Mike. @yomikeva - Tumblr Blog

I'm not exactly sure what it is I'm continuing to live for...

I mean. I hope there's a purpose to my existence. But at the moment it's a little difficult to see any. Struggling is an understatement. I'm drowning.

Take care of yourself. Mentally, physically and spirituality. I cannot stress how important it is to have a healthy state of mind is. Mental hygiene should always be priority number one because once we lose sight of who and what we are. It’s all down hill from there. So Love yourself. Do whatever you have to do to take care of yourself. And don’t forget to smile. We don’t get to do this thing called life for very long so let’s allow the little bit of time we do have to be as enjoyable as possible.

-Mike

There are times I wish I wasn’t such an outcast all my life. I’ve always been an introvert and preferred to be on my own, but there are times it would be nice to know one person who understood me on a personal level. All of the people I’ve ever run into really just get the surface. They see superficial shit like my shoes and clothes, and make their assumptions of what an interaction with me is to be based on. Or the rare few who have actually tried to get to know me but soon after dismissed me as “weird” because of my outlook on life. Family included. This isn’t me throwing a pitty party. I really don’t know what the hell this is honestly. I just know I’m not the only person who never feels understood. Wishes people knew the real them. It’s a strange feeling. My advice is to keep living. Keep growing. And most importantly never stop being you. The right people will surround you at the right time. Never change you for anyone.

-Mike

The maturation process is an interesting one. The transition from childhood to adulthood happens so fast that we hardly get the opportunity to sit and appreciate the growth. I’m now 24 years old and I sit with a nine year old every day and reminisce on what it was like to once be his age. Time flies. And if you don’t pay attention life will fly by you even faster. I now understand that more than ever. I guess the moral of this pointless post nobody is going to read is. Embrace the moment. Enjoy your life. Take total control and create the life you want for yourself. Because moments become memories and nothing is worse than regret or what ifs. Live now. You only get to do this once.

-Mike

I haven’t been on here in a looooong time. So as I scroll through here I see not much has changed from when I used to frequent Tumblr in its early days. Still the same people on here fronting. Pretending to be aware and socially conscious to come across as “deep”. Or reblogging “claasy” nudes to feel artistic. Bull shit. Don’t get me wrong, this is in no way a knock to the people out there trying to get their followers up. But. It just bothers me how scarce individuality is. We’re so concerned with being a part of the crowd that we lose sight of who we are as people. The high school mentality never dies. Just moves on to the Internet. How long can one perpetrate a persona that is not authentic? When will being true to yourself outweigh being accepted into a crowd of people who really don’t know you? Don’t mind me. I’m just talking.

-Mike

"From when I walked you across that street until you stand on your own feet. I'm here to get you to the other side some will never reach. Until I rest in peace securing your future won't let me sleep. Because you were born to be the better me I'll never be."

I really want to start using tumblr again.

But I don't think I'm cool enough for this app. Like even this. Look at this lame shit. How would I maintain an interesting "blog" when I don't have anything interesting to say. Oh well. Fuck it.

I haven't been on here in forever but what I want to say us too damn long to tweet. Haha.

The title itself was over 180 characters. Haha.

But seriously. I just read something that really put things into perspective for me. I won't directly quote the person but it really hit home. In situations like that I can't help but feel like it's god trying to send a message. On the surface it looks like I have it all figured out. But I've been going through an identity crisis the last couple months. And the quote that I'm speaking of just made me realize why. I'm just not happy. Now. Do I have things in my life that make me happy? Job, beautiful girlfriend, a bunch of earthly possessions(shoes, cars and shit). But it's just something missing. I've always believed that happiness was achieved through spiritual enlightenment. Meaning you can have a million things. But if you don't Love the person looking back through the mirror. It all means nothing. Maybe I'm just beginning my journey. My journey to self righteousness. I know it sounds like a bunch of rambling. But it's just me. Whispering muted screams to an invisible audience. Don't mind me.

-Mike