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Not feeling it
Just not feeling putting anything in words, just to tired.
When did it all go wrong
Well, lot of reflecting tonight. Today was day 1 of 4 of our gauntlet of bullshit, starting off strong with a wedding that was the 4th for both parties. The thing that sent me "spiraling" was having to have a wheelchair van involved for a 59 year old. It would be one thing if it was a birth defect, neurological disease (Parkinson's, etc) but its just because the person probably has diabetes, and doesn't want to go to the doctor! Its Lizzie's mom, and I can not, really can not. No words in the English language both good and vulgar, can express how ass backwards the situation is. So I guess they are getting a wheel chair van now, and we rented one to get her to the wedding. Its taking a toll on Lizzie, and by extension me. I just, it all makes us want to scream but you can't so I have to put it out on the shitty old Internet. Which lead me to reflect, as my Grandmothers funeral is this weekend. Where did it all go wrong? Where did so many of the people I know, and some of my own life "Go wrong?". I did some self reflecting, and it seems the MINUTE I stood up for myself and said "fuck you pay me" or "Yeah im not your bottom bitch" or "Nah, you treated me like doo doo" is when things fell apart. Let me list out some of them I was thinking of. 1. My family. Where did it go wrong? When did I become the village retard, where no matter what I do, its always the wrong answer. Bought a 700 truck, to big. Bought my Fit, to gay? Almost bought a house in cash, to small? When did I become the punching bag, I just don't get it. 2. When did my relationship with Mike and JR turn so sour. I think it was I told them no but in not a nice way, and I will admit fault on that. But at no point did they apologize, or say wow, maybe i drove him to blow up. At what point am I in the wrong (which I am a bit) or is it standing up for yourself, because every time you do the "gentle parenting" approach you get ran over???? No fucking idea, no one has yet to define that line for me. 3. When did Lizzies mom say "were just not going to try". When did it go wrong? When did she just stop being self aware, and becoming a burden on the entire family. Its to the point where I am buying post hole diggers for their deck? Bro make it make sense. I have no words, I saw her tearing up tonight and I am going to be honest Internet. I just ignored it and kept yapping, if I didn't I was going to pop the fuck off.
4. When was their hate against Aunt Kim? I know shes a spooky conservative, but her daughter doesn't talk to her after a nasty divorce, and she had to start over at 50. At what point do we have some sympathy and at least listen to her? I mean, her takes are bad at times but fuck shes your sister. The high and mighty shit needs to stop, because your 1% of life going perfect. Holy hell. 5. More self awareness on my part, but I think of the guys back home. The kids I called friends in HS. I think it all went south, because after I was removed for ~6 months in college, I found people who even moderately? respected? me. I know guys in my frat were dicks at times, but at least they had my back more than the guys growing up in my neighborhood. I keep coming back to it all "going wrong" when I started to just, say "No" . No, I won't change your oil. No, you can't use my shit. No, I will not help you with 8 hours of digging ditches. No, after 5 days you can no longer use my help. No, I will not do this thing for free. And let me clarify. Im ok with doing all of that, if you come and get my free food I have on Saturdays. If you don't hang out with me ever, than crawl out of the woodwork to get free shit???? Go fuck yourself, im over it. Thats about all I come up with at this point, because I never asked for anything from anyone, I know that. I never asked for 4 months free rent, never asked for gas money, never asked for...... anything. I just was hoping people wouldn't see me like a giant piggy bank of free shit, and I guess when I put my foot down it weeded out the cruft from the shaft. Thats all I got. Rented a BMW 840I, so thats pretty sweet. The only highlight of this week lmao. Catch everyone Wednesday
10/01 - Spooky Season!
Welp, as I suspected our mystery pipe is in fact underneath the concrete slab out back. Attempted to use the "chipping" / medium duty jackhammer with no luck. Slab is 6" thick with mesh on the bottom. Going to try and get a 14" cut off saw tonight and make quick work of this, but only time will tell. Guy is a boomer im buying it from and claims it "just needs a spark plug". So going to investigate it as its a good price, if not.... well guess im buying a vevor saw on Amazon lmao. Probably going to buy a mud mixer as well on FB, just seems to be way easier than using a conventional mixer. Have to try on my suit tonight to make sure it works for the funeral, hopefully I haven't gotten to fat! Nothing to report for work, keep applying to jobs and keep getting rejected, so who tf knows. Once i get some stuff sorted mentally and around the house I will re-open my repair shop. Just need to get this back room done, than a floor put in :) I did rent a car for this upcoming week, decided after I heard Lizzies parents are buying a wheelchair van because we are just all enablers I was going to treat myself. Catch everyone when im up to this next.
