Can you burn a fire in my flesh?

'Cause your love's so cold I can see my breath.

[iero]

HAYLEY WILLIAMS | Glum

[yougotwinterinyoursoul]

I miss Costa Rica so much

[yougotwinterinyoursoul]

I tried to dm about your photos by it won’t let me

Whooops!!! I had the dms turned off!! You can try now if you want!

[this-could-be-anywhereintheworld]

Can only go up from here

[yougotwinterinyoursoul]

Who am I without you now?

[yougotwinterinyoursoul]

hi.. are these originally yours?

If you are taking about the photos that you “liked” and commented on then yes- they were taken at my house

[killz0ne3-deactivated20250521]

Some of you guys have never burned a CD and it shows

[killz0ne3-deactivated20250521]

Some of you guys don't even realise I don't mean setting a CD on fire

[tiredandlonelymuse]

Aging is cruel.

Pages of a book stuck between fingers.

You lick and lick and they stay attached

refusing to peel apart.

Hair like dryer lint, lifting in the wind

whisping away, fragile thing.

A ghost of years past

and on your face, the betrayal of truth.

Hubris washed off, and confidence broken.

Heart in shambles, the failures of relationships end.

Jobs lost and children angry.

Revealing the lonely ranks of insecurity.

I know nothing.

I am nothing.

I never was.

You are nothing too

but you posture, with your youth.

And maybe, that is good enough

while it lasts.

- Senescence. 2025

[somewordsarebiggerthanothers]

[worthless-mess]

"Are you ok?" I'm actually tired bro. From the bottom of my heart I'm tired

[yougotwinterinyoursoul]

It’s the anniversary of you taking your own life. I don’t talk to your family anymore. I messed up a lot. But you still give me strength during my weakest times. I miss you

[yougotwinterinyoursoul]

I have been living in survival mode for so long, I don’t know how to do anything else. I feel like I can’t enjoy anything, but at the same time when do I get to enjoy anything? I work in a highly stressful environment and then on my days off I am very burnt out.

I wish I could enjoy the small pleasures in life but I am so fucking tired. I don’t get to leave my house except for when I go to work. And I don’t make enough money to be able to really enjoy much either, I want to travel but I can’t. I want to go out to eat or enjoy coffee but I can’t. Yes I have a beautiful dog and cat. I love them so much but when do I get to do things!!! When do I get to enjoy things with them too?? Like I’m so tired of feeling this way.

Everyone else in my life is thriving, and traveling and experiencing. I am just trying to survive and I don’t know why anymore.

[yougotwinterinyoursoul]

I hate the things that happened. I hate how I still react to them. In all of my 31 years, I can’t ever escape the feeling like I am going to get into trouble and that I might die for the punishment. Everyday that my mum went to work at night time I was afraid to be left alone with him. Always trying to be somewhere else so I wouldn’t make him mad at me. I hate carrying this around with me still. I want to feel safe so badly but the minute I do I hear his voice again. He’s dead and I still hear it. Like he’s haunting me.

[bl0w-m3]

[nevver]

Watching all the stars burn out, Tye Martinez

[underwelmed]

[megansknees]

note to self entry #05