THIS ISN'T LOVE.

ind. gamora, the deadliest woman in the galaxy. written by ky.

[zehcberei]

stardians.

           ‘  SWEETHEART  ,    on  this  ship  ,  everything  is  everyone’s  business  .  ’

          ‘   I  DON’T  SEE  WHY  YOU  HAVE  TO  KNOW  EVERYTHING ,   ’   she  comments ,  pulling  a  clean  shirt  of  his  over  her  head ,  and  pulling  her  jacket  on  over  it .   ‘   and  it  won’t  convince  me  to  disclose  anything  more  than  you  need  to  know .   ’

[zehcberei]

stardians.

           ‘  OH  ,  I’M  UNBELIEVABLE  ?    you  are  totally  not  understanding  me  here  !  you  guys  –  rocket  ,  groot  ,  drax  ,  mantis  ,  you  ?  you’re  my  people  ,  my  family  ,  and  i  don’t  want  that  for  you  !  ’  this  is  the  second  time  quill  has  ever  lost  his  temper  with  gamora  –  the  first  time  was  on  ego  ,  him  rattling  empty  defences  as  if  he  knew  better  .  this  time  ,  he’s  assured  it’s  different  .  ‘  i  don’t  care  who  he  is  or  what  he  wants  –  i  care  about  keeping  everyone  on  this  ship  alive  ,  gamora  .  ’  i  have  already  lost  so  much  .

          ‘   HE  WON’T  HURT  US ,  you’re  just  being  paranoid !   ’   she  snaps ,   ‘   did  you  not  see  what  thanos  did  to  him ?   what  the  children  of  thanos  did  to  him ?   ’   she  asks ,  gesturing  at  the  galaxy  through  the  deck .   ‘   don’t  you  think  he  deserves  a  little  compassion ?   something ?   ’   and  it’s  almost  like  she’s  pleading ,  a  crack  in  her  voice  that  came  as  rarely  as  her  love ,  a  shimmer  in  her  eyes .   there’s  more  to  this  than  pity ,  there’s  hatred  and  anger  at  the  mad  titan ,  at  herself .   she’s  scared .   ‘   all  i  ask  is  that  you  show  him  a  little  decency .   look  at  everything  that  was  done  to  him,  i -   ’   and  she  closes  her  mouth ,  turns  her  back  on  him .   she  can’t  look  at  him  like  this ,  can’t  speak  to  him  like  this ,  it  feels  too  much  like  the  ship  walls  are  going  to  cave  in  on  her .

[zehcberei]

stardians.

          ‘  OH  ,  YOU  SPOKE  TO  HIM  ?    he  must  be  telling  the  truth  ,  then  !  ’  quill’s  exasperated  ,  grasping  at  straws  ,  and  he  knows  he  hasn’t  got  a  leg  to  stand  on  .  maybe  that’s  the  most  frustrating  aspect  of  this  whole  mess  .  ‘  i  don’t  know  ,  gamora  .  excuse  me  for  being  a  little  wary  of  this  total  goddamn  stranger  on  my  ship  .  ’

          ‘   YOU  ARE  UNBELIEVABLE !   ’   she  snaps ,   ‘   did  we  not  see  the  same  thing ?   people -   his  people ,  dead .   families ,  children .   he  isn’t  in  any  form  to  fight  for  now ,  he  needs  rest ,  and  he’s  not  going  to  rest  if  you  keep  behaving  like  he’s  about  to  shoot  us  all .   ’   there’s  something  in  this  that  hits  harder  than  anything  else ,  and  that  shines  in  the  glazed  gleam  of  gamora’s  eyes -   he  has  lost  people  at  the  hands  of  the  mad  titan ,  and  gamora  has  finally  gotten  a  look  at  the  outsider’s  perspective  to  her  handiwork  as  a  child  of  thanos .   it  makes  her  sick ,  her  skin  prickles .   she’s  NERVOUS .

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boytective.

        AND  ANGUS  LEANS  BACK  ,    tapping  his  papers  on  his  fancy  shorts  ,  just  for  something  to  do  .  ‘  you  understand  the  bureau  of  balance  can’t  release  you  if  you’re  in  leagues  with  a  genocidal  titan  ,  ma’am  .  ’  his  tone  almost  bites  ,  despite  his  shy  demeanour  .  he’s  almost  deadpan  .  ‘  what  is  his  business  with  the  bureau  ?  what  does  he  want  ?  ’

         SHE  ROLLS  HER  EYES ,  IMPATIENTLY  SHIFTING  HER  CROSSED  LEGS .   ‘   I  am  incredibly  aware  of  that  fact ,  child .   ’   she  snaps ,  teeth  almost  bared  in  a  threatening  manner .   she  sighs  heavily ,   ‘   i  need  some  sort  of  guarantee  of  something  if  i  give  you  answers ,  be  it  freedom  or  something  else .   you  understand ?   ’

[zehcberei]

“ if things go wrong... if thanos gets me... i need you to promise me, you’ll kill me. ” “ what ? ” “ i know something he doesn’t. if he find it out, the entire universe could be at risk. ” “ what do you know ? ”

[zehcberei]

gamoras backstory is playing right now and i’m about to die

[zehcberei]

spidrlng  .

