blond could only blink in befuddlement but nods his head anyway; still attentively listening to her words. Once Eunji gave him a light push, Luhan nods again before making his way to the building.

All right, see the nurse and have the stinger out then-- wait, where the hell am I going?

After a few more seconds of recalling why he's heading for the nurse, he grimaces in distaste. Shaking his head at the ridiculous fact that he actually listened to the girl, Luhan swiftly turns around and hastily heads back for the bushes where he sees Eunji just standing up after fixing up the mess he had created with the bushes. He frowns at her, displeased by how she had just easily distracted him. 

He waits for her to leave for now, knowing that there's no way she's going to let him mess around the bushes again. She just couldn't understand how much he desperately needs that lighter, could she? Once Eunji's finally out of sight, Luhan adjusts his scarf before promptly going back to his previous spot in attempt to search for his lighter.

He could go on all day and night if he had to. Of course, buying a new lighter would be a piece of cake but he doesn't want any old lighter. He wants his lighter. 

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As soon as I lose my temper, I execute those who get in my way. Simple as that.

The artist’s eyes widened visibly at the sharp object that was taken out from Shin’s pocket, breath hitching at the back of his throat. It wasn’t a particularly large or sharp scissors, but it was enough to possibly stab someone or slit their throat. The glimmer of the metal was enough to throw Sehun off. He was terrified of sharp things, thanks to his father, and though Luhan’s face was really as cute as a button and wouldn’t look like he’d hurt a fly, Shin was potentially.. Unpredictable and terrifying to Sehun. Shin had killed people before. And the boy wasn’t sure if he wanted to make it to that list of people.

"U-Uh..— A… A demonstration?" He squeaked out, swallowing the lump in his throat as he slowly backed away from the psychopath. Sehun desperately wanted a student to walk in at that very moment. Because he wasn’t sure how to handle this situation, and never read up anything about "how to protect yourself against serial killers." Not to mention the fact he knew he still had a lot to live for and he was too young to die. Sehun was still a virgin — For God’s sake, he hasn’t even kissed another human being apart from his mum. And he wasn’t about to let his own life by taken by someone he thought could be a potential friend.

"No thanks, I’m good." The brunette held his hands up in surrender paired with nervous laughter. It scared him so much — That someone as quiet and innocent looking as Luhan was capable of committing such an unclean mortal sin. And Sehun didn’t want to admit it, but.. He almost felt hurt that the other considered killing him. Luhan was now embedded as dangerous in the artist’s mind. And Sehun might have to push back the wanting to even be the other’s friend in the first place, if he was going to be socializing with a murderer. 

So that’s why Luhan hardly had friends. Shin was pushing everyone away from him.

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Shin's sickeningly twisted smile remains still as he watches the expression of the brunette shift to a slightly terrified one. The look on his face does nothing but remind the blond about the women he had killed who expressed the same reaction before having their lives brutally taken away from them. 

The sight before him is deliciously tempting and exciting to the murderer but he knows better than to kill someone off without confirming whether or not Sehun really likes him. He chuckles at this, his eyes dancing with genuine glee. "Ah, are you scared of me, Sehun-sshi?" He asks, sheepishly running his fingers through his blond locks while his other hand securely holds the pair of scissors.

"I have to say... that hurts me a little. And I actually thought we have this strong connection going on." He takes a few steps closer to the taller boy with slightly open arms. "I thought you want to be friends? Aren't you very enticed by me, Sehun-sshi? Or are you just nothing but a liar?" By then, he's standing just right in front of the artist; letting Sehun's height tower over him as Shin brings the scissors up, staring at it with great interest.

"It... will surely be upsetting if you decide not to be friends with me no matter how much I understand your decision." He sighs softly, averting his dark gaze back to the artist. "But I wonder how Luhan will feel?" And as if on cue, the enthusiastically twisted look in the blond's eyes gradually fades away and in a matter of seconds, the look is replaced by a befuddled one. 

Luhan blinks for a brief moment, confused as to why he's standing strangely close to Sehun. However, after realizing the familiar cold touch of the scissors in his hand, the blond's eyes widen in pure shock as he stumbles back away from the other male; hastily dropping the scissors on the floor. No, this can't be happening. Shin couldn't have threatened... 

His eyes, now filled with unshed tears, gaze down at his abandoned weapon on the floor then back up at the artist. He parts his lips in attempt to apologize for whatever it was that Shin had done but he couldn't find the words-- or his voice, like always. For sure, just like everyone else, Sehun will no longer want to do anything with him after realizing how much of a freak he is.

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The huge jumble of words that left the blonde’s mouth after Sehun’s question, had the artist at a loss for words, his mouth slightly hanging ajar as he stared in utter disbelief. He knew at that very moment he looked like an idiot, but everything was happening so fast that he really wasn’t all that bothered by his physical appearance anymore. So he was right to a certain extent — Luhan was possessed by a spirit. Kind of. That goes according to the name Nikuya Shin. A japanese entity.. Was it? 

Sehun wasn’t entirely convinced to begin with, and was fully sure it was a prank at first. But then he recalled the sickness that the other mentioned, and the boy knew this Shin fella wasn’t lying at all. He remembered hearing of it somewhere before, maybe from a documentary on the television or a leaflet in his psychiatrist’s office. If he remembered correctly, people who had this.. Dissociative identity disorder, there was no cure or treatment available for them, and they most likely went through trauma of some sort when they were younger. Luhan must have went through a lot then, he mused to himself. Sehun almost felt sorry for Luhan, being able to somewhat understand him, not entirely sane himself. Perhaps he would inquire about it on his next visit to the doctor.

Worrying at his lower lip again, he looked at Lu— Nikuya Shin, from head to toe. It was almost hard to believe this was an entirely different person, because as much as their personalities were totally far apart, it still felt like Sehun was talking to Luhan. He can’t shake off the fact that this other person looks exactly like the Chinese student. He could pretend Shin was an evil twin, but it still wasn’t the same. This wasn’t good. At all. If Shin happened to potentially harm Sehun—.. it would be Luhan taking the blame. Sehun would take it that he was being hurt by Luhan, not Shin. He wouldn’t be able to differentiate one from the other. 

Finally finding his voice once again, he croaked out with much difficulty, “Luhan isn’t useless.” The brunette’s eyes fluttered to the several envelopes of photos on the desk, nodding his head in the vague direction. “At least he’s doing something with his life, and not sitting around rotting or wallowing in self pity at how he’s stuck with someone like you.” 

”..But what exactly do you mean by murderous?” 

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Sehun's reaction is much expected by the blond. It actually feels nice to finally tell somebody about it and as much as Luhan obviously doesn't want Sehun, of all people, to know about his disorder, Shin couldn't bring it in himself to care. He has finally met someone who is possibly just as mentally damaged as he is so the least Sehun could do is understand what his pathetic little friend is going through.

