Johnny.Be.Me

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Just got paramount plus and been liking the show “Couples Therapy”. On season 3 Ping talked about a Dragon that protects her inner child. I like that. So I drew my inner child with a bear Jinchuruuki.

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So I did find a place. My job was nice enough to let me have 2 weeks off finding out as new information for me too that I will be separating from my wife. I thought I had enough time and was ready for work. Some hiccups happened that morning and I just broke down and had a panic attack, started crying in the van. Told my manager can’t work that day. Later I got an email I was terminated. I understand but it also suck. But on the other side I do have a place and a little savings. I am going to try to upload some funny comics about mental illness. Trying to look at the positive side gives me more time to process. There’s so much more than that. Hardest 2 years of my life.

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Woke up this morning in a new place. Sucks I don’t want to be alone. Went to my old apartment, and later came to inn between pubs. I think I realizing more and more I don’t want to in Wa state anymore. The state of rain. The state of tears and bad memories. I want to start my own road regardless what others think. Even if I end up homeless. I am tired of being silent and taking abuse.

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I never thought I would start a blog. Blog sounds like people who can’t share with anyone they know in person, so they have to type it with whatever energy they have left. Sapped from the world of vampires to barely finish the typing on the keyboard… “ … my blog..”.

I don’t know for you other humans. We all humans right? All equal? That’s what I have been told but never felt it. This last year and a half of my life has been the hardest. Yes I know everyone has something more worse. I am just saying for myself. but I want to do my best to make something positive out of it, or funny, or maybe sometimes negative I just want it to be real. Because I’m tired of fake people 😔 or being surrounded by fake people.