Your Vampire

I/Me/Myself

[your-mentally-ill-vampire]

So all doctors lie to me. They promised to test me for borderline but didn't. They diagnosed me with depression and moved on. They didn't even ask me about borderline symptoms. They all tell me to move on from wanting to get diagnosed with bpd because bpd is basically a death road. Well guess what, not getting diagnosed with it doesn't change that.

[your-mentally-ill-vampire]

I'm ba k from the dead aka I feel bad enough to open Tumblr again so hello guyssss I'm still alive but not for long

[your-mentally-ill-vampire]

I need to die

[your-mentally-ill-vampire]

Die

[your-mentally-ill-vampire]

Me and my lover after making "hextech" our safeword.

[zxloftt]

I wish😔 /hj

[your-mentally-ill-vampire]

Just opened my ex' spotify to see what new playlists they got. It hurt so well, good Lord, I want more.

[your-mentally-ill-vampire]

cutting myself as a little treat

[your-mentally-ill-vampire]

If one more thing goes wrong, I'm wipping out my old conversations with my ex. THey will comfort me (not) if I'm delusional enough. Just make me forget. Just make me believe. Read through the poems, listen to the songs, day dream about when we were intimate.

[x4ver1a-deactivated20251026]

My heart has never known an emotion like you.

[i-will-die-in-it]

I wish i had enough energy to kill myself right now. Or at least to cut.....

[sillystigmata]

Daniel coming out in s3.

[your-mentally-ill-vampire]

Eating gets harder with every day. I keep skipping meals. . I fear I might develope an eating disorder soon.

[your-mentally-ill-vampire]

My fp chose to soend lunch with my ex instead of me today and I'm not even upset about it, I'm just numb and can't focus on anything. Even doomscrolling feels like a chore.

[your-mentally-ill-vampire]

God, my therapist is ghosting me and I'm only getting worse. I can't enjoy anyone else's company but my fp's but they are way too busy spending there whole time with their ex and my ex. I want to leave everyone. Finally end this all.

[borderline-culture-is]

bpd NOT recovering culture is oh yeah that fp that totally isnt your fp, yeah turns out all those months of healthily distancing yourself from them backfired because suddely you're spirlally and youre even more possessive over them than yu were to begin with, and the mere thought of them enjoying another persons company makes you want to stab yourself

~👉🏻㊙️👈🏻

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[shitborderlinesdo]

The Borderline Personality Disorder Checklist

This is a checklist to help one understand Borderline Personality Disorder. One may use it to self-diagnose or as a worksheet to present to a doctor or therapist  or other medical professional and better communicate symptoms they are experiencing. All information is taken from the DSM-5.

Section I Must check TWO or more of the following:

I have identity problems, including: I have an unstable sense of identity, I have poor self-esteem and excessive self-criticism, and I often experience dissociation when I am under stress.

I am unstable in my goals, aspirations, values, and/or career plans.

I have a heightened sense of empathy and am hypersensitive to the feelings and needs of my peers, although my perceptions are often biased towards negative attributes.

There is a lot of instability in my relationships, in that I am needy, mistrustful, and anxious.

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Section II Must check TWO or more of the following:

I have cognition problems and difficulty retaining information and remembering people and events.

I have affectivity problems and difficulty controlling the range and intensity of my emotional responses.

I have problems with interpersonal functioning and being aware of my own actions and feelings and how they affect others.

I have difficulty controlling my impulses.

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Section III Must check ONE or more of the following:

I am very impulsive and often act on things without planning.

I engage in dangerous, risky, and/or potentially self-damaging activities with no concern to my personal limitations.

I am easily angered.

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Must have at least FOUR checks TOTAL by the end of this section, including ones from previous section (If you checked two above, you only need two here, for example):

My emotions are incredibly unstable, and I change moods often (sometimes within minutes), feeling things more intensely than others seem to.

I experience intense feelings of nervousness, tenseness, panic, and/or anxiety. I have fears of the future and of falling apart or losing control.

I get separation insecurity and fear abandonment.

I am frequently depressed and feel hopeless and have a difficult time recovering from such moods.

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Section IV Must check FIVE or more of the following:

I have a fear of abandonment and do my best to avoid it.

I switch between idealizing and devaluing the people in my life. My relationships are often unstable and intense.

I have an unstable sense of self and often question my identity.

I am impulsive.

I have attempted suicide and/or I self-harm.

I have frequent mood swings.

I often feel empty or depressed and have doubts about my future.

I am hot-tempered.

When stressed, I am paranoid and/or I experience dissociation.

__ / 9 Total

Section V Must check ALL of the following:

My symptoms impair my personality and social functioning 

My symptoms are consistent across a broad range of personal and social situations.

My symptoms have lasted a while and started in early adulthood or earlier.

My symptoms are not caused by medication, drug use, or another medical condition.

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At this point, if you have checked the minimum, you may qualify for a diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder. The next section is a compiled list of symptoms, behaviors, thought patterns, etc. often found in borderline patients.

If you did NOT meet the minimum, check out Major Depressive Disorder, General Anxiety Disorder, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, Bipolar Disorder, or Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder. If you checked ALL of Sections II and V but still did not meet the minimum in other sections, look into other personality disorders, especially other Cluster B’s.

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Section VI Common Symptoms and Behaviors associated: 

I have disordered eating patterns.

I am sometimes obsessive.

I sometimes get intrusive thoughts which I am unable to ignore.

I become attached easily.

I often “bait” people in order to start a conflict.

I have trouble sleeping, or I sleep too much.

I have a child-like curiosity.

I am dependent on others.

I sometimes mimic or mirror others.

I have nightmares.

I have difficulty processing information.

My appearance changes often.

I have an extreme need for acceptance.

I have a natural rejection of people in authority.

I constantly feel like I need to prove myself over and over again.

I very much live in the moment, to the point where past actions don’t matter. How I judge others (and myself) depends entirely on what is happening right now.

I isolate myself, even when I need social interaction.

I am often defensive.

I have anxiety/panic attacks.

I experience memory lapses.

I consider myself a perfectionist.

I react very strongly to mundane experiences.

I have a difficult time making decisions.

I have difficulty completing tasks.

I often feel misunderstood, mistreated, or victimized.

When I am upset, I am unable to calm down without help.

I castrophicize my problems and see the smallest things as the end of the world.

I often see my problems as unsolvable and hopeless to fix.

I hold grudges.

I alternate between seeing others as completely for them or against me.

I have a hard time recalling someone’s love for me when they’re not around.

I change my opinions depending on whom I’m with.

Sometimes the slightest provocation will make me feel abandoned.

I feel distrustful and suspicious a great deal of time.

I rush into relationships based on an idea of a person rather than the person themselves.

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