Garage is done
Well, garage is done. Put a bow on it today with the contractors, and now just have to pay the guy. The one neighbor in the back was a PAIN in the ass, but other than that it was smooth sailing. The contractors did the whole re-point and re-hung the bricks in 3 days.... pretty crazy stuff. So now im trying to figure out this mystery pipe in the basement. Dug a giant hole in the backyard, but no pipe to be seen. Bought a pipe locator gizmo tonight on Amazon, and I think I should be able to track this sucker down tomorrow and go from there... hopefully its not under the concrete pad out back (it will be under the concrete pad outback). Nothing else to report. Wedding / funeral this weekend so WOOOO. Built a temporary ramp for Lizzies mom to get to the wedding, wild stuff. Catch everyone tom
Well, top of the shit sandwich I am now sick. Pretty tired, but life keeps throwing absolute bullshit my way. Not going to go in depth as Im really wooped, maybe if im feeling better Sunday I will let it out.
Death
My grandmother passed away this morning. That is all. Probably going to have a crisis and rent a Vette for the drive back because fuck it, lifes short. Catch everyone tom
Another week in the books. Started to excavate the basement "back room", "addition" whatever you want to call the space underneath the kitchen. Saw Harbor Freight had their 12 amp SDS Demo hammer on sale today and bought it.... worth every penny. Beats the hell out of a pick axe. Was breaking up rock and clay with ease. Work is work. People are just burnt out. I am seeing esteemed colleagues lose it lmao. WILD. Just wild out here. On another good note, just taking an L on the Kawaski thats been in my shop for 2 months. Just going to return the regulator I bought for it and walk away from it. Garage is going under the knife next week, and I need a break from working 2 gigs. I want to get shit done around the house BIG TIME before i re-open. It started not to be fun anymore. As the one guy on YouTube says, if you aren't having fun your doing it wrong. So time to step back , breathe and work on myself for a minute. Get the shop and all of its problems in order, than try again? Not reallly "Try again" just have much better facilities and will make it way fucking easier to work in. Proper organization, lifts, concrete floors, etc will make it a breeze imo. Nothing bad, just tired. Catch everyone tom.
Back on the grind. Nothing bad today, just straight mediocre. Started to literally excavate the back room today, its just full of dirt. Felt good to get my body moving, been a couple months since I have done that. Nothing else to report, very very little happened today. Maybe this week won't be cooked! lol, lets not say that too loud. Zach out.
Been 10 days....
Its been a while, and its been rough and tough. Everyone can chalk it up to my middle class white man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So you can all throw it in the trash, its OK my feelings are not valid. Saw my Grandma dying before my eyes last weekend....8 days ago on the dot. I know this sounds FUCKED, but i want her to die. She has 0 quality of life left besides eating??? (not much, just soda), a bed pan, and getting flipped over to get her pajamas changed.. I want her to meet my Uncle (God bless Tom), her husband (God bless Tom SR.) and all of her siblings. I know she did her damnedest to raise my aunts and Mom, she deserves a rest especially since her husband (Tom SR.) has been gone now 10 years, and she had to bury her son. Its fucked, but I am glad she was in my life as long as she was. Really nothing I can put in words expresses how much I love her through good and bad. I wish she would still be alive for Lizzie and I wedding, but its to late now..........Nothing bad. Damned if you do damned if you don't. Anyway, I guess Lizzies mom is disintegrating before our eyes. Her dad is pulling the trigger on ramp/landing pad to get into the house. I volunteered to help obvs, I have a 12" sliding compound miter saw, an excavator, 8Ft bed truck etc. We can make it happen. Probably because her mom refuses to walk any more. I don't get it, its so so so so so fucked. Her mom is 59? 