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Deep Ass Starters.

Sometimes it's hard to get in depth with your muse and their backstory, because you can't figure out how to bring those things up with others. Here are a couple of starters intended to make things a little more personal!

"What's holding you back?"

"I'm not comfortable with this conversation."

"Will you /ever/ be comfortable with this conversation?"

"Let me in sometime!"

"It's not that easy, you know."

"Help me understand."

"It's hard to connect with someone when all they do is push you away."

"Why are you always so cold?"

"Why are you always so happy?"

"Are you really happy now?"

"Who hurt you this badly to make you this way?!"

"What, did your ex mess you up that badly?!"

"Why do you keep fighting it any time you feel?"

"It's a problem, I get it."

"This is all kinds of messed up."

"That's not exactly a good coping method."

"So what happened, with your parents, really?"

"What was your childhood like?"

"Everyone has at lest a little bit of mommy/daddy issues. It's nothing to be ashamed of."

"My parents aren't exactly perfect models, either."

"You were bullied? What for?"

"Was it hard? Coming out, I mean."

"You can't just run away all the time."

"You can't just hide all the time."

"Are you still thinking about them?"

"I'm not the enemy here. But this makes me wonder who the real one is for you."

"Is the reason you're so cold and defensive because you feel threatened?"

"How long has it been since you last spoke to them?"

"You never talk about it, why?"

"How come you're so different around them?"

"It's like you don't have a care or worry in the world."

"You seem so perfect. I don't get it."

"What was your ex like?"

"I don't think I was ever good enough for them."

"Are you not comfortable being intimate?"

"Why don't you feel comfortable being intimate?"

"Letting someone see you that vulnerable, it's a scary thing."

"Are you scared of being hurt?"

"Have you ever been taken advantage of?"

"Why are you afraid of saying I love you?"

"I never understood how someone could say those words so easily."

"You're hurting others the way you've been hurt in the past, don't you think that's ironic?"

"You use people to make yourself feel better."

"I'm scared of being used again..."

"Losing someone isn't easy, but you're making it harder than it needs to be."

"How long has it been since you lost them?"

"You're too attached."

"I'm not attached, I'm just comfortable with what I'm familiar to."

"Maybe the real reason you're so controlling is because, deep down you'd rather have them in your grasp than lose them."

"Why did you ever break up?" / "Why did we ever break up?"

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It was more or less a good thing she was only sent on a mission to keep an eye on someone and to report in whatever suspicious activity they were doing. She couldn’t really hear what he had said… though if she did, she would have disagreed. It was one thing that she and Roxas agreed upon. It’s not always better to be left out of the loop. Though.. what she is doing at the moment was quite hypocritical of her. Does she have an excuse? …It’s hard to tell him. But… is that really good enough of an excuse to continue hiding this from him? They are both their own person in the end.. or so they liked to believe. However, the truth she’s been hearing lately… it has become quite shocking.

“…There is one thing I would like to be able to do before I make my decision.” she admits in the end. “…However, I’ll probably be risking too much if I were to try to do it all on my own… so I have to hurry, don’t I?” She questioned for a moment, even if she didn’t hesitate in knowing what he was talking about. The fact that she wasn’t detained to be sent elsewhere was enough to let her know that they aren’t exactly bad guys. And the reason for her existence.. well. That was already a connected fact. An indirectly answered question.

          LUCK seemed to be on his side, for once. If she had heard him, he had no doubt that she would have put up another fight against him. However, the words had unintentionally slipped past his lips. He was just glad that they were spoken quietly, and she was distracted. But there was something far more important now than the mission she had been assigned by the Organization. The time for her to leave them was slowly closing in, and he had to make sure she safely reunited with Sora. Lips pursed in thought, masking any urgency he felt towards the situation. She had to decide for herself.

❝  Yeah. Do what you need to before making your decision, so you don’t live with any regrets. But you also need to be careful, the Organization has a thin patience, and they’ll turn on you in the blink of an eye if they suspect you of anything.  ❞   Warning her of the dangers, was that due to his own goals, or because of who she looked like, almost reminded him of? Both of them continued to remain his weakness, a fatal flaw in his current mission. The two he sought information on and had to retrieve were constant reminders of his past. Physical forms of nostalgia that halted quick progress of his goals. They weren’t supposed to exist, but it didn’t feel right treating them as if they were nothing. Not when they held parts of the two he would do anything for. It was easier to make them decide this on their own.

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“ what?? no, that doesn’t mean you can do it on me!! ”

            ❝  Did you really expect that you could do something like that to someone and they wouldn’t do anything to you in return? That isn’t how the worlds work. It’s like if you attack someone first, you better expect them to fight back.  ❞

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“ hey! ” swats his hand away !!!

         ❝  If you can do it to me, then I can do it to you. No complaining.  ❞

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“ no. ”

         ❝  Fine, then if you’re going to be that way...  ❞   Proceeds to touch Roxas’ butt in return.

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he did nothing, hes innocent.

        CLEARLY that’s a lie he isn’t going to fall for.   ❝  ANSWER me!   ❞

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touches the butt.

          FREEZES as he feels a hand against his butt, gritting his teeth as he finally quickly spins around to face the offender. Lips curve into a frown, eyebrows furrowed as his hands curled into fists.   ❝  What did you just do?!  ❞

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" give up already! "

           ❝  That’s my line. You’re making this more difficult than it needs to be.  ❞   It wasn’t like he had a greater purpose in life, either. Nobodies weren’t meant to EXIST. So why did he try so hard to defy his fate? His patience was wearing thin, waiting for everything to fall into place. When would he get his  B E S T  F R I E N D  back? If it came down to it, he’d knock out the blond and drag him to DiZ if he had to. This waiting game would have to come to a close at some point.

