things have gotten totally out of hand🙃.

bit by bit, my smile will return. 🙂

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Always, appreciate life when there's little responsibility as possible.

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Yoh...this family, my go😭😭😭😭😭

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Stressed = adopt healthier habits for coping.

Stressed no more food and junk.....and alcohol.

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Just weighed myself.

100. 15 kg is disgusting 🫣

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Oh...Bawo😔..to come from a broken home and not know what a healthy relationship is. I find myself in relationship I feel is unhealthy and If I was wise I could walk away and not look back. I don't why I find myself, accepting scraps of a relationship...am I just happy that someone paid me a slightest attention, that I'm willing to accept so minimal of an attention...why can't I just walk away and leave it alone...why do I keep going back?...This will not serve me but I keep going back and getting myself into more mess. I wish I had walked away earlier....I wish I could just gather enough strength and not be so pathetic. I wish I could forget this year happened. This is not good for me yet I keep going back...I keep blocking and unblocking hoping for a different result yet nothing.....its always the same....I'm the idiot who keeps waisting her time. The words " I love you" keep me bound but that alone, I know is not enough. Why would you be so comfortable with going days w/o talking to someone you claim to love?

So help me God or whatever to gracefully walk away to preserve whatever dignity I have left? Whatever self-respect and to have grace towards myself and know I deserve so much better and that I shouldn't have to ask for basic of things. I for sure wished I was smarter with some of my decisions but time for wishing is now gone so I can only pray for strength to just walk away...simply just walk away.

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Your mom probably tells you how much they love you🥰

Mines...hates and calls me a dog🙃

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I say kill him, you're better off.

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All my family does is take, take and take. I'm so tired.

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That was hot.

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Oh God, but I liked him.

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2nd year, 1st semester.

4 modules, 1 distinction.😔

Difficult semester, but we made it.

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11:11 hope I'm okay.

Please be good to me.

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And a year later, I've completed my first year in nursing.

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I have never disliked my mother, this much. Just an annoying fuck who ruined my December holidays.

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Cannot fully express what a relief is to have finished my pep medication, now all that is left is to test one final time to determine what my status is. It's been scary, lonely and uncomfortable and I simply don't wish to go through this again. I promise to take better care of myself and not be so naive and trusting that people will have my best interest at heart.

Glad my first year as a student nurse has ended and now headed to my second year. What a year it has been, to say it was challenging is an understatement, i prayed the year before the commencement of my studies, begged God that I wanted to keep my head busy cause I was tired of doing nothing, but I couldn't have imagined how busy it would get, I mean I only rested for two weeks and I was back on the horse once more. I have been scared and relived so many times, more than I could count. I have excelled in my studies that I have shocked myself. I have managed to keep calm , keep my head above the waters. I have gone through moments that forced me out of my comfort zone, I have made mistakes and wished I could take back immediately. I have wonderful souls and wish the best in everything they do.

Now, we look forward to the second year as a student nurse. It will be everything I have gone through in first year, multiply that by 1000 maybe. I can only pray for guidance, strength, patience, understanding, comprehension, and caution. For me to always listen to my institution . To make better, well-informed decisions.

Academically, what do I even say, of course I want to continue my amazing streak but ohhh, I was tired in my second semester and my grades flopped. So maybe, I ask simply ask to manage my studies better, to make time or manage it better, take advantage of opportunities that arise.

Financially, I want better, I want more and I genuinely pray for more. May I get everything my heart desires. Financial security, job security and my own house, simple.

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How selfish, must you be to think you can just leave your mess with anybody else.1