He waits for the artist's response with patience, the soft smile still evidently curved on his lips. What he said is obviously a lot to take in; especially for a guy who probably likes Luhan a lot. Huh, did I ruin Prince Gloomy's image then? Well, he's bound to find out sooner or later anyway.

“Luhan isn’t useless.”

"Hn?" Shin furrows his brows in confusion, not realizing how he immediately held his breath the moment he heard the brunette's words.

“At least he’s doing something with his life, and not sitting around rotting or wallowing in self pity at how he’s stuck with someone like you."

Shin's befuddled look shifts to a piercingly cold one as he grits his teeth in anger. Did this guy just literally imply that Luhan's better than him? Better than the Nikuya Shin? Even though Shin thinks lowly of himself, that kind of thought has never gone to an extent where he thinks he's far from being better than Luhan. Luhan is humiliatingly and pathetically weak! What's so good about him? His gaze shoots at the photos on the desk, a scowl curling his lips.

Luhan may be doing something with his life but that 'something' can never be considered useful. Taking photos of the symbols of hope isn't going to get him anywhere. Is he hoping for some acknowledgement from these students? Bullshit. Killing the hopeless... now that's something that they both can hold pride for. The women Shin has killed are all nothing but deadweights. They can't provide anything for the bright future of the world by throwing themselves at Luhan. Have they no shame?

”..But what exactly do you mean by murderous?” 

Shin looks back at the artist, his glare softening a bit before he lets out a soft scoff. "Isn't that self explanatory already? No offense, Sehun-sshi but I figured you, of all people, would know what I mean. Have you ever felt just... pure hatred towards the people who have mistreated you? Made you suffer through things you don't deserve? And you're left with nothing but to bottle those emotions inside? Well, I don't bottle my emotions. As soon as I lose my temper, I execute those who get in my way. Simple as that." Now forming a sickeningly twisted smile over his lips, Shin fishes out the pair of scissors from the pocket of his jacket; glad that Luhan had learned the hard way in keeping them with him at all times.

"Would you like a demonstration, Sehun-sshi?" He asks in the friendliest tone he could muster.

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Walking On Thin Ice | Lu Han (Nikuya Shin) + Shin Yeong

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Shin Yeong was still lost in thoughts as Luhan suddenly stands in front of her. As her eyes meet his she startled. She had looked into his direction, but didn’t really notice him – until then. Taking a deep breath, she tries to calm down again immediately, not wanting to show any weakness towards him. Then he began to start talking.

"Listen," his eyes staring right into hers, the brunette felt a little uneasy, but her eyes didn’t break contact with his either.  “I know I was acting like some windsock headed shitmouth the last time we talked and I’m sorry. I’m not normally like that. I…” The right corner of her mouth twitched. Well, that is quite a fitting description, isn’t it? Wondering what he was about to say, she waited for him to finish his sentence. She was quite surprised – this definitely sounded like an apology, something she would’ve never expected from him.

“…You just caught me in a bad time and I really hope you could forgive me.” Crossing her arms the girl thought about what he just said. So… at first he’s almost threatening me, and now he’s sorry? He surely wasn’t in the best condition considering his health… but his mind seemed quite clear.

The next thing the boy did was a thing she didn’t expect him to do – again. Eyes wandering from his eyes to his mouth, she saw that his lips were turning into a small pout. “Please forgive the idiot? I’ll make it up to you. Promise.”

At first she didn’t react at all, but after a few seconds she suddenly had to chuckle. It wasn’t for long since she suppressed it fast, thinking that it would be a little rude, probably more than just a little. “Sorry.” She simply said – and she meant it. “I just really didn’t expect you to pout… that’s like a wolf snuggling up to a sheep and them being best friends.” She coughed slightly and her eyes went back to his. “But I can’t just forgive you. I’m not a resentful person, but considering all that happened I won’t just accept your apology. You know, you haven’t exactly been the nicest person towards me. ” she paused a second, then continuing what she wanted to say.

“However… I’ll give you the chance to make up for it.” pausing again she thought about how to continue. Breaking the eye contact she looked up to the moon. “If you really just behaved like that because you weren’t in the best condition… well I guess that all shouldn’t happen again, right?” Looking back at him, she added another sentence. “But don’t think this will be easy. I don’t trust you, you should know that.” The brunettes’ expression went cold again, but she couldn’t get rid of the feeling that she actually was sort of happy that he said “Sorry”.

But still… I can’t get rid of the feeling, that there’s something wrong… does he have any additional intentions? From what I saw about him this doesn’t seem like him. But I don’t know him well enough to judge that, don’t I?

I still have his pocket knife. As this thought suddenly appeared in her mind, the brunette wanted to add that to her long talk. She had already opened her mouth but decided to keep that to herself for a while. Who knows…

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A relieved smile dawns upon Shin's lips after hearing the brief chuckle the girl slipped, giving him the evident fact that she's not as mad as before.

Shin returns the chuckle sheepishly, averting his gaze down at the ground in feigned embarrassment. He's actually starting to hate himself for making such an embarrassing expression just so he could get to this girl's good side. But desperate times require drastic measures and if he wants to kill her, he needs to get her following him in some way.

He's pretty sure Luhan pouts a lot though and he mentally notes to himself to stop the boy from doing it all the time. That is just downright humiliating for a guy.

“But I can’t just forgive you. I’m not a resentful person, but considering all that happened I won’t just accept your apology. You know, you haven’t exactly been the nicest person towards me. ”

"Yeah, I know." He sighs, looking back at her again wth an innocent apologetic look that nearly caused him to cringe. "But really, my behavior that time was not at all intentional."

“However… I’ll give you the chance to make up for it. f you really just behaved like that because you weren’t in the best condition… well I guess that all shouldn’t happen again, right? But don’t think this will be easy. I don’t trust you, you should know that.”

Shin stares at her for a moment, somehow impressed that she just voiced out the fact that she doesn't trust him. She shouldn't anyway but it still astonished him considering Shinyeong's behavior last time was nothing but ridiculously naive. The blond casually straightens his back and gives the girl a lazy salute.

"I don't mind being trusted, Shinyeong-sshi. I am not worthy of your trust anyway; especially after how I treated you." He lies, feigning a friendly look. "But I do have something in mind that could earn me your forgiveness. I think... I'll take you to my sanctuary-- a place where I've never taken anyone else to. You can use it as your sanctuary too if you'd like. You deserve it more than I do."

He then steps aside before pointing to the direction of the university. "The walk won't take us long." Gazing back at Shinyeong, the boy tilts his head slightly to the side with the soft smile still evident on his lips. "Would you like to see it?"

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"Not… worthy enough…?" Jieun looked up from the notepad and ahead of them, tapping her finger against her chin again in thought. Now what did he mean by that? She couldn’t really tell who’s worthy enough or not to date her, if she had to be honest. She could envision herself going on a date with Luhan so… that meant she predicated him worthy enough. But what was absolutely strangely deviating in his words was the whole insecure point of it. Why would Luhan think he’s not up to her standards? 

