shake it off like an etch-a-sketch

HEYYYYY! itz ISABELLE torres here! I don't know why i'm GOOFY i just am!! XP i'm 15. i'm Freshie fresh. and there's this quiet kid around who stole my face.

[yowierdoz-itsizzy]

This sucks! I want Adam back!

[lxttledesiree]

Only difference there, mom wouldn’t let you go through it. It may have happened to her, but she won’t ever let it happen to you. 

[yowierdoz-itsizzy]

Yeah... If she ever comes out of this depression..

[yowierdoz-itsizzy]

This sucks! I want Adam back!

[lxttledesiree]

Isabelle…. I get you’re upset with mom and her being depressed. She regrets it more than ever. We just don’t understand what’s going on with her. The lady who tore mom and dad apart back when they were dating came back in town and argued with mom and made fun of her weight. Then she ran out of her medication and the doctor didn’t send it fast enough and she got back to a dark place. She’s feeling pressured and she is trying to deal with everything.. Please don’t hate her.. Too many bad things happened to her Iz.. She was raped and pressured into being like a superwoman. I know you’re upset with her, but she’s still our mom and will always love us. She’s just trying to find herself..

[yowierdoz-itsizzy]

I don't hate her... I'm scared. What if that happens to me? She tried to kill herself, Ro! Right in front of us! What if my medication doesn't come one day? And I have a meltdown like that and kill myself, and putting my family through hell?? Mom's the strongest person I know, Ro! If she can't make it through all this bipolar stuff, how am I supposed to??

[yowierdoz-itsizzy]

This sucks! I want Adam back!

[lxttledesiree]

You have me… Chris hasn’t been around either.

[yowierdoz-itsizzy]

I hate being here! This house is so FREAKING depressing and unlike some people...I'm trying not to be depressed. I'd rather just go back to grandma and grandpa's. 

[yowierdoz-itsizzy]

This sucks! I want Adam back!

[luxxuryornothing-blog-blog]

[yowierdoz-itsizzy]

@youweirdozitsizzy: #staystrongmomma

[lxttledesiree]

[hugging back tightly and crying]

[yowierdoz-itsizzy]

S-she's gonna be okay, though...right? Tell me she's gonna be okay.

[lxttledesiree]

I knew there was something going on with her!! Damnit, I want my mommy!!

[yowierdoz-itsizzy]

[littlemissdelilah]

I want mommy.

[yowierdoz-itsizzy]

Me too.

[annie--henderson]

Oh really? Hm. Chris must be a really special guy if she just turned her ways and started dating! *giggles* It’s good she found someone, though! Yep, Alec is my daddy! Oh, that’s not too bad, I’d probably forget though..

[yowierdoz-itsizzy]

He is. Chris is a total stud. Rosie wouldn't waste her time on some loser. Oh My God! Are we like cousins?!?! Cuz my mom and your dad are cousins. I've never been sure how that works. It could be worse. I do forget sometimes, but usually Ro or my mom or my dad are there to remind me. 

[annie--henderson]

Well you are lucky then! Are you more mature than your sister or something? Because that could be a big reason why! I dont know how my dad would react to me dating. I mean, he’s had to deal with it a lot already, hopefully he’ll be used to it by then! *giggles* Wow, I’m really sorry to hear that.. that must suck. Do you set an alarm to remind you?

[yowierdoz-itsizzy]

PSSSHH!! NO WAY! If anything, it's the other way around. It's just that Rosie never got out much. She never showed any interest in dating until she met Chris, so I don't think my dad expected it so soon from her, but with me, I think he expected it. Hey, your dad's name isn't Alec, is it? Not really. I just take one in the morning when I wake up and one before I go to bed. 

[annie--henderson]

Jake as in Carter’s nephew. Wow, thanks! I appreciate it! Oh, I forgot about the whole dating thing.. That must suck! Why was he harder on your sister? Really? I’m not trying to sound mean or heartless or anything.. but that sounds awesome! Not the being depressed part though.. Do you have to take a lot of medication?

[yowierdoz-itsizzy]

No problem! Us kids gotta stick together! Well, I was the first one to go on my first date and plus Rosalie and my dad have more in common. I think dad always expected me to grow up quickly, but for some reason, he was blindsided when Rosie got a boyfriend. Uhh, trust me, it's not as cool as it sounds. It's not a lot. I take less than my mom has to, but it's everyday and if I forget to take it, the meltdown is pretty bad.

[lxttledesiree]

TWIN EMERGENCY

[lxttledesiree]

He told me this when we were hanging out yesterday. He said that he wanted to tell me and yes he knows that I’m with Chris. He’s not going to do anything though. I have never pictured myself in this situation before Iz!

[yowierdoz-itsizzy]

He just wanted to tell you this? Why? Cause he thought you'd leave Chris and jump into his arms? So he'd make you feel super awkward around him now? I'm so pissed he'd put you in this position. How do you feel, Rosie? How do you feel about him?

[littlemissdelilah]

It mommy’s song. 

[yowierdoz-itsizzy]

Your mommy wrote that song?! That's fun! Do you want to be a singer one day?

[lxttledesiree]

TWIN EMERGENCY

[lxttledesiree]

He likes likes me.

[yowierdoz-itsizzy]

Oh my God! When did he tell you this? WHY did he tell you this? He knows you're with Chris, right?

[lxttledesiree]

TWIN EMERGENCY

[lxttledesiree]

Um… You know Luke? H-he uh told me he likes me…

[yowierdoz-itsizzy]

What?? Like likes you likes you?

[annie--henderson]

I mean.. I think I do now.. His name is Luke and he’s really nice and also Jake, but before I didnt. Well, too protective isnt always a bad thing! It could be nice! B-bipolar? I dont know what that is.. But I’m sorry to hear that.

[yowierdoz-itsizzy]

Luke seems like a good guy. You mean Jake as in Carter's nephew? Or Jacob? And you've got me too! I'm certainly not opposed to standing up to some mean middle school girls! Rosie and Adam can be pretty feisty too and I know they'd stand up for you too! It's not, really. It's just tough when it comes to dating. Though, it was worse for Rosie than it was for me. Um, it's okay, I guess. Um, it basically means that without my medication I can go from being really manic and unable to stay still and on top of the world to really really depressed almost instantly. My mom's got it too. We're A LOT alike.

[annie--henderson]

Well, that’s good you have so many people sticking up for you! must be nice. You’re daddy seems really nice. *laughs* If you are on his good side of course! Y-you know all about therapists?

[yowierdoz-itsizzy]

You don't have anyone to stick up for you? My dad's great, if anything, he can be too protective at times. [nods] Y-yeah. Umm...I uh, I'm b-bipolar, so I've been through therapy and stuff like that..