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Any spout of good mood I'm in is always put to an immediate halt. Maybe it's best just to coast at a shitty mood so my feelings don't get hurt and my hopes aren't too high.

marcitlali

inhalee that qood shiit &&’ exhalee the bullshiit ;;

You know what, i’m really starting to understand the difference between people who have decent relationships with their parents and people like me who have very rocky ones? I believe the first mentioned group people to just not understand what it’s like to constantly be afraid and scared of the people you wish you had a great relationship with or at least the feeling of uncoditional love?

I guess the reason i’m going on this rant is because today a friend of mine decided to blame me for why i’m scared to rearrange anything in my house. The situation got brought up cause my brother’s girlfriend is doing some rearranging today. I have always under the belief touching anything without permission or being in sight leads to being screamed at me or accused of losing/breaking something. In my house, these kind of arguments lead to very bad fights. So, of course, i kinda just don’t fuck with anything. Today, my friend decided to make me feel bad about that. Perhaps, this wasn’t their intention and perhaps they weren’t trying to say it was my fault but the way they worded it would make it seem this way.

Not having a normal life sucks.

So, am I just like easily forgettable or does this area just think I'm a giant turd?