After a minute of hesitance, the gamer scratched her cheek and tilted her head to one side in candid curiosity. “Is it not the other way around, Luhan oppa?” She asked— waiting for the car before them to pass by before crossing the road with the tall boy. “Not that I don’t like myself but I think I’m the one who’s not worthy enough to go out with someone like you. You wouldn’t really get anything from me, to be honest. I can’t cook, I’m too loud with my thoughts, I choose games over people, and my life revolves around sleeping, eating and playing games which proves that I won’t be a good girlfriend.”

Saying all of those words made Jieun realize just how much she had missed in her past younger years. She summoned into her mind how her classmates back in High School used to try and invite her to a bunch of social gatherings but Jieun consistently selected the decision to stay home and play her video games. 'I always told them that my mom wouldn't allow me to go out even though I never really asked her.' She thought glumly to herself.

A shade of crimson red crept up to her cheeks as she looked down, folding her hands together down at her lap. “Now that I think about it, it’s no wonder no boy has ever asked me out.” She muttered without even realizing it— not at least one memory of a fanboy asking her out flashing in her mind. She always brushed them off and assumed that they were just being friendly.

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Luhan prepares himself for the typical words of encouragement and support from the girl, knowing that will be her reaction after he had told her how worthless he is. It's already a general reaction. He tells a student he's not worthy of their attention and that student tells him he's more than what he thinks he is. He is genuinely getting tired of playing that charade. They know he's nothing but a stepping stone for them; why must they try to make him think otherwise? As if lying to him is going to change anything.

“Is it not the other way around, Luhan oppa?”

What? The other way around? Taken aback by the gamer's response, Luhan shoots her a surprised glance.

“Not that I don’t like myself but I think I’m the one who’s not worthy enough to go out with someone like you. You wouldn’t really get anything from me, to be honest. I can’t cook, I’m too loud with my thoughts, I choose games over people, and my life revolves around sleeping, eating and playing games which proves that I won’t be a good girlfriend.”

She... thinks she in a lower level than he is? If this is her way of making him feel better about himself, then it's not working. But then again, something tells him this isn't her attempt of making him think of himself as someone better than he thinks he is. She's just simply spilling out all her insecurities like what he does.

It almost sounds like she feels comfortable enough around him to admit this and the thought of it gives Luhan an unfamiliar light feeling. And the fact that she didn't even try telling him that he shouldn't think of himself in such a way just shows that she respects his decision but thinks that she's not at all higher than he is.

"I think you'd make a nice girlfriend." He mutters, not even realizing that he has voiced out his thoughts until a few seconds later. His eyes slightly widen in surprise at this as he quickly tugs his scarf up to his lips, mentally cursing himself. That isn't his thought. Shin must have taken over for half a minute. That tends to happen a lot but he's glad his other identity didn't completely take over.

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Sehun can’t help but feel even more self conscious, the boy standing opposite him raking his stature with judgemental eyes, studying every nook and cranny of Sehun, from his chiseled facial features to his bony clavicles and so on. It nearly made the artist cower, but he stood his ground, arms refusing to budge. He wasn’t about to show his vulnerability and weakness to this snarky side of Luhan. Or risk getting mocked even further.

This… Acerbic personality of Luhan, however. It was the least Sehun expected from his classmate. He couldn’t say he knew the Chinese student completely well, but the blonde didn’t seem like the type to make such sarcastic criticism. Much less crude remarks. Much less talk in general. The brunette was still quite astonished at this discovery, because as much as it looked like Luhan talking to him, it wasn’t like Luhan at all. It was a 180 degree turn.

As if he was a completely different being.

Sehun’s blank expression turned into one with a hint of dumfoundedness. The artist considers the possibility that the other party just might have been possessed by a spirit, but it’s hard to believe the after life exists when he hasn’t actually experienced it himself. And the poorly filmed documentaries on TV about exorcism aren’t the most reliable things, either. But the fact that this other Luhan seems to think himself to be worthless as well, only further intrigues Sehun. Apparently this spirit thinks very much similarly to Luhan too. 

“Though, just imagining you pinning me down against the bed… leaving marks around my pathetic body… completely dominating me… such an honor would that be for me! An immensely majestic honor!”

His pale complexion visibly coloured a light shade of pink, Sehun now opting to focus his brown orbs on a seemingly attractive spot on the wall behind Luhan’s head, shifting his weight from one foot to the other. Sehun wasn’t shy because of the smaller male’s uncouth words, more like the fact he thought of himself to be quite incapable of committing such a risqué action in the first place, and now that.. He tried to imagine it, with Luhan in a pure submissive state under him, alabaster skin littered with red angry marks, soft pants and whimpers leaving swollen lips… Sehun shook his head immediately, pushing the thoughts to the back of his mind. He was inexperienced and not as — sexually active as the other students on campus, no reason for him to be conjuring up such filthy thoughts. 

"I.. I don’t plan t-to commit anything of such sort, not with you or anyone else. You don’t have to worry about that," the male stuttered out, now choosing to meet Luhan’s gaze. "Why are you being so lewd all of a sudden, anyway?"

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Sehun is flustered by his words. The color rushing up his cheeks proves it and Shin feels nothing but satisfaction for getting the boy to react in such a way. Does he really like Luhan or is he just really this easily embarrassed? The blond is more than positive that it's the latter. Who the hell would be interested in the pathetic Prince Gloomy anyway? Besides, if Sehun actually likes Luhan, then Shin will have to kill him without a single sign of hesitance. It's just the way it is.

Though, having a boy liking Prince Gloomy is something new so he may have to take his time understanding what the brunette sees in Luhan. If he really likes him, that is.

"I.. I don’t plan t-to commit anything of such sort, not with you or anyone else. You don’t have to worry about that."

Shin blinks in surprise at his words. So the artist is a virgin? Well, that's new information. Maybe that is something Shin probably couldn't find himself appreciating. Sehun has the looks that could have girls crowding over him in desperate attempt for his attention. It's a pity that he doesn't put his charm into pleasurable good use.

"Why are you being so lewd all of a sudden, anyway?"

"Hmm?" Shin tilts his head slightly to the side as he points to himself, somehow a bit in disbelief that the other thinks he's being lewd. But then again, he did mention the words 'romantic act of copulation' so he really shouldn't be surprised. Doesn't Luhan talk like that too? Probably not. Prince Gloomy is ridiculously shy, it's embarrassing.

The blond crosses his arms and fixates his attention down on the floor, his brows slightly furrowed and his lips pursed in thought. "I guess you're wondering about my sudden change of personality, hmm?" He asks as he leans his back against the board. "Well, I'll explain some stuff to you because you seek for information and I'm in no position to refuse one of the symbols of hope."