         IT’S  A  LOT  HARDER  TO  EXPLAIN  THIS  THAN  HE  THOUGHT.   he  glances  over  his  shoulder  at  her,  wide-eyed.  with  a  moment  of  thought,  peter  decides  to  show  her,  pulling  up  one  of  the  games  he  has  downloaded,  just  for  an  example.     ‘    yeah   -  see  ?   ‘

          SHE  STARES  AT  THE  SCREEN  LIKE  HER  EYES  COULD  BURN  THROUGH  IT ,  lips  pursed  as  she  reaches  to  touch  the  screen .   she  didn’t  often  have  time  for  games  like  these ,  what  with  her  upbringing .   she’s  a  little  surprised  earthians  have  gotten  this  far .   gamora  puffs  out  a  cheek  in  thought .   ‘   how  do  you  play  it ?   ’

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stardians  .

        HE  CAN  COUNT  ON  HIS  FINGERS  THE  NUMBER    of  times  he’s  apologised  and  meant  it  with  his  whole  being  –  and  over  half  of  those  ‘  sorry  ’  s  would  be  to  this  woman  .  he  loves  her  so  tenderly  that  it  puts  new  words  in  his  vocabulary  ,  a  new  perspective  in  his  mind  .  ‘  yeah  ,  no  big  .  i  just  –  hey  .  don’t  want  you  worryin’  out  there  ‘cause  i  do  somethin’  crazy  .  ’

          SHE  NODS ,  FOLDS  HER  ARMS  OVER  HER  FRONT ,  creating  a  tad  of  space  between  them .   she  looks  up  at  him  through  her  lashes  when  he  speaks ,  lips  sealed  ‘til  he  stops ,  gamora  places  a  hand  on  his  arm ,  the  other  still  folded  across  her  front .   ‘   you  make  me  worry  no  matter  what ,  it’s  just  making  me  worry  less ,  you  can  work  on .   ’ 

[zehcberei]

i won’t have my laptop tonight because my dad has to do a job and will be taking it, but add my discord ( MAGNUS.#3705 ) for threads there! i rp gamora / kraglin / pietro / thor as my marvel muses!

[zehcberei]

gamora scares me so much like she keeps so many secrets and they only ever come when she NEEDS to say them like. even after two or more years of being a guardian she doesn’t tell ANYONE about the map she burned, except for nebula! thats so fucking scary

[zehcberei]

boytective  .

         HE  IGNORES  HER  .    it’s  a  bold  move  ,  one  he  doesn’t  usually  take  ,  but  his  papers  quake  in  his  hands  .  he  knows  he  has  to  do  something  to  show  that  he  can  be  strong  ,  too  .  angus  sits  ,  ankles  locked  ,  toes  barely  brushing  the  floor  ,  and  peers  at  her  over  the  frames  of  his  glasses  ,  eyes  wide  and  inquisitive  .  ‘  hello  ,  miss  .  my  name  is  ,  um  ,  deduction  ,  and  i  would  like  to  ask  you  a  few  questions  about  your  working  relationship  with  the  mad  titan  .  ’

          BEING  CAUGHT  SO  CLOSE  TO  HER  PLANNED  ESCAPE  LEAVES  HER  ON  EDGE -  thanos  would  grow  suspicious  of  her  .   she  leans  forward ,  slowly ,  elbows  placed  on  the  table .   ‘   i  have  nothing  to  speak  of  it ,  unless  these  questions  guarantee  that  i  will  be  released .   ’   there’s  a  pause ,  before  she  sighs .   ‘   ask  your  questions .   ’

[zehcberei]

stardians  .

        HE  TURNS  TO  HER  LAZILY  ,    head  canting  in  his  stupor  so  his  chin  rests  on  his  shoulder  .  peter  wants  ,  more  than  he  can  describe  ,  to  lean  against  her  shoulder  ,  encircle  his  arms  around  her  middle  and  do  nothing  else  –  the  feeling  is  new  to  him  ,  but  it’s  easier  pill  to  swallow  when  taken  with  alcohol  .     ❛     ‘s  exactly  my  point  ,  mora  .  michael  knight  never  danced  with  iblue  ‘cause  they  had  no  chemistry  .  me  an’  you  ,  though  ?  whole  new  story  .     ❜     

          SHE  LEANS  BACK  ON  THE  WALL  BEHIND  HER ,  picture  still  held  in  the  curl  of  her  palm .   she  smiles  at  him ,  he’s  drunk ,  but  there’s  something  about  the  way  that  he  talks  that  sets  a  steady  flame  alight  in  the  curve  of  her  ribs .   gamora  tilts  her  head  at  him  as  she  meets  his  gaze ,  dark  brown  eyes  alight  with  the  reflection  of  constellations .   she  hums ,  ‘   i  have  chemistry  with  the  starlord ?   ’   the  name  is  to  watch  him  squirm ,  but  there’s  a  fond  note  alongside  it .

[zehcberei]

spaceraised  .

