“ Big girls Cry when their hearts are breaking.”
I said i trust you and for me it’s bigger, it’s more than i love you. You see i’m not the kind who trust easily, i’m not a pretty little girl who’s waiting for her prince, the one who will save her, love her and stay forever, people always leave, it’s a fact, nobody ever chose me, maybe i’m not enough, maybe i’m not worth fighting for, maybe i’m too hard to handle or to love, i’m used to it, the goodbyes, the “ Take care of yourself “ thing, but for a second and i know it was stupid, but for a second, i thought it’s gonna be different, i thought you were different, I thought i could trust you and i need you to understand why, you came from nowhere, you were everything i ever wanted, you gave me hope while i was completely hopeless. But i was wrong, i cared about you more than anyone else in the world, i gave you everything, i trully, completely and deeply loved you, i tried my best really, i promise but it wasn’t enough and you left like it was the easiest thing to do in the world. I was wrong, and now i found myself in such a dark place for someone who care so little about me, it’s awful and it hurts like hell.
I’m not the one i used to be, i’m not fearless, careless, dangerous, wild.. i’m not strong anymore. You changed me, you left and i’ve lost myself.
“ It's a beautiful kind of pain, setting fire to yesterday. Find the light, find the light, find the light.. “