He gazes back up at the artist, a soft smile now gracing his lips. "You see, Prince Gloo--ah, I mean Luhan is going under something you may call a Dissassociative Identity Disorder. It's a rare disorder, really. Someone as useless as Luhan deserves it, I guess. In short, he has split identities and that other identity..." His soft smile shifts to a genuine one as he enthusiastically jerks his thumb to himself. "...is me! I have my own postures, gestures, and distinct way of talking. I guess you could say I'm Luhan's imaginary friend that came to life. I can sometimes talk to him through his thoughts but only in the moments where he needs me. I am his murderous alternate personality, Nikuya Shin."

He nearly cringes at the name but manages to maintain his smile. He's never really fond of that name but ever since people started calling him that after all the murders he had done, he had no choice but to just accept it. It was nice to have own name anyway. He just has to wonder if Sehun ever heard of his name in the news. Worrying about the artist telling on him to the authorities is the least of Shin's worries considering the boy appears to be possibly just as damaged as he is. Who would believe him?

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Sehun hasn’t been more taken aback in a long time than when he was at that very moment.

When he hears a small laugh emitted from Luhan, it’s only natural for him to look up, because did Luhan really just make that sound? His expression of confusion soon dissipated into pure shock, because Luhan was a mess of giggles, and this is the loudest he’s ever heard his classmate, to be quite honest — And the happiest as well. He has to say, the blonde’s silvery voice matches his pleasant features quite well. Though Sehun can’t help but feel flustered. Was Luhan laughing at him? Did he have something on his face? What if Luhan has faking this.. Facade the whole time? Was he on that MTV show pranked? Questions continued to flood his brain as he just stared at the other, at a loss of what to do as Luhan practically laughed his guts out.

He only turns even more flabbergasted at the smaller’s words after, because ohmygodLuhanistalking, but his words don’t exactly come out as the nicest Sehun’s ever heard. Luhan’s lucky the artist is in such a state of shock that he can barely feel offended at the blonde’s snarky comments, or he would’ve stormed out of the classroom in a matter of seconds. The brunette opens and closes his mouth like a fish, turning around to scan the classroom in case he’s missed something — Hidden cameras or whatnot, but there was a stunning lack of any other people in the room with them. 

He wasn’t dreaming, was he?

"I.. Um. You—.. Never told m-me you could talk." Sehun blinks as he stutters out, currently still in pure disbelief. It takes him awhile to register that he’s been insulted, and his natural instinct kicks in as Oh Sehun to reply something just as equally sarcastic. Even bitchhun doesn’t go easy on Luhan, despite the other student being seemingly friendly from the very beginning.

"As much as I dislike my father and it’s unfortunate I’m stuck with this surname, I have to live with it." He folds his arms across his chest as well, signature poker face present on his features. Sehun prays his taller height looks intimidating somehow. "But I’ll make sure the next time you say my full name, it will be during an act of copulation, Luhan.”  

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Shin's grin stretches in amusement once he sees the stunned expression of the brunette shifting to a cold stoic one; an expression he's sure Luhan hasn't seen yet. Well then, he feels absolutely special that he gets to make Sehun present such a reaction. However, it is the artist's words that catch the blond off-guard and his grin falters a bit. Did he just... 

"Whoa, and just when I thought I have issues." He scoffs in good-humor, his half-grin looking more amused than surprised. He crosses his arms in a mocking manner; mirroring the taller boy's stance as his eyes scrutinize him from head to toe as if he's preying upon a delicious meal. He wasn't at all awake and aware when Luhan was interacting with the artist but he does have a few good glimpses of his other self's memories. He remembers the drawings Sehun had created and... a pair of Batman underwear...? Why the hell is that in Luhan's memory?

"Your statement is tempting but much to our disappointment, I'm not that kind of guy." He shakes his head casually with his tone hinting a drop of sarcasm, his eyes shifting up to meet Sehun's brown hues. "A worthless person such as myself doesn't deserve to commit such an act with a person of your standard."

His smile then dangerously softens as he averts his stare down at the floor and wraps his arms around himself, as if protecting himself from the non-existent harshly cold wind. "Though, just imagining you pinning me down against the bed... leaving marks around my pathetic body... completely dominating me... such an honor would that be for me! An immensely majestic honor!" He diverts his attention back to the artist, letting his arms slowly fall down to his sides while his smile shifts to a sheepish one.

"But alas, I may have to rely on my imagination, yes?" He chuckles softly. "Sehun-sshi most likely has someone else in mind to commit such a deed with. How upsetting." The blond is definitely genuinely honest with his words. Never in his helpless life would he attempt to sleep with a Seongnam student and he's going to make sure Luhan doesn't either. Both of them need to keep in mind the place they deserve to belong in and that place is far below the symbols of hope.

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✩ Sticky Situation || LH ✖ IU

[iu-snu]

Jieun tilted her head and tapped her finger against her chin as her auburn eyes analyzed her classmate’s penmanship. Oh, so people their age don’t use the supermarket as a location for “chillaxing”— as how one of her brothers would call it. Why not though? Supermarket is where you can buy loads of food and learn about each other’s favorite snacks. Maybe they could even buy some certain ingredients and bake cupcakes together. 

'That sounds more fun going to the mall.' Jieun thought to herself, upset. She fluttered her eyes a few times once she read the last words of her classmate’s before she switched her auburn hues up at him— her expression utterly impertinent and somewhat perplexed.

"You… want to buy me dinner?"

She cited her sister telling her about guys buying girls dinner. Those moments are often considered “dates” and judging by the number of guys that have taken her sister to dinner, she could tell that her sister greatly enjoys the attention. So that must be what people do on dates— they eat dinner together.

That doesn’t sound hard at all.

A soft smile then graced her glossed lips as she folded her hands behind her back. “So this is date, correct? You are taking me out on a date?” Based on what her older sister told her, it’s always the guy who would open the idea of going out on a date with the girl which has always been a strange idea to the gamer. Why can’t the girl ask the boy out too? Does it always have to be the other way around? What if the girl really likes the boy and wants to go on a date with him but she couldn’t because she has to wait for him to ask her out?

How come the boy always have to be the one to make the advances— to court the girl? Why can’t it be the other way around? Jieun really wouldn’t mind courting a boy she likes if she has the confidence.

Understanding humans can be really frustrating.

[xxluhansnu]

Luhan gives her a look of astonished befuddlement after hearing her assumption and he quickly shakes his head as a response. However, considering his slightly surprised look, he avoids the possibility of offending her and immediately jots something down on his notepad. In all honesty, he really wouldn't mind going out on a date with this girl...

...if she's not narcoleptic and blurts out random statements out of the blue. Again, she seems too much of a handful and Luhan wants nothing more than to not be associated with her. But her lack of knowledge of the basic things about the outside world has gotten him thinking otherwise. He hardly sees her surrounded by any of her peers so he could somehow understand why she's not at all aware about what people their age do these days. 

Once he's done writing down his response, he holds out his notepad for the girl to read.

