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[xyztricia]

Life Lately.

25th.

How do I start? I guess I'll start by patting my back for making it this far. 25 years. Man. That is not a joke. Most especially because of what is happening this year.

I remember I wrote something at the start of this year so much hopeful and excited of the year ahead without an idea of what is going to happen

That is why making it this far is such a great blessing already. With all the tears, fears, worries, laughter and reliefs that I experienced I know there is more to come.

But throughout this, I am just most grateful that I am not alone. Even though there are times that I fail I know He never leaves me. And that is more than enough.

Congrats for making it this far self. And thank You for for being my greatest back up Lord. I love You.

[xyztricia]

Quarantined Good Friday It is Good Friday, we remember the death of Jesus on the cross, the most significant expression of God's love to humanity. And I am just like the whole world quarantined for almost 3 weeks now. But the only difference is that I am alone in my apartment with my 5 cats. No one knew, expected and is ready this would happen and yet here we are in the midst of uncertainties. And then I came upon the movie Be With You. The story of Soo Ah brought lingering thoughts on my mind as I finished it. She was priviledged to have been given a choice in life as she saw a glimpse of what will happen to her in the future. She hesitated a lot if she will be brave enough to face all the consequences of her choices. And yet she chose what will truly make her happy. No one has the privilege to have been given a choice in real life. And if that happens to me, I will still choose a life with my Savior Jesus even if I know it means that I will not be taking an easy road. Unlike Soo Ah who saw a glimpse of her future. I trust my uncertainties to the One I am most certain of, and that is my God. And I am assured that after all everything will be worth it. And everything is possible because my Savior Jesus Christ died on the cross for me. And when that happened He already finished everything so that I could have a full life. And because of that living a life for Him and with Him is all worth it.

[xyztricia]

Hello 2019!

What a year it has been Lord this 2018. Thank you for all the lessons that made me grow, for all the fall that made me stronger and all the victories that have won. It's not has been an easy year. As much as I just want to look only on the victories there are falls that brought me lessons that I need along the way. Thank you for all the new places that You have allowed me to experience. New summits that I conquered, new roadtrips that I have been through and new wonderful creations that You have allowed me to see. Thank you for allowing my heart to let go of old people and let me embrace a new one. It may not be an easy task for me. But I know You have been there and You remain my constant. For me, that is what matters the most. Thank you for the new experiences that I have been this year. Travelling with few people that I know, watching gigs entirely alone, entering a new job and being promoted and learning a new position and task twice this year and so many new experiences was not quite an easy thing to do. But it was all worth it. For I know You are always there and never leaving me behind But I realize for me, one of the most grateful thing if not the best thing that had happen to me this year is that no matter what I stayed by Your side Lord. No amount of big achievements and goal that are fulfilled in life this year could compare to that kind of feeling. That is why this year, as much as I want to enumerate all the desires of my heart, what my biggest desire is to fully surrender more of my life to Jesus for now is the time. I just want more of Jesus in my life this year. I am ready Lord for I am assured that You are there and You never leave me behind. Hello 2019

[xyztricia]

I know your heart is lost And all the words, they don't make sense Your fingers crossed Hoping you're a better man tomorrow So you walk along But don't be afraid to wonder Try to get back that wander that you lost And when you're done I'll be waiting -Reese Lansangan, St. Petersburg Haysss. This song really summed up what I feel right now. I actually don' t know how this piece will end up, I just know I want to write and write. Bit emotional today, actually for the past few days already because of the overwhelming things happening. But yeah, I won't be afraid to wonder. I won't be afraid to hold on to Romans 8:28, to Jeremiah 29:11 and most importantly His love. And yes also, fingers crossed, I hope I'm a better man tomorrow cause I know He is not finished with me yet. With all the things happening there is still unexplainable peace here in my heart.

[xyztricia]

The Sunday Currently Hi! Happy last Sunday of October, Happy 34 years on All for Christ Church, Happy National Cat day. Despite everything, there are so many great reasons to be happy about.

Currently Right now, I am here at my ate’s house alone. Well, technically not alone cause 10 cats, cat sitting. Yes, if baby sitting do exists, cat sitting definitely do so.

Reading I’m currently reading a novel entitled Bright Side, and I can’t remember when did I started reading. I’m having high hopes on finishing this novel on the days to come so I could move on to another one.

Writing Sunday Currently Volume *i cant remember* Yay! I finally found the motivation to write one.

Listening The sound of the aircondition of the neighbor

Thinking I don’t want to say a lot of things cause its super gasgas na. But earlier, I surrendered one thing to God, and it really feels so good doing it. It’s like having a freedom once again from God. And right now I’m letting Him take control of things in my life no matter what.

Smelling Ung sinampay ng kapitbahay.

Wishing It’s not wishing but earnestly praying for God’s provision this coning week.

Hoping For a call from an employer next week 🙏

Wearing Ate’s pantulog. Striped na duster. Been wearing it for two days now. Which concludes that I reaaally need to do the laundry tomorrow.

Wanting Foooood. At quarter to eleven in the evening, I’m quite hungry. And I’ve been craving for pizza and jollibee’s coffe or choco float for one month now.

Needing Still for God’s strength over my life right now. *singing ‘God is the strength of my heart and my portion foreveeerr’*

Feeling Free and assured, holding on to God’s promises over my life right now

Loving That I have it all surrendered to God. I know it’s never God’s plan for me take control of things, I will let God handle it.

