My Meandering Thoughts

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Power Hungry

I have never seen an addictive substance stronger than power

A single taste can have you hooked for life

And maybe you can fool yourself

Promise that you have it all under control

But power corrupts

It feeds on your fears 

And consumes souls

It is power that makes wealthy men gamble with poor men’s lives

And shatter the dreams of those who stand in their way

But beware, when you have been sucked dry 

it will betray you

For you do not control power

Power controls you. 

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Foggy Mirror

There is a haze

Upon my reflection

Casting shadow

My motions a blur

I see flashes of color

Glimpses of curves

But have lost my face

My image

Undefined

Uncertain

So I stand

Before the glass

Watching

Ever so patiently

Waiting

As my reflection

In its own time

Grows form

before me.

It‘s worth the wait.

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In My Hands

Some mornings

I wake terrified

for I know

My life lies

Within my own two hands

Then I remember

I'd be a lot more scared

If it was in anyone else's.

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Shadows

Under the right conditions

Shadows grow brave

No longer lurking in the corner of your eye

But a thick layer of darkness

Creeping and coating

Nipping at your toes

In a blink you are lost

The only protection

Your own determination

To cling to a source of light.

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Some nights

Some nights I lie awake

Caught in uncomfortable skin

Somewhere in between who I was

And who I will be

Craving a home that is gone

And one that is yet to be

Unsure of what it means to exist now.

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I want to be a dark spring day...

I want to be a dark spring day

A muted morning sky

muddled by bellowing thunder cries.

The sweet fresh air

who’s cool touch nips at your cheeks. 

The dark graveled ground

riddled with rippling puddles

reflecting rubber booted feet. 

The bright budding daffodil

heavy with mourning dew.

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To Have Loved and Lost

You were a sun

bright and beautiful

but destined to set.

I would be the one 

left,

despairing in the dark.

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Just Lie to Me

Why’d you ruin it?

Why did you have to open your big mouth and ruin it?

I know you can lie,

you lie to me all the time,

But you just couldn’t let me have my moment.

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Ever so frequently

I find myself

quite seriously

debating

whether or not

I am

of sound mind.

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Crossroads

Facing a crossroad, choosing what comes next, I fear not the path before me, but losing the path left behind.

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Toxic Pride

You gave me your pride

Feeling it stung

You are proud of a person I didn’t want to become

.

A girl who is lonely

Who clenches back tears

Who tackles great burdens beyond her years

.

A girl who keeps secrets

Who hides her nightmares

Who harbors great doubts that anyone cares

.

A girl who won’t ask for help

Whose achievements are surpassed

Who makes sacrifices because her problems come last

.

Perhaps I am stronger

And I’ve learned how to fight

That doesn’t make the exhaustion alright

.

Just once could you hold me

Not just set me aside

Only then will I happily accept all your pride

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I'm Not King Midas

I’m not King Midas

My touch isn’t magic

It takes work to find gold

Don’t set expectations so high

My motivation is running dry

A little more pressure and I just might fold

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Making A Decision

Heart pumping

Stomach clenching

Headache brewing

Hands are shaking

Is this all a big mistake?

What decision should I make?

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Numb

When left to its own devices, Life excels at making you numb.

Sucking away at your soul till there’s nothing left to feel.

Fight back.

You must fight back.

Embrace the pain, the joy, the awkward, and the amazing.

Anything is better than nothing at all.

Letting feeling in, no matter how painful, is the ultimate act of rebellion.

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Liberation

I have found liberation in your eyes,

To be seen as everything I have dreamed but dared not speak into the universe.

The echoes of pride still singing loud in my ears,

I’ve been blind to the cage wrapped round me,

But the door has been ripped from its hinges and for a moment I soar free.

Though this day will come to an end,

I could live for an eternity off the kind words you have given me.

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Contorted Reflection

I abruptly see my reflection in your eyes as though I stand before a funhouse mirror,

Twisted and contorted, your subconscious has made me into a mockery.

The offense may be incidental but the candor still bites,

Your misconceptions have imprisoned an exposition of stone,

There is no rewriting the story you accepted.

More than anything I am haunted by the reflection that I saw,

Mirrors may contort, but they don’t lie.

What if it is my mirror that has been broken all along?

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Surrender

Tonight I wave my white flag

For I stand on the stern of a sinking ship

And I’ve grown too tired to bail out the water

The captain screams ill-advised orders at an absent crew

The first mate has fallen silent

The navigator is missing

So let the storm come

I am ready to embrace the brutal end to this voyage

May dawn bring better sailing