"Just a friendly hang-out, Jieun-sshi. Dating you honestly sounds tempting but I doubt that I am worthy enough to ask you out. A person of your standards deserves someone better."

Thinking about his response now, he could just imagine how Shin would have reacted if he's in his place right now.

Undoubtedly, his other self will immediately jump into an agreement that this is indeed a date and will most likely make advances towards the innocent gamer like he always does. Picturing himself doing such a thing causes the blond to cringe in shame. He just hopes none of his classmates has ever seen him committing such shamefully flirtatious acts.

[xxluhansnu]

one and the same | luhan (nikuya shin) + sanghoon

[xseongsanghoon]

The idea of spending time by himself wasn’t for Sanghoon to have breathing space so he didn’t have to deal with large numbers of people - not entirely at least. It was more to give others breathing space from himself and to save them from the stress it seemed to cause others around him, whether it be directly from his presence or from stepping in whenever others began to yell abuse or throw punches.

It also gave him time with his camera to take in the world around him from a different point of view, and he had been doing exactly that for most of the day prior to walking along a sidewalk that he had thought was completely deserted.

Sanghoon was proved wrong, though, when he heard someone calling out, and it took him a moment to realize that it was himself that was being called to. He shifted his eyes from where he had been simply staring ahead of himself and stopped walking and looked towards the source of the voice.

He tilted his head to one side at the question, thinking, examining the other male’s face to try and place it. When he did, a smile pulled across his lips and he nodded. After making sure his camera was safely in place - the strap was slung over one shoulder and under the opposite arm with the camera resting on his back - he dug his phone out of his pocket, having left his notepad at home, and typed out a short message, stepping towards the other and holding the phone out so he could read the screen.

I am. I’m Lee Sanghoon ^^

[xxluhansnu]

Shin blinks in surprise when the taller boy shows him his response through the screen of his phone. What the hell is this? Doesn't he talk? The blond fights back a scowl of disgust at this. The silence of this guy reminds him no other than Luhan; not exactly the person Shin wants to remember at the moment. Instead of the scowl that has been itching to curve his lips, Shin gives him a one-sided smile as he slips his hands into the pockets of his jacket and tilts his head slightly to the side.

"Oh poor you. Speechless in my presence." He chuckles before straightening up, knowing that he shouldn't look too lazy in front of a Seongnam student who obviously deserves great respect from him. Shin shifts his smirk to a sheepish smile as he scratches the back of his head. "Ah, but a hopeless pathetic trash like me shouldn't be saying such things, yeah? Please do forgive my carelessly reckless words."

He adjusts his scarf out of lack of anything better to do; his dark eyes scrutinizing every detail of Sanghoon's appearance. He can already tell that Luhan has never interacted with this one before or he would have known by now that this guy is mute. 

"What are you doing here at this time of night, if you don't mind me asking?" He questions him curiously. "Surely, as one of the symbols of hope, you should be getting your well-deserved rest."

[exseongshinyeong]

Walking On Thin Ice | Lu Han (Nikuya Shin) + Shin Yeong

[exseongshinyeong]

“Are you an idiot?” She frowned as he said this and just wanted to walk into the opposite direction he was standing. “No wait, that’s a rhetorical question. Don’t answer that. Where the hell are you planning on going?” “Why should I even answer that? It has nothing to do with you so why do you even want to know. You told me to go. I did. What do you want now?” She looked at him with a bitter look on her face. I just want him to leave me alone and have a nice walk…

But before he could answer that, she thought she’d get rid of him faster, if she’d just simply answer. “I plan on going to a place where you’re not.” She answered, her voice and expression still being cold and bitter. “You wanted me to leave and now you’re following me? I’m an eyesore, did you forget that?” she asked bitterly. “I’m leaving first.” She again just turned around and walked away, the opposite direction of where he was standing.

He had simply gone too far. She had tried and failed. That was okay with her, but he could’ve simply told her that she should leave him alone – she would’ve done that… maybe.

She really was quite annoyed by now. She just wanted to be left by herself right now but she somehow had the feeling that he wouldn’t just disappear – sadly. Maybe she’d change her opinion in a few days and be nice to him again, but right now… well, if he’d continue this, she’d get furious.

Nikuya Shin. As this thought suddenly appeared in her mind, she felt shivers. After Luhan had mentioned him that night, she had done some research, and that guy really was… sick. Well, I guess that was a thing of serial killers. He tortured those girls and then pinned them onto a wall with scissors. She was still wondering about how those scissors were holding the girls up… but she’d rather not now. Besides of that she was wondering what made that guy kill all those girls.

As her thoughts stopped for a moment, she realised that she had stopped walking – she actually hadn’t come far, maybe 2 metres away from Luhan.

[xxluhansnu]

Shin sighs as he listens to the girl's response, evidently showing him just how agitated she is by his sudden change of behavior. It's true that he had tried to get rid of her last night but who could blame him? He wasn't exactly in the healthiest of state and Shinyeong did nothing but chatter his ears off. As much as her offer of help was overwhelming, she should have just gotten the message that he didn't need-- no, that he didn't want anybody's help and she was no exception.

As Shinyeong turns around and takes a few steps away from him, Shin purses one corner of his lips; his eyes fixated on her. He knows that he just can't follow her around. That will cause nothing but suspicion from the girl. Yet there's no way he'd be able to convince her to follow him to a particular location when she's this pissed. He furrows his brows in confusion when Shinyeong suddenly puts her steps to a halt and a shiver slightly shakes her shoulders. 

She's scared.

He's not even sure what she's afraid of at the moment but he quickly takes the chance and casually jogs his way towards her before making a turn so that he's standing in front of her again.

"Listen," He begins, his eyes never breaking contact with hers. "I know I was acting like some windsock headed shitmouth the last time we talked and I'm sorry. I'm not normally like that. I..." Shit, am I even doing this 'apology' thing right? He sheepishly rubs the back of his neck as he looks away, trying to form the right words in his mind. "...You just caught me in a bad time and I really hope you could forgive me."

Looking back at her again, he nearly flinches at the sight of her under the moonlight again; causing him to remember the first time they met which was just a few nights ago. A girl with such beauty... really needs to die. Swallowing his pride, he forms his lips into a small pout.

"Please forgive the idiot? I'll make it up to you. Promise." Could she really stay mad at him though? Surely, Luhan must have been nice to her? Nice enough for her to forgive him? But then again, he's not Luhan. He's not behaving like Luhan. All he could do now is rely on his luck... like he always does.

[xohsehun-snu-blog-deactivated20]

New Beginnings | LH x SH ;

[xohsehun-snu-blog-deactivated20]

The pale boy kind of expected Luhan’s reply slightly — With him referring to himself as something worthless and pathetic. Sehun assumes the other might have self esteem issues, but it wasn’t much of a problem to the artist, as long as his classmate didn’t talk about his uselessness in every conversation they had. Perhaps if he befriended Luhan, he could get rid of his absurd way of thinking. But for now, he needed to convince Luhan he had in fact thought this through and he wanted a friend. And that friend is supposed to be him. 

