Birdie

help me i´m stuck in the past // 24, bi, she/her

[librarycards]

i am just moved by everything now. i'm porous and everything gets inside me

[blemgoid]

one time a being of pure light & truth appeard to me and started saying some bullshit but i ignored it

[iphigeniacomplex]

Dust by Dorianne Laux

Someone spoke to me last night, told me the truth. Just a few words, but I recognized it. I knew I should make myself get up, write it down, but it was late, and I was exhausted from working all day in the garden, moving rocks. Now, I remember only the flavor — not like food, sweet or sharp. More like a fine powder, like dust. And I wasn’t elated or frightened, but simply rapt, aware. That’s how it is sometimes — God comes to your window, all bright light and black wings, and you’re just too tired to open it.

[homunculus-argument]

"I learned a lot from making this" is artist talk for "making this sucked ass and I'm not entirely happy with the result."

[animelionessmika]

^what artistic growth feels like

[funeral]

Many places have a "forest that shouldn't be entered." Even people who are used to working in the mountains feel there is something there. They are suddenly overcome with fear and it becomes the custom to avoid certain places. These places exist. I don't know what is there, but I think they are real . . . The world is more than we can fathom with our five senses. The world doesn't exist just for humans. So I think it is all right to have such things. This is why I think it's a mistake to think about nature from the idea of efficiency, that forests should be preserved because they are essential for human beings . . . I am concerned, because for me the deep forest is connected in some way to the darkness deep in my heart. I feel that if it is erased, then the darkness inside my heart would also disappear, and my existence would grow shallow.

Hayao Miyazaki, “Totoro Was Not Made as a Nostalgia Piece” in Starting Point: 1979-1996

[kosmogrl]

learning not to return to places where I miss the past but see no future

[catasters]

[sandersstudies]

Completely unironically this is one of my new favorite pieces of literature

[soracities]

Marjane Satrapi, Persepolis

[meanbuddhist]

i want freedom i want freedom i want freedom *is granted freedom* noooooo my attachments

[jdotsodomite]

i hope you write (i hope we both write)

[zetarays]

hand in unedited hand

[faustique]

not photogenic but i probably look sooo good as a distant memory

[aeli-noir]

[scorchroots]

I've never loved anyone as much as I love Ursula Le Guin

[redbelles]

"I remember, growin' up, at night, my dad would sit in the kitchen with all the lights out, and he'd wait for me to come in. And he'd sit there and drink, and I'd stand in the driveway and I'd look in through the screen door and I could see the light of the cigarette, and then I'd rush up on the porch and try to get by him, and he'd always call me back. And it was like he was always... always angry. Always mad. He'd be sittin' there thinkin' about everything that he wasn't ever gonna have, until... until he'd get me thinkin' like that too. And I'd lay up in my bed, at night, I'd be starin' at the ceiling, and I'd feel like if somethin' didn't happen, if somethin' didn't happen soon, it felt like I was just gonna... like someday, like I was just gonna..."

I'M ON FIRE Bruce Springsteen ★ Paris, 1985

[meerschweinchen-archive]

your twenties are Also about discovering that you’re not a bad person in all the ways you believed you were but you’re a bad person in completely new and exciting ways

[weirdplutoprince]

Well, well, well. If it isn't the consequences of someone else's actions that I am directly impacted and severely affected by

[danahzhq]

[snoopyoftheday]

opened tumblr and this was the first thing i saw

[conchacrumb]

And for the lady, perhaps reassurance without having to ask for it?