is this a cry for help by emily austin

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is this a cry for help by emily austin
Ellen Bass, “The Thing Is”, Poetry of Presence: An Anthology of Mindfulness Poems
file -> phrases that are going to shift something in me forever
girl its always some fucking bullshit omg
you think you find a good man
having recent realizations about how connected i am/feel to water and i wonder how deep that runs in my blood memory. as a child i loved swimming, i always chose the water starters playing pokemon, i wanted to be a water bender so bad, i adored the percy jackson series, and likely other instances i can't presently recall. as an adult, i crave being near the water. earlier this year, i decided to travel and my only criteria was i wanted to be by the ocean, i could spend hours just staring and listening to waves, i am writing a script where water and the ocean are the driving force and image, i have abandoned a manuscript that has a similar grounding image of water. hmmmm...
im honestly so fucking confused as to whats going on with my friend
we still haven’t spoken but like she messaged me on my bday and made a few attempts at making plans (but i was busy on the days she asked) but i’m also like enjoying space away from them and i feel a bit guilty for enjoying it (or maybe it’s the fact that i’m not getting back to them) idk i’m finally in a really good place in my life right now despite this situation being a tension in my life and i kind of want to relish in it
we havent spoken yet but i feel like we’re both at a place to come together and talk through this specific situation but im also not feeling forgiving bc im still very hurt by just being iced out
i started hooking up with this super discreet muscle daddy and the chemistry is kind of insane and he went on vacation and i need him to return pronto anyway i also just learned he wrote a spiritual guidebook im ctfu
the way i immediately started seeing someone after this
writing poetry in my head on the treadmill
fucking up sucks the life out of me like i did a big no no yesterday that i already hashed out with my friend but i feel soooooo shitty about it this morning idk maybe its bc im all alone so im just reflecting on it but like what use is there in dwelling on it
we’re so back
i started hooking up with this super discreet muscle daddy and the chemistry is kind of insane and he went on vacation and i need him to return pronto anyway i also just learned he wrote a spiritual guidebook im ctfu