"Have you thought this through? I mean, would you really want to be friends with a hopeless case like me? Didn’t the things I just said scare you away?"

Sehun stares at the message on the board, before sighing softly, at a loss of words to say. He was never good at words to begin with. Probably the reason why he refuses to talk to anyone most of the time. It’s unfortunate, but his brain functions at least half the time slower than most usual people. It takes him about 18.3 seconds to ponder thoughtfully, and he can’t help but feel apologetic because he can feel Luhan staring at him again, and Sehun is most likely wasting every precious second of the blonde’s life, forcing Luhan to be stuck with him in this classroom. Luhan probably doesn’t even want to be here; he’s been avoiding Sehun for the past few days after all. After what seemed like an eternity, he returns the smaller male’s gaze, no doubt with a hint of bashfulness, tongue darting out to lick at his dry lips.

"Sure, you say weird things, and that creeps me out a little." The brunette blinks several times before shaking his head, attempting to rephrase himself. "You’re weird, but I’m positive I’m not exactly entirely sane as well, I’m just as weird as you are. Or maybe even weirder." 

Sehun opts to hide his face in his hands with a deep sigh.

"Yes, I have thought this through and you seem nice, and no, I don’t understand how anyone can be scared by someone like you, because I’m frankly very enticed by you, but it’s fine if you don’t want to communicate with someone as awkward and queer as I am — I’m probably scaring you off now, aren’t I?"

[xxluhansnu]

Luhan holds his breath as he waits for Sehun's response, not really knowing what to expect. The silence that followed his writing has done nothing but cause the blond to feel a bit anxious. Is Sehun hesitating now about the decision of being friends with the likes of him? As much as Luhan would prefer if the brunette just chooses to change his mind, he still couldn't help but hope a bit that Sehun does genuinely want to be his friend.

The possibility of the artist pitying him had once flashed in Luhan's mind but Sehun's offer of friendship has gotten him thinking otherwise. Finally, as Sehun begins his response, Luhan continues to stare at him; looking for any signs that would show that he's lying.

Luhan blinks at this words, a look of befuddlement now dawning upon his pale features. The taller boy appears to be embarrassed but not a single symbol of feigning his words can be seen at all whatsoever. Maybe he really does want to be friends... and not because Sehun pities him but because he's very entice--

--wait, enticed? That... could mean anything. He couldn't mean...

The blond doesn't even realize it but a grin tugs the corners of his lips as he looks away, releasing a soft chuckle. However, that one form of laughter is followed by a series of chuckles and before he knew it, he ends up laughing as he leans his back against the whiteboard beside his writings. He drops the marker as he holds his sides, trying his best to stop himself from laughing.

The fact that he has enticed someone is just humorously baffling to him. Ridiculous, even. 

"You are enticed by me?" He asks once he finally manages to calm himself down as he crosses his arms, an amused grin evident on his lips. "Oh that is good, man. Really, you got me there. You almost fooled me. What are you gonna do next, sweep me off my feet? You sure know how to make people swoon, Oh Sehun. Look, even your full name can be said during a romantic act of copulation."

[xxluhansnu]

{text:} you straight lover boy?

[TEXT]: I'm surprised that someone is giving a helpless case like me their time of day just to send me a text message. ^.^ But I'm not really sure what you mean.

[iu-snu]

✩ Sticky Situation || LH ✖ IU

[iu-snu]

In contempt of Jieun feeling considerably granted that Luhan decided to escort her to the supermarket, she still maintained her drowsy facial aspect as she walked along with him down the sidewalk— hooking her thumbs under the straps of her pink backpack. She could tell how Luhan seemed to be somewhat uncomfortable around her.

Did she say or do anything that had put him at such a state? Had she offended him in some way? She tried to educe the things she told him but she wavered the probability that she had said anything that could be triggering to most people. Perhaps he just didn’t like her. The possible speculation brought a tide of despondency to the gamer as she switched her center of attention down at the ground, distractedly syncing her steps with the boy.

She must be acting way too weird again. This was what her older sister warned her about— she needed to tone down her constant references of video games and try to be more interested in what the other is into. At the corner of her eye, she noticed Luhan writing away on his notepad and she shot him a curious glance. And when he showed her his dainty handwriting, the gamer fluttered her drowsy-looking eyes.

"Supermarket…" She read out loud ahead of looking away from him as they carefully crossed the road. She stayed staring up ahead of her for one whole minute, compressing all the prepared words in her mind before finally responding. "I… want to see how… the supermarket works. Normally when I wake up and realize that I have fallen asleep again, I would head straight to my room to keep myself safe in case I fall asleep… But I don’t often get to hang out with friends— if I have any. So I thought maybe I should hang out with you. Friends do hang out in public places, do they not? Such as the supermarket?"

She delicately held her chin between her thumb and her forefinger, her brows creasing thoughtfully. “And perhaps we can have dinner together? Does ice cream sound good… oppa?” The sudden change of honorifics nearly surprised her but she had seen girls call their male friends that way and she figured that she should too— if Luhan will actually think of her as a friend.

[xxluhansnu]

She's staring again. I can't believe this.

Luhan sighs in disbelief after seeing the girl stare up ahead of them, obviously trying to think of a decent response. Right, if he's really going to spend the remaining hours of the day with her, he knows that he should get used to her quirks. He lets his hands fall to his sides as he waits for Jieun's response; somehow growing impatient by the minute.

"I… want to see how… the supermarket works."

He instinctively looks at her just by hearing the sound of her voice, glad that she finally manages to find her words. However, her response continues to show just how weird she is. Luhan always considers himself pretty weird but seeing this girl vastly odd... that's definitely saying something.

Where in the world did she get the idea that friends spend time hanging out at supermarkets? Luhan knows that he, himself, is not exactly the kind of person who would hang out with people but even he knows that a supermarket is the least place people would hang around at unless they're with their families.

How the hell was she raised?

 “And perhaps we can have dinner together? Does ice cream sound good… oppa?”

After hearing all these words, Luhan purses his lips in thought. Jieun sometimes sleeps in the hallway standing up. He just saw her sleeping on the park bench. She stares for a long moment before replying. She makes random nonsensical statements out of the blue. She's never been to a supermarket before. And now she thinks ice cream can be served as dinner.

Wow, and just when he thought he's the one who needs to go out more. He takes notice of the change of honorifics and he gives her a puzzled look. Now where did that come from? In spite of the fact that he's still a bit hesitant about being her friend, being called 'oppa' for once sounds... or feels... nice.

He begins to write down on his notepad again before showing it to her.

"First of all, if you want to hang out with friends, you'd spend time at the cinemas, at the mall or just simply at the park. Not at the supermarket. Second, you shouldn't replace proper dinner with ice cream. Look, how about I take you to the mall and I'll treat you to a decent dinner?"

[xxluhansnu]

it's not the same | luhan + himchan

[seonghimchan]

Himchan smiled at the blonde boy. Luhan’s unimpressed look was adorable. “You’re still as cute as ever.” He said chuckling. It has been awhile since they had seen each other but Luhan still managed to look like a baby. Even after all these years Himchan felt like he could read Luhan like a book. 

Luhan didn’t have to say anything or even write anything down Himchan just kind of knew certain things. The two had a close bond. Luhan was the one person who really got Himhcan. His bad relationship with his parents, his anger issues, his issues with himself. Luhan knew it all. Himchan had always been complicated, and he still was. Being with Luhan made things feel a little less complicated.

Himchan let his own words linger in his ear. He normally wasn’t so open with people but Luhan was different. “You missed me too right?” He said lightly nudging the blonde boy with his arm. Himchan was sure Luhan missed him. He had to have missed him at least little. “I know you missed me.” He said grinning. 

He was surprised when Luhan let out a sighed. Himchan automatically smiled. “I’m being annoying right?” He chuckled. Himchan being annoying was his strange way of showing affection. He watched carefully as the boy began writing on his notepad. As he watched him write he couldn’t believe he was actually reunited with Luhan. 

Himchan squinted his eyes as read the notepad. “Surviving?” He repeated the word, Himchan hated that word surviving. It sounded harsh. He didn’t like the idea of Luhan having a hard time. “I’ve been alright.” He said. “Surviving.” He said making air quotes with his hands. “I did get really handsome right?” Himchan said smiling. The boy heard compliments all the time, but it felt good being complimented from Luhan. “But look at you mister blonde hair.” He said looking over at him. “Why did you decide to get so handsome?” He asked. “That color really suits you.” Himchan reached over and ruffled the boys hair. “You’re still my cute little Lulu though.” He said laughing at his own cheesiness. 

[xxluhansnu]

Luhan knows that using the word 'surviving' isn't exactly the right word to describe how he's been doing considering he knows that Himchan is probably still going through some tough predicaments. He even doubts that the boy has finally managed to develop his relationship with his parents in a good way.

He does wish that he could share his enthusiasm about the whole fact that they're meeting again. It would be quite nice to be friends with Himchan and catch up with each other but of course, life just isn't going to let him have that. 

"I did get really handsome right?”

Luhan couldn't help but roll his eyes in good humor, an amused smile tugging the corners of his lips. Well then, at least Himchan knows that he has certainly grown into his features. He wouldn't even be surprised if his friend actually has a girlfriend. Himchan has always been more well-liked than he is though Luhan never really minded.

What astonishes him though is that in spite of how much Luhan got bullied for 'murdering his mother' and how much kids had taunted and humiliated Himchan for being friends with someone like him, Himchan is still here sitting beside him with a radiant smile gracing his lips and talking to him as if those memories never at all happened. The shorter boy wishes he could have some part of the other's optimism.

"But look at you mister blonde hair. That color really suits you. You’re still my cute little Lulu though.”

"Tch." Is Luhan's only reply as he looks away, embarrassed heat rising up his cheeks. He never really liked his blond hair but Shin evidently begs the differ. Little Lulu... what a ridiculous nickname. It's so... 'Himchan'. The blond purses his lips before writing down his response.

"Little Lulu? We're not ten anymore, Himchan. But I can see you have gotten more talkative than ever. I sure hope you're putting your talkativeness to good use. Have you met 'the nice girl' yet?"

[iu-snu]

✩ Sticky Situation || LH ✖ IU

[iu-snu]

The second Jieun felt Luhan touch her shoulder, she instantaneously jolted awake— a look of confusion embellishing her light facial lineaments. She fluttered her eyes a number of times for a fleeting moment before they settled on the blond beside her. “Ah, Luhan…” She acknowledged his presence again— nearly forgetting that she was just talking to him a few seconds ago. “I may have fallen asleep again…”

She straightened her back as she shifted her chestnut hues away from the male mute. “I… want to go to the supermarket…” She thought out loud, her fingers delicately playing with the edge of her skirt. “I’ve never been to a supermarket yet.” She had before but that venture was years back that she could hardly remember it anymore. She had been spending most of her life in her bedroom or at the arcades playing video games now. But living alone had made her grasp the realization just how much she had missed in her life and that includes purchasing items in a supermarket.

"Luhan… will you go to the supermarket with me?" She asked, brushing a few strands of her hair behind her ear then settling her fixed stare back at the boy. What she does know about the supermarket is that it’s a place where people purchase necessary goods. She remembered entering a few supermarkets in the games she had played. One particular game precisely made her fond of the location.

"I like running over zombies with a skateboard or a wheelchair." She stated her thoughts out loud, recalling a precise scene in the game. "Chainsaws are the best, but I guess a motel would be more appropriate for them. So I guess the supermarket sounds fun. Let’s go."

[xxluhansnu]

A look of befuddlement dawns upon Luhan's face once the girl only realized that she had fallen asleep again, as if she had completely forgotten that they were just having a conversation. He shakes his head in disbelief at this. Approaching her may have been a bad idea and he mentally swears to himself that this will be their last encounter. Just before he could urge her to get up so that they could go back to their dorms, Jieun's following words put his intentions to a halt.

"I… want to go to the supermarket… I’ve never been to a supermarket yet.”

She had never set foot in a supermarket before? She has got to be bluffing. Has she been living under a rock then? And the fact that she suddenly wants to enter one in an instant is beyond him. Right, and just when he thought that there's no one who could possibly be weirder than he is, Jieun furthers out her words.

"I like running over zombies with a skateboard or a wheelchair. Chainsaws are the best, but I guess a motel would be more appropriate for them. So I guess the supermarket sounds fun. Let’s go."

He stares back at her with blinking puzzled eyes. I... I don't really get what that has to do with anything but if she's really that interested in supermarkets, then I guess I'll just go with her. I don't think I can leave the new girl just wandering around. Besides, she already assumed that I'm coming along anyway.

With a small sheepish smile, Luhan nods his head in agreement before standing up. He then jerks his thumb over his shoulder, gesturing the direction of the supermarket. 

Once the two teens began their walk to the supermarket, the blond fiddles with his notepad and his pen; trying to think of a conversation starter considering the person he's walking with is evidently not at all good with conversations. After a hesitant thought, he begins scribbling down.

"So why do you suddenly want to go to the supermarket, Jieun-sshi?"

[xohsehun-snu-blog-deactivated20]

New Beginnings | LH x SH ;

[xohsehun-snu-blog-deactivated20]

Before Sehun knew it, he was being dragged back inside the room by his sleeve, similar to that of a ragged doll. Luhan had a surprisingly large amount of strength for someone almost as scrawny as Sehun. He didn’t mind though, Luhan pulling him a little bit too forcefully. It made the artist forget about the fact that the blonde had been ignoring him for the past few days. like everything was back to normal. Or even better than normal, seeing how comfortable the other was with him now. Sehun felt a bashful smile growing on his face. Perhaps it was nice to pretend everything was fine and nothing had happened between them, for now.

