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[fairycosmos]

is this a cry for help by emily austin

[weltenwellen]

Ellen Bass, “The Thing Is”, Poetry of Presence: An Anthology of Mindfulness Poems

[thisisalovestry]

file -> phrases that are going to shift something in me forever

[insomniparty]

[raylangivins]

[yaggotry]

girl its always some fucking bullshit omg

[aidashakur]

[sacred-portal]

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you think you find a good man

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having recent realizations about how connected i am/feel to water and i wonder how deep that runs in my blood memory. as a child i loved swimming, i always chose the water starters playing pokemon, i wanted to be a water bender so bad, i adored the percy jackson series, and likely other instances i can't presently recall. as an adult, i crave being near the water. earlier this year, i decided to travel and my only criteria was i wanted to be by the ocean, i could spend hours just staring and listening to waves, i am writing a script where water and the ocean are the driving force and image, i have abandoned a manuscript that has a similar grounding image of water. hmmmm...

[bromios]

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im honestly so fucking confused as to whats going on with my friend

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we still haven’t spoken but like she messaged me on my bday and made a few attempts at making plans (but i was busy on the days she asked) but i’m also like enjoying space away from them and i feel a bit guilty for enjoying it (or maybe it’s the fact that i’m not getting back to them) idk i’m finally in a really good place in my life right now despite this situation being a tension in my life and i kind of want to relish in it

[yaggotry]

we havent spoken yet but i feel like we’re both at a place to come together and talk through this specific situation but im also not feeling forgiving bc im still very hurt by just being iced out

[yaggotry]

i started hooking up with this super discreet muscle daddy and the chemistry is kind of insane and he went on vacation and i need him to return pronto anyway i also just learned he wrote a spiritual guidebook im ctfu

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the way i immediately started seeing someone after this

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writing poetry in my head on the treadmill

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🫩🫩🫩

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fucking up sucks the life out of me like i did a big no no yesterday that i already hashed out with my friend but i feel soooooo shitty about it this morning idk maybe its bc im all alone so im just reflecting on it but like what use is there in dwelling on it

[yaggotry]

we’re so back

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i started hooking up with this super discreet muscle daddy and the chemistry is kind of insane and he went on vacation and i need him to return pronto anyway i also just learned he wrote a spiritual guidebook im ctfu