60?? at worst? i don't understand...... you don't want to see any of your kids get married? First dance because you just refuse to go to the doctor???? BRO YOUR HUSBAND PAYS FOR THE BEST INSURANCE MONEY CAN BUY 0 COPAY!!!!! That's a whole can of worms I don't even want to dissect..... Alright, now that I'm done being angry / sad at the world I guess some good. All the neighbors signed a contract i made to allow me to fix my garage. Also good news is that the Speed Shop (TM) still has business after I put it to closed yet again. I hate to keep it flip flopping, but I keep getting more business I can handle as a 2nd job.... and im tired of working 2 jobs. I am VERY LUCKY AND I AM NOT UNGRATEFUL. I am just tired. I have decided I am going to make the garage near ? (at least workable without a lot of bullshit) before I open. That means: 1. I am hiring contractors to re-point (essentially water proof / make sure exterior brick is sealed tight from water). And Put back interior brick from either lack of outside mortar, or from just age. 2. I am going to rip out and re-pour the floor. The cobble stone will be gone, an expansion joint in the middle. and a whole lot of love. 3. Shelves, winches mounted on rafters, etc etc. I will make this a proper workshop whether it costs 30k. Tired of working on the dirt floor, and i make enough business to justify. When you get jobs for almost 2K...... your onto something. 4, Some sanity. I am officially over working 2 jobs, taking calls at 9 etc. Boundaries, diag fees, and more. You don't like it... I don't need you as a customer. Plain and simple. I have at least 1K worth of Diag tools at this point... and knowledge. You don't like it, tough. Go to ????? to get it fixed, good luck. My day job sucks, nothing new there. Glad I can vent, I know my life happiness goes up when I can just shit post on the internet. GF also likes it cause I don't ramble.
Zach, I know your a little BRRRRRRRRRRRRR. Pitt lost, that blows. Love yourself, don't get locked up in a specific idea? What I mean by that is, garage is tied up with customer bike and the repoint till at least October. Start working on inside stuff, your not going to build Rome in a day. Even if you clean out the basement and leave it as is… still better than what it is currently at a bunch of construction material all over the place. You don't have to do everything all at once… just like today when you cleaned up between your fence and the neighbors fence. Once you did the hard part (ripping up 10+ year of overgrowth and carpet???) it was a 10 minute job to maintain. Just do it in the basement with 10 contractor bags… you belong to Sams for a reason dip shit.
Love you man. Keep it easy but keep it moving. Lizzie, if no one else, deserves you at your best in life. Love you,a LOT has happened in these past 10 days. But keep it moving.
Another day of straight GRINDING. Had the 2nd round interview with this contract gig. Not holding my breath, will see if it pans out. Been down this road once or twice before. Nothing at work I want to remember, so nothing new their. India is full of little pansies and pushovers. Snakes. After work went up to Kittaning to help Nate's friend, Noah with a stereo. Got 2 out of 4 speakers working, and the amp that was working died.... no joke we heard it give its last banger before it slowly volumed down and just wouldn't get louder. Oh well, it was a generic 90s Sony AV amp, nothing worth crying over. Did pick up a Sansui 8080db which doesn't work, nothing on the outputs. Probably needs just completely new everything, as it was covered in rat turds and has been out side for who knows how long. Thats ok, seems people have made kits for these so might get a kit, a nice desoldering gun and make it a winter project. Also, for once good news about customer bikes! Was able to source the bike harness connector, pins, crimp tool and seals. So ordered that, hopefully get that all righteous and get rid of the absolute hack shit that is in there now for the Chinese fuel pump. No idea what the thought process was but it was not good. Than once that is fixed I can troubleshoot the no charge again... lol. I want to be done with this bike so bad. Thats it, nothing crazy today. Catch everyone tomorrow.
Its been 3 days since I last posted, RIP to the streak. It was good while it lasted. Pitt game was good, nothing crazy just usual Pitt vs some ass team. Pitt won, so thats a bonus. Tailgate was good, clean fun. Saturday was kinda beat though, found out my Grandmother on my moms side is in hospice. She is 84? 85? years old, and her quality of life has not been great for a while, probably last 5 or 6 years at this point. So while it is extremely upsetting, I guess that's the silver lining. Just :(....really can't put into words how that makes me feel. Sunday was good, woke up and just did chores for a solid 6 hours. Cooking, grocery shopping, cleaning, and the like. Hung out with Lizzie's Uncle who is a young 65! Saw him at a dart tournament than we wondered around for a bit, got ice cream and saw some peak crack head activities while walking. Long of short of Sunday was just mad adulting.