The student is scribbling words on the whiteboard with a grin evident on his features, and Sehun can just barely make out the handwriting. From Luhan’s method of writing, he seems especially passionate about this topic in particular, and he looks as if he’s rambling too — Maybe they did have something in common. And from Luhan’s words, it almost seemed as if he was an oddball like Sehun himself, because really, shining beacons of hope? Who says that? Sure, Seongnam was a prestigious university, but wasn’t that just a little too much to describe the students? The drunk and smoking youths wandering around campus at night is enough to convince Sehun that no one is near becoming a shining beacon of hope anytime soon.

The artist only brings himself out of his thoughts as he hears the clatter of a marker that rolls toward him. The Chinese looks to be frozen to the spot, even unaware that he’s dropped the marker in his hand. Sehun picks it up, his gaze now going to Luhan who looks possessed by fear, or in a trance of some sort. It almost scared the artist, the look in Luhan’s eyes. One of panic, worry, terror — Everything combined. Sehun had no idea what had gotten over the blonde at the moment, however one thing he did know he had the urge to hug him. Expel the fear in his body. But of course, he refrained himself, though it was almost hard. It seemed awfully natural to comfort Luhan at that very moment. 

"Luhan? Are you alright?" The brunette gulped, his tone laced with concern as he held the marker out for the other. Thank God the other party responded by turning to look at him, it was better than nothing. "I’m flattered you think so highly of me, but we must be on par with I am and everyone else if you’re capable of taking such beautiful pictures. You’re as… Magnificent as I am." Sehun smiled sheepishly.

"Do you think it’s possible if we forget — Whatever it is that happened between us? I’m sorry if I offended you in anyway the last time, I don’t know what I said or did wrong, please let me know and I won’t do it again, I promise, I just… Be my friend?" Sehun cut himself off before he started to ramble again, a familiar blush seen on his cheeks once again. The taller of the two nibbled at his bottom lip and twiddled his thumbs in hesitation. "Please?" 

[xxluhansnu]

Luhan flinches in surprise as soon as Sehun's voice enters his ears, breaking him away from his concerns as he turns to look at the brunette; seeing him holding out the marker for him. The blond licks his lips and nods his head in response to the artist's question as he takes the marker from his hand, immediately breaking their eye contact. He has been talking a lot like Shin lately and that is something he should fear. Is it possible for Shin to permanently take over him? To get rid of him and continue his series of murders from suns up to suns down?

Upon hearing Sehun's voice again, Luhan instinctively looks at him; his brown dark hues still filled with concern and fear. 

"I’m flattered you think so highly of me, but we must be on par with I am and everyone else if you’re capable of taking such beautiful pictures. You’re as… Magnificent as I am." 

The sheepish smile that tugs the corners of Sehun's lips appears tantalizingly charming to Luhan and the blond wants nothing more but to smile back if it wasn't for the dread for his other half bubbling up inside him. Will it actually be okay to be friends with Sehun in spite of the fact that he just praised him? Something that Shin most certainly despises?

However, now that he thinks about it, the only victims that have gone under Shin's manipulations are all females. Never once had he tried killing a guy before so... that makes Sehun safe, right? The endearingly tempting sight of the artist chewing on his bottom lip almost made Luhan immediately agree to being his friend.

But wait, why does he want to be friends with someone like me though?

Finally, Luhan picks up the board eraser and erases the writings on the white board before replacing them with his usual pleasantly decent hand-writing.

"Have you thought this through? I mean, would you really want to be friends with a hopeless case like me? Didn't the things I just said scare you away?"

He then looks at the brunette as he fiddles with the marker. Sometimes, when he ends up talking like Shin, he tends to scare people away and lose the chance of ever forming companionship with anyone. He'd figure Sehun would be the same and yet he's standing here with him, actually asking if they could be friends in spite of how weird the things Luhan just told him.

[seonghyeri]

You're not worthless, I will show you! | Lu Han + Hyeri

[seonghyeri]

Hyeri pressed her lips together, also pressing the nail of her thumb into her trigger finger. He didn’t exactly look happy. I shouldn’t have done this, I should’ve stayed on distance from the beginning…

"I forgot that I have something to do today, Hyeri-sshi. Perhaps we can do this some other day?"

She looked onto the floor before his feet. “Sure… if you’re busy I guess we have no other choice… if you’re too busy I can also do it alone, Luhan-sshi.” She replied him with a weak voice, addressing him politely since he was probably older than her. She was too limp to write anything down right now. She suddenly felt tired and powerless, which she usually did when she felt disappointed in any way. I want to snuggle into my bed…

“Is it something important?” She then asked him looking up to his face. The smile that she was always carrying on her lips had faded. This really was a bad idea… Maybe I shouldn’t try being friends with him, this feels weird… but…

She wanted to say something, but she didn’t know what. She decided to say nothing, so she wouldn’t say anything stupid. She felt dumb standing there… this definitely felt like a rejection. Something she wasn’t too overly good with. I really should stop trying to be friends with him if he doesn’t want to… no, wait, he said ‘he can’t’…

She made a decision for herself and looked up to his face, “Can you answer me one last question, then?” she asked, not really letting him time to answer that, if he wouldn’t want to answer, he could also say that after she actually asked the question. “Why ‘can’t’ you be friends with me? You said you want to… but you can’t because of some reason. Why is that?”

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Luhan purses one corner of his lips as he watches Hyeri's expression turn crestfallen, causing him to feel guilty for cancelling their time together. He knows that he would most certainly enjoy spending time with her but she obliviously made a horrible mistake. She had voiced out her positive thoughts about him and that would certainly trigger Shin's lust for blood. Unlike Luhan, Shin despises the people who think he's better than he thinks. He finds people like them unworthy to live if they're going to waste their time believing that he could do or be something that's praise-worthy.

“Is it something important?”

Luhan uncertainly rubs the back of his neck as he tries to think of a reason why he couldn't hang out with her today. He's not a very good liar so the thought of lying to the girl almost seems impossible to him. She would undoubtedly be able to see right through his lie.

But before he could write anything down on his notepad, Hyeri's next words stop him from doing so.

“Can you answer me one last question, then? Why ‘can’t’ you be friends with me? You said you want to… but you can’t because of some reason. Why is that?”

The blond swallows the anxiety that's building up in his throat as he averts his gaze away from the girl, his fingers now fiddling with his pen and his notepad. He can't tell her about Shin. He can't tell her about his sickness. She may seem like a nice girl but Luhan doesn't know much about her so there's still a high chance of her telling on him to the authorities.

But how is he going to answer her question without mentioning the things that should never be mentioned? 

Finally, he begins writing something down.

"I am not worthy of your friendship. Being your partner for this project is big enough of an honor for me. But being your friend is something I'm afraid I can't handle."