                            A POUT.  there was this one stuck in her mind that peter sometimes sang to her but … she wasn’t about to teach mora that right now. another idea popped up  !  ❛  can you tell me a story instead  ?  ❜

          GAMORA  ISN’T  USED  TO  THIS -  WHAT  COULD  SHE  CALL  IT ?   motherhood  feels  like  a  term  that’s  too  heavy .   she  sighs  quietly ,  ‘   i  don’t  know  many  stories .  ’   she  murmurs ,  brow  knitted .   she  doesn’t  recall  much  from  her  childhood ,  stories  are  torn  to  shreds  with  a  blade  that  held  a  blood-red  jewel  in  the  middle .  

[zehcberei]

dctrplmr  .

         “If    it’s    ALREADY    HEALING    I    suppose    you’ll    let   it   heal   INCORRECTLY?”          Christine    is    CERTAINLY    UNAWARE   of    how    ALIENS    heal,    she’s    only    doing    what    she’s    TOLD.        “LOOK,   I’m    trying    to    HELP    YOU    here.    I’m    not   the   BAD    GUY    for     patching    you    up.”

          THE  ATTITUDE  OF  THE  WOMAN  MAKES  GAMORA  ROLL  HER  EYES ,  clicking  her  tongue  against  her  teeth .   she  sighs  heavily .   ‘   i  was  an  assassin ,  this  isn’t  the  first  time  i’ve  been  injured  like  this .   it-   ’   she  waves  a  hand ,  ‘  ---a  waste  of  supplies .   i’m  sure  you  have  other  patients .   ’

[zehcberei]

catch me making weird faces so that nobody can see my skin getting bad, happy munday !

[zehcberei]

ironicarus  .

           her  stature  reminds  him  of  nothing  less  than  that  of  a  curious  child’s  .  such  a dangerous  being  ,  yet  so  filled  with  innocence  toward  the  unknown  .  ❝  there  was  an  accident  a  few  years  back  ,  it  left  me  with  bits  of  shrapnel  in  my  chest  .  and  this  guy  ,  ❞  he  points  to  the device  ceremoniously  .  ❝  the  arc  reactor  ,  kept  the  pieces from  entering  my  heart  ,  thus  keeping  me  alive  .  or  powering  me  ,  so  to  speak  .  i  had  the  shrapnel  removed  not  too  long  ago  ,  so  now  i  don’t  really  need  it  .  ❞

          AS  HE  SPEAKS  ABOUT  HIS  ACCIDENT ,  gamora  nods  slowly ,  taps  her  thumb  on  the  reactor  once  again .   ‘   you  would  not  have  it  removed ,  no ?   ’   she  asks ,  tilting  her  head  at  the  man  in  front  of  her .   ‘   if  you  don’t  need  it  any  more .   ...  can  you  remove  it  ?   ’

[kyinbox]

                            * THIS IS THE END SENTENCE STARTERS. 120 sentence starters from the movie this is the end (2013) contains some nsfw content.       ( feel free to change pronouns, etc. )

‘ i have the best weekend ever planned, man. ’ ‘ when are you gonna do some, like, real acting ? ’ ‘ can we please go to fucking carls junior ? ’ ‘ i can’t really eat that stuff right now, i’m on a cleanse. ’ ‘ so you’re not drinking, you’re not smoking weed… ’ ‘ no, no, i’m drinking, i’m smoking weed. ’ ‘ if you stopped eating gluten, you’d feel way fucking better. ’ ‘ whenever you feel shitty ? that’s ‘cause of gluten. ’ ‘ who the fuck told you not to eat gluten ? ’ ‘ you don’t even know what gluten is ! ’ ‘ it’s something that’s used to categorize things that are bad ! ’ ‘ calories ! that’s a gluten. fat ! that’s a gluten. ’ ‘ so this is how the other half lives. ’ ‘ it’s all of your favorite things ! ’ ‘ it says [name] in joints. ’ ‘ you are just… the best people. ’ ‘ it eases the transition… the much needed foreplay. ’ ‘ i’m a well-known homosexual advocate. ’ ‘ i haven’t seen it yet, but i’ve heard it’s supposed to be bonkers. ’ ‘ we’ll chill together and we’ll chill with these other guys ! we’ll all chill as one big unit. ’ ‘ you know what ? [name]’s an inspiration. ’ ‘ for you, i will go. ’ ‘ i wanna be with you all night. ’ ‘ this is the sexiest street in america. ’ ‘ this place is like a piece of me. you just stepped inside of me. ’ ‘ guess what buddy, you like art ! ’ ‘ look at him, he’s like.. a hipster, right ? ’ ‘ you seem to hate a lot of things, and the bottom of your pants are awful tight. ’ ‘ you hate movies that are universally loved. ’ ‘ nobody’s that nice. serial killers are that nice. ’ ‘ why the fuck do you think i put up the sign ? ’ ‘ somebody took my fucking cellphone ! ’ ‘ it’s unbelievable, it’s unacceptable ! ’ ‘ oh shit, that’s embarrassing. ’ ‘ can you lower your voice ