Bad Semen Mikael

| he/him | trans ftm cisgender adult turtle male | polish | neurodivergent | incel recovery | volcel failure |

[zajebrombiscie]

I have failed my community and my convictions. I just want to say that

I am truly, deeply sorry to everyone of you.

I know that some of you have been following my journey throughout the volcel lifestyle. I was just as optimistic as you were and now I feel truly ashamed of myself. I have given up and fallen for the temptation of hot, sweaty germans who yell at me and beat me with bats.

I really liked the principle honestly, it was good to have my days free to actually do stuff, I started going outside sometimes even. I have met birds and I think they are wonderful. The world outside of all the sex and gooning has proven to be wonderful and I gained so much respect for myself.

I thought that since my identity as a Demi sexual allowed me to not be attracted to people at all, since I don't like them and honestly it has been so easy most of the year, that there won't be any bumps on this road. What truly got in the way I think is how ashamed I feel of being Polish. It's just so hot when I get called dämliches polnisches Schwein I cannot help it. It's like it finally clicked.

I heard that kinks can be inherited and now i'm scared that one of my ancestors has betrayed the polish nation. I don't think I will check tho, because I don't want to live with this knowledge.

I am happy. But I will probably not leave my basement a lot in the coming days. I think this is what I deserve tho.

[zajebrombiscie]

Hey I know I didn't really say anything these past months that we've been in a relationship, but actually it really bothers me that you text me every day and talk about your feelings. I was kinda hoping we could keep it more casual, like, only texting me about your feelings 1 - 2 days a week. I can only deal with these emotional stuff in a limited capacity. I hope you understand.

[zajebrombiscie]

Can't stop thinking about men kissing

[i-am-a-fish]

I think it's awesome when people kiss. like hell yeah. go eat eachother up

[zajebrombiscie]

You are a fish. Are your gills ready to outswim a shark? Do you have it in your fins to take on a tsunami? You could have achieved something, but you spend your time thinking about people kissing. Go to the fucking gym

[zajebrombiscie]

Got mis gendered today. Normally that shit doesn't bother me. It's a part of being undercover. But this time it was a member of my inner circle. Needless to say I am devastated. If I wasn't so emotionally disconnected from my daily life I would cry every day over my transsexual struggle. But I am too much of a man to do that. I don't cry, I don't feel shit. I work out. My biceps is almost as wide as my face. I didn't cry. I bottled up my frustration. I played planet zoo for 12 hours straight. I played a porno and jerked off until I passed out. AM I MAN ENOUGH FOR YOU NOW??

[the-muppet-joker]

Infinite money glitch??? I'm going to quit my job and have one billion children. My Joker Army

[zajebrombiscie]

It is deeply transphobic that he can do that and I cannot

[the-muppet-joker]

[zajebrombiscie]

I have been locked in a cave for 90 consecutive days (I think, time became a bit of a blur in the darkness). Yesterday they threw me into a truck and let me out in the middle of Wrocław, no directions, no money. I spent the whole day roaming the city in a fugue state. All so the society can learn what a real joke looks like.

[sheikahfication]

Men should be soaked in blood and miserable more

[zajebrombiscie]

YOU KNOW NOTHING ABOUT MY STRUGGLES

[zajebrombiscie]

A challenge for horror video games developers - have a scared woman make scared noises that gamers won't feel compelled to jerk off to.

[eika-gr]

Continuing my color experiments in the Disco Elysium style. Delilah Copperspoon — a slightly more chaotic and creative nature ✨

PS: Steal her look for +10 Drama.

[zajebrombiscie]

She's a delight to look at. Delilight.

[zajebrombiscie]

I hate my great taste, I hate my class, all my intellectual capital and my intimate understanding of the human condition. Oh how I wish I could cherish the small, plebeian pleasures of life, like pop music and dying my hair.

[forgetful-nerd]

The rule provided:

The results that followed:

(Poor Casey Jr.)

[zajebrombiscie]

Hell yeah Stacy pigeon, go get that Chad pigeon

[reefshrk]

pigeon friends :)

[zajebrombiscie]

Can a rabid (feminist) calico pigeon be my transition goals? I want to be the cuck pigeon who watches (respectfully) as the Chad and Stacy pigeons make out. Yeah, pigeons make out. Get over it.

[firem4ge]

Transandrobros and Zionists parallel each other in that they’re both conservative reactionary movements appropriating progressive language to justify their behavior. It’s appealing to a misappropriated persecution in order to cause material harm to those under them in the hierarchy, while still maintaining their position as the victim. It’s an extension of crybullism, which is to say using how being a fascist made them feel as an excuse to absolve responsibility. Zionism is to antisemitism as transandrophobia is to transmisogyny.

[zajebrombiscie]

Got confused and established a transmasc colony in the middle east

[the-muppet-joker]

ONCE AGAIN: IT IS JUST A JOKE. WHEN I DRIBBLE MY NECTAR ONTO THE HOT LIPS OF KERMIT THE FROG, I AM JUST DOING A BIT. WHEN I GRASP HIS THROAT, GRUNTING IN THE THROES OF PLEASURE, I AM SIMPLY DOING A TOUCH OF "IMPROVISATIONAL COMEDY." I AM NOT ATTRACTED TO PUPPETS. I AM NOT ATTRACTED TO PUPPETS. I AM NOT ATTRACTED TO PUPPETS.

[zajebrombiscie]

In this horrible moment... I try to wriggle myself out of this dark hole of despair. Will a helpful hand reach me there? So far I can only hear this sick joker's laughter. It kinda helps. Soothing. Maybe I belong at the bottom.