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hits him with his keyblade.

          ❝  You’re being annoying.  ❞   Parries the attack and swings his keyblade at Roxas.

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cuorediluce:

Ah.. There it goes. The one thing she might have known would have happened somewhere in the depths of her mind. Not that Kairi couldn’t blame him. Physically, she was in his care, but her heart was with Sora’s at the time. Then again, it wasn’t as though she could have done anything to let the two boys know where exactly she was. ..But all that is in the past. They’re both home now.

She smiled a little as she shook her head. “Nah.” She spoke. “The both of you are my best friends. I’m sure Sora would agree if I were to say I’m not leaving anyone behind if we were to go. That’s the original plan, wasn’t it?” She asked. The three of them. Leaving the islands together on a small raft to go on a journey. What Kairi really wants to know for sure was if Riku was still up for it or not.

          KINDNESS was something he felt like he didn’t deserve. They should have been angry at him, instead of welcoming him back with open arms. It was strange to think that he’d rather be punished for his mistakes, rather than forgiven. But his mistakes had cost them years of their lives that they could never get back. Years of struggle, trauma, and separation were caused by his own foolishness. How would things have changed if he hadn’t been so ambitious?

❝  That’s true. All three of us are supposed to visit the worlds together. I’m sure there’s many more Sora and I haven’t gone to that we can find with you. Maybe we can go in a few weeks, once we’ve had time to rest. It’s been a while since we’ve been home.  ❞   At least, together at peace like this. There were many times he had visited the island, if only to make sure that his home world and Kairi were still safe from harm. He wouldn’t let the darkness return here, which there had to be more of it left. The battle against the darkness couldn’t be over so easily—at least, that’s what he wanted to believe. Anything to stop him from feeling so different from the others. He didn’t belong in this world anymore, and even though Kairi had the best intentions, she was making it clear he needed space. Time away from the two he would sacrifice everything to save. There was still so much about himself  that he needed to figure out, to sort through. What would his next plan of action be?

❝  Speaking of rest, I’m starting to get tired. Ask Sora how he feels about visiting other worlds together, and then we can make a decision from there.  ❞   Maybe if he got a head start, they wouldn’t be able to find him. And then eventually, they would give up looking for him and let him decide when he was ready to appear before them. But now that they were finally reunited, could he really leave their side, despite how he felt? It was a decision he’d have to make soon.

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         THAT hadn’t been the reaction he was expecting. The smirk across his lips faded, a more thoughtful expression taking its place. Unlike Sora, she was incredibly perceptive—perhaps that was partly due to her status as a Princess of Heart. Even if she wasn’t one of the princesses, she was still smart. And in cases like this, he wished she was as thick headed as the other person in their trio. Even though she had reassured him that everything was fine, he still found it hard to look her directly in the eyes. There was more that he had done, things she didn’t know about, and was better off not knowing. The guilt he carried was gnawing away at him, and it was starting to be too much for him to handle. Nothing could return to the way it was before, he’d been too C O R R U P T E D.

Gaze averted away from her quickly as the memories started flooding back. Of course she didn’t get her fill of adventure. She had been empty while himself and Sora had been exploring worlds, looking for her. And then when he found her, well. She could have been treated better. He could have found a different way to give her back her heart. There were a lot of what if scenarios that played in his head each night. Neither of them would understand, not that he wanted them to. They were better off not carrying the burden he did.

❝  Knowing him, he’ll probably want to go back out there eventually. Especially if it’s to see old friends he’s made. As for me, I’m still trying to decide if I’ve had my fill of adventure. I’m sure if you talked to Sora about it, he’d be willing to take you to other worlds. There’s a lot he can show you.  ❞   Besides, it was probably safer that Sora took Kairi to visit the other worlds. There were more allies to make sure she’d be kept safe. More than could be said if the two of them went alone. Maybe if they left before him, that would keep the two from looking for him for a while. No, he shouldn’t encourage it. It was better if they stayed on the island. Why did she have to find him at that very moment? His own thoughts and feelings were getting muddled, conflicting even more violently against each other than before.

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       WHY was it that she inherited both of their stubbornness? Granted, it was inevitable, but that didn’t mean he had to like it. She was making this harder than it needed to be. Restoring Sora to his old self was taking much longer than he had hoped—but then again, that was his own fault. If he took her back to DiZ by force, this would have been over by now. There was nobody else to blame except himself for being PATIENT, and letting her choose when it was time to go. He was told not to care at all, and yet, whatever was left of her existence, he wanted her to enjoy it while it lasted—if only because of her resemblance to his best friends.

                                     ❝  Sometimes, it’s better not knowing.  ❞

The words were spoken under his breath, barely audible if at all. It wasn’t supposed to be taken as him chastising her for her positive thinking, but himself. The teen piled up regret upon regret onto his shoulders, a burden he willingly took as if to repent for his wrongdoings. After all, if he hadn’t been searching for the answer to his questions, none of this would have happened. The two people he cared about the most wouldn’t have been put into danger, nor would they have needed help to become whole again.   ❝  So what are you going to do now? Or are you still trying to figure that out?  ❞   Gritting his teeth, the questions came out as calmly as he had hoped. The storm dwelling within him successfully repressed. If only for the time being.

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