Monday we hiked for a bit. I was getting annoyed as I was hoping to leave early as we were up by ~8, and we didn't get out the door until almost 11, late 10. Had to kinda take a step back as Lizzie was getting all her trinkets together, my head space when we left just wasn't really in the mood for hiking. I was for some reason hell bent on getting shit done around the house? But none of it is pressing, its all nice to have stuff. I think its just me trying to wrap shit up before winter hits and everything grinds to a halt for ~6 months when it gets to 10 degrees outside. But halfway through the hike brain stopped being donkey brain and was enjoying it. Had some Olive Garden on the way back as it felt like every place was closed, rightfully so as it was Labor Day. Got ice cream and passed out when we got home. Good day overall, should have maybe took the camera out, but didn't want to bog us down with it. I need to start getting back into photography.... was having fun with it and making dumb ads for the SpeedShop. Job got back to me today and seems they are moving fast and serious about it. Have to see if its contract to hire, and if it is might just pull the plug. Fucking Dell is ass. Partzilla hasn't shipped dick yet which might be a blessing in disguise as I found the fuel pump i need for 150 cheaper from Japan. Partzilla sucks with saying shit is in stock but then secretly ordering it from a supplier and keeping you hostage for 4 days. Had this same song and dance happen when I needed fuel pressure adapter tester pieces when I had a Honda quad in, lost the repair because Partzilla took almost 3 weeks to get my order correct! Also realized the connector on the main harness side was replaced at some point, with the totally wrong connector..... Why can't things not be a fucking mangled POS when i get them, jeez. Anyway hopefully i can source the connector and get it all back to stock. Nothing else really to report, felt like a fat lazy piece of shit these past 2 days and I really don't know why. I think its just knowing my grandmother is going to pass away, and not working 100 hours a week. I know working a lot isn't healthy, and I think im just compensating for.... just being afraid of being an unemployed loser. I don't know why my brain is being donkey brain, but i wish so fucking much it would just stop. On a plus side this month the garage will be re-pointed, which will get all of the bags of lime and mortar out of the garage. After that, shop will still be mostly closed until i get a floor in, and some really really big organizational changes done. So more project before I re-open again :(, which sucks. Wish life was easy and the path was straight forward, but these past 2 years feels like its been anything but. So much work, and once 1 thing is fixed 2 more things pop up it seems. Oh, that was something I did tonight. Finally got our "Dog photos" framed and hung. We have 3 pics, each of dogs Lizzies family had or my dad had. Things I am grateful for: 1. Lizzie :-) , got her flowers tonight 2. Being employed, was able to get a bunch of odds and ends tonight and didn't have to sweat it. 3. Getting able to drive the truck around and crank tunes. While the truck is a piece of shit I put so much work into it, its kinda my fun car haha. My fun, utilitarian car.
Pre-Friday hype
Another day of slight grinding. Nothing to report at work, nothing heinously stupid but nothing great. Just more vMotions and re-installs to get everything RENBE compliant. Really glad we can run real vCenter configs and have things in HA (LOL, a man can dream). Would be cool to have real LAG, and real uplinks as well (LOL, that would require more than 3 dollars). Did get out of the house for a little and stopped by Lizzies parents to just get a change of scenery. Hung out with her mom and watched the Pirates. Got some Waggs time as well as the 1 neighborhood dog who is just a cutie. Always a good time over there. Friends truck part 2 got dropped off today. Spent a good 2.5 hours on it again. 1 hour was just more de-scaling of all the rust to see what we were working with, 3 holes popped up in the frame. Had some 3inch 1/4 thick angle iron that we started to cut to get it to cover the rot on the bottom of the drivers side frame rail, but it started raining. Ive welded enough in soggy underwear, so we called it. PITA to remove the parking brake cables, seemed they were somehow rust jacked in place (shocker to no one). So kept all parking brake cables loose and zip-tied them into place when he left. Took me some time to figure out a plan on how we were going to patch the rot with the steel I had on hand. I have exactly 1 plate and 1 piece of angle iron, so not exactly a steel market lol. That is what took up so much time today, but I think i have a good idea of what we need to do. about halfway up the frame gets pretty decent, so the angle iron will be more than enough. Will use some of the plate to cover a hole on the side of said frame. This truck may actually be crustier on the frame than the Ford was.....and i thought that was a POS. Ah the North East. However, this is a 2003 1500HD w/ a 6.0L Vortec, 4l80E, 4WD and the bigger 12 bolt rear ( 9.5" ring gear I believe, its the "smaller" 12 bolt)... with 80K miles. Even has factory AC and cruise. To me, its worth dumping a couple $$$$ into to get it to pass inspection and not be a total pile, as that's a truck that will outlast the heat death of the universe with oil changes (pre-afm garbage). Thing seems to run like a top unlike my truck, which has a slight miss even after re-man injectors. However, my truck (Gud bless the 1992 F150 5/spd 351 and 4WD watch out for them glibbins brudda) is another story for another day. Recruiter got back to me about a PFLEX job that is 100% remote C2 possibly hire? Nothing concrete at all but at least something. Maybe it will actually stimulate my brain..... or not. Who knows at this point. Have to make sure hours aren't ass, on call isn't crazy or even needed, etc etc. Not doing another FNB bullshit job First Pitt game of the year, woot. Sad its going to start to get cold out, but happy for sports so more friends gathering. Have to enjoy it while it lasts. Edit: 3 things im thankful for :) 1. Lizzie, every day thankful for her 2. Not having to weld in soggy undies like my life depended on it 3. Between BS contract gigs and the Speed Shop, never have to worry about layoffs (within reason).
Another day of straight GRINDING today. Work was mid at best, just continuing the monotony of brain dead work like re-installing ESXi for the 400th time by hand, and running updates. Still doing same shit I have for 5 years at this point, just different day. Finally caught up from vacation / parents weekend though! Cooked, did laundry, and got house "in order" so to say. So woot! Small victories I guess, not every day we can build the Eiffel Tower. Friend stopped by with his 2003 1500HD. What a truck (In a good and bad way lol). It reminds me EXACTLY of what the FERD was 2 years ago at this point, an absolute pile of rot. He is going to try and get it to pass inspection, so tonight we put in a new transmission cross-member. Old one had fist sized holes in it all the way through it! Just cut the bolts holding it in out of it, easier than fighting the rot. 1 bolt that held the transmission mounting bushing stripped inside, so had to get the 3/8 ratchet and breaker bar in some stupid positions. to get the mount dismounted from the actual frame. Shit was tough lol. But we got er done. 4 hour job in the driveway, including tool cleanup and tool put awaying so not to bad. Tomorrow will be welding the hole in the frame, which also shouldn't be to bad. After that it needs an entire day of de-scaling / rust treatment. It is so scaly and flaky. I did it last year but only had it for an hour, so couldn't actually get it to the point to see exactly how frame, hangars, etc were looking. Friends truck is the strangest thing, rockers are gone, frame is little crunch. The bed, floors, and mounts are IMMACULATE though, never seen anything like it. Working on his truck and having yet another call even when im closed for the shop makes me want to go ALL IN (THANKS JEFF CLARK REALLY GOOD STUFF) on my business. Tired of seemingly just eternally working, and my job absolutely blows lmao. I got transferred to an extremely toxic team with a shitty manager, so who knows. 3 things im thankful for today are: 1. Being able to help out friends when they need help. It always makes me happy lending a hand to people, especially when I have all the tools :) 2. Got Ice Cream with Lizzie, didn't see her much today. But the hour or two we had together was good. 3. Possible LinkedIn remote contract thing, no idea as he hasn't gotten back to me yet. Hopefully its not dogwater like the rest of these contracts.
Day 3 of blogging
Nothing to crazy to report. Today was truly a "mid" day, nothing objectively bad nothing objectively good. Had a nice night at Walmart re-supplying for Lizzie's school as well as some groceries, always nice to spend some quality time with her even if its doing something mundane :) . Bike is still a no fix even after a new battery. Quadruple checked wiring with test light to make sure we have ground going to the ground of the regulator, and 12V+ coming to the connector from the battery. Both tested out, so no wiring issues I can see. Literally the last thing to change out is the rectifier. Customer has some Chinese bullshit on there now, and the old one didn't check out IMO in terms of what the book was telling me to look for in terms of ohm test. A weak way to test regulators I know, but it was WILDLY out of spec. So current theory is the regulator is nominal, and can't charge while battery is under load.... thats the best I have. Also double checked that i didn't cut any wires off of the new stator, got ohm readings across all legs. No open wires so the stator being bad or mis-installed is also ruled out. Yesterday I said every day I will try and post 3 good things. So here are some, not a lot of "Big" ones but better than nothing. 1. Had a poo that made me see God. Think it was a relief of finally getting back into a semblance of a diet, as well as stress being gone because my parents are out of town again. 2. Diaged bike and didn't get mad lol. Have a clear ~6 month vision for the shop, so I just have to grind to make that happen. 3. All the parts are in to fix the "free" (cost is $60 in parts) for an AWD Push mower Husqavarna. Don't really need it, but to nice of a mower to just chuck. Have a good night everyone, catch you all tomorrow
Day 2 of blogging about random shit. Well, back to the grind. The yearly vacation was wrapped up 2 weeks ago, and my parents are back home as of today. Essentially no brakes for the next 6 months.... :( . Going to try and focus on good things every day to see if it helps the old noggin. Again, STRUGGLING latley so maybe focusing on good stuff will help. Will try and keep it 3 a day. 1. Told someone "No", but in a kind way. Told a friend I will look at his truck, just not tom as I need to finish up a customer bike (scratching my head as to why its a no charge at this point). 2. Lizzie leaned on me after a tough day. Shes being hard on herself, but hopefully we worked through it. I believe we did, but only time will tell. 3. Kinda set in my vision for the shop for the next ~3 months. Going to be A LOT more work to get space set up and a couple more bucks in terms of $$ spent to get it "righteous" but in the end we can hit the ground running than at that point. Need to wright down what needs to happen on my ongoing sheet of shit that I need to do for the business. Work was. Work today and bike didn't get finished up which kinda sucks, but that is the way she goes. Not for a lack of trying on the customers bike..... Bike is not charging, and regulator is putting out 16V when not connected to the harness, but as soon as you plug it into the harness it just doesn't output voltage, almost like the battery is somehow dead shorted / not taking a charge and drawing the system down. Peace, have a good night everyone. Will try and give some more good news each day.
Well, its been 10 years lmao. Uh, we are back. Reading those posts, I think Ive always been a little fucked in the head. Kinda cryptic from 10 years ago Zach, but I guess I did a lot of growing up in 1 - 2 years with senior year of HS and 2 deaths in the family. Last 10 years have had its ups and downs, and I need somewhere to vent for the crossroads im at. Going to try and keep this blog going as long as possible unlike last time which was 5 posts than dipped. I think it was a lot of change in my life, and to much distraction to keep it going. Really wish I could read some of my old thoughts. Forgot I was into skateboarding for a bit. Only time it was mentioned was the 1 person that knew me in HS that followed me in college..... and it was just to make fun of my broken thumb (which is kinda dumb, but the skater thing was never a giant poser personality, just did it in my driveway lol) Looking back at those photos (all 3 of them), and reading my posts........ Man, I miss those days. Didn't realize how good I had it. As "The Office"? says "You don't realize the 'Good Ole Days' until there gone". Let me ramble for a paragraph or 2 to catch myself and the 1 robot online who has this saved up to speed. Did a lot of shit in the past 10 years, graduated College, moved a state away, COVID, 1% raise, moved to where i went to college-ish, and than met my hopefully future wife online. Feel like I have been sold a false promise with corporate, and my head has been FUCKED since I took on a 2nd job. Had 2 jobs at the same time for clarity. I can't get over my old boss telling me "your just a giant unworkable and unmanageable person", along with what feels like the past 3-5 years having my parents call me a fat, retard, alcy! Now im facing 0 promotion path at a company that rhymes with Bell,but getting paid to good to just cold turkey quit. Trying to start a small engine repair business but it seems everyone wants me to do these crazy big jobs like heads, no starts, etc.... everything that isn't an oil change lol. All boils down to way to much work, and not enough time. Lot of things cascading at once, with every day being a struggle since ~Feb. Some days the thoughts have not been great, others days they have been bearable. Very few I have been truly "happy" Hopefully next 6 months to a 1 year i got something straightened out. Will post more tomorrow. Will try to get a daily blog going, even if its just 2 sentences a day. Zach out.
Zach from 10 years ago........ love you man. You did some dumb shit, you did some really good shit. You set yourself up to be financially OK by 30, and a lot of other really good things.....maybe its time to enjoy life a little. Some things were better, some things were worse. But love you, keep on trucking homey, you accomplish things others can only dream of. Love Zach
CAST IS OFF. Let the games begin.