This coming days, this thing that I have been surrendered to God earlier today will be put into action. I will just hold on to one thing in my life and that is who God is on my life. And I will only focus on Jesus on matter what

Good night!

[xyztricia]

To be honest, I was not totally the whole day, there’s just things that made me upset today. But seeing their 150+ prenup pics really just made my day. I know few years from now, I’ll just cringe over myself for writing about these things. But this just brightened up my day so I guess I’ll just have to live in the moment.

Hayss, thanks God for the little things that He sends to make me happy and turn things around :)

[xyztricia]

It's okay not to be okay. It's okay not to be okay. What's okay on not being okay? When you feel God's presence more, when you worship Him more with your heart and when you get to know more of Him deeply. And I think that makes not being okay worth it.

[wnq-writers]

I spent so much time hating, criticising, being disappointed and feeling miserable with the person I was. I had dug myself deeper and deeper into a hole of regret and guilt about the distance between who I was and who I wanted to be. So deep I could no longer see the possibility that I could change. Now, I have finally reached a point where I am motivated to change. I am taking steps, no matter how tiny, towards the person I know I can be and it’s exciting. Part of me keeps trying to remind myself that i’m a fool and i will never change, but i’m getting much better at ignoring that and hopefully soon I will prove myself wrong.

enigmatic-thinker  (via wordsnquotes)

[xyztricia]

Today, I just discovered a friend of mine way back in elementary just died. As of the moment, I still don't have the exact story what happened to him. Recently, nalaman ko na he is into art, I just had a plan to message him and ask if he could draw me what saddened me most is di na sya mangyayari. I did have regrets na sana I didn't have waited for some more time to approach him. And I know it was God who reminded me of what is written on James 4, that life is just a mist and we will never really know what will happen tomorrow.

[xyztricia]

Did it ever happened to you that while you are in the middle of reading a good book, your friends invited you to a movie date, a movie of the book you are reading. But then again you realize you miss them so much so you said yes anyway. It happened to me few days ago and it was the book me before you of Jojo Moyes. I tried so hard to finish it right before we watch the movie but because I'm always a slow reader (even took me more than a month to finish a single novel), I stopped reading when I was in the climax of the book and ended up watching the movie and knowing what happened on the story of the book on the movie. My friends that I watched the movie with didn't seem to like how the story turned out, maybe they just got upset on what happened to the characters, but whatever happened to the story, I liked it anyway because I realize things from the story. Lou had a bubbly personality on the story, that would mainly be the reason why most of its readers find it hard to accept what happened to her. After what she had done to Will. But they both changed each other's lives no matter what. She made Will realize things in life. And Will did the same to her. She made Will want to realize that no matter what unexpected things that happens in our lives, there will always be something to look forward to. Even if things won't go according to what we expect it to happen, there will still be more to life. But when I read the ending of the story, and know the reason of Will, that for the first time after his accident he wants to do something and decide something by himself for the first time, I guess it was not really a sad ending. What impacted me more on reading the story is how Will wants to realize Lou to live boldly and just live life as fully as possible. He wants him to not just be confide on living on their small town. In the end, Will wants Lou to really get out of her comfort zone because there is where exciting things awaits for us. This is the kind of story that would want you to think a lot in your life after reading it. And would inspire you to write yours too.

[purplebuddhaproject]

[wnq-music]

I tell myself that I’ll be strong.

Ellie Goulding (via wnq-music)

[xyztricia]

I'm too emotional these days that I'm crying over this afternoon teleserye 😭😭😭

[sandandglass]

[hplyrikz]

Clear your mind here

[xyztricia]

Reason to love baymax ❤

[xyztricia]

The Sunday Currently Volume 1

The Sunday Currently Still have more than ten minutes before it turns twelve so I would still consider this Sunday. It’s really been a while and so much had happened recently that I don’t know where to start. But for now here I am alone in my apartment for less than two months now and trying to figure out things now.

Currently I joined an online contest for a concert ticket on a worship band. Ayoko ma hopia pero keber lng kahit di manalo. I already had loose a Hillsong concert ticket so my hopes are very high this time.

Reading Been a lazy reader because of so many things happening in my life right now but I am still trying hard to find that motivation And also currently reading articles on how to really set up blog.

Writing Sunday Currently Yey!

Listening TV commercials and the noise that my neighbor’s air-condition is making.

Thinking Uhhmmm. So bombarded with my own thoughts and emotions right now. And I don’t know how to put it into words right now

Smelling My fave hot choco :)

Wishing That I could go to beach right now or for the coming week because yeah, summer 2016 will end in a bit.

Hoping Tomorrow’s Monday and few days from now I’ll greet myself a happy one month of being unemployed. But declaring that the coming week will be different is enough to brighten me up.

Wearing The yellow summer camp tshirt back in two years that I have been wearing for whole day now.

Wanting A text message tomorrow or maybe the next coming days that says a certain company is inviting me for an interview or more importantly a text message that somehow contains a job offer.

Needing So much strength and faith from the God to face this coming week.

Feeling Still having sepanx even from now from all the school stuff. I miss kofuns, my university and everything about school

Loving That I am home alone and I can do whatever I want and I am still having my time while my mantra is still #willingtowait for me to still be hopeful of the things to come.

May 23, 2016 12:39 am

[xyztricia]

I love the idea of bucket lists, I mean it's about goals, things you want to achieve and trying out something new 😊

[lunacourtois]

[xyztricia]

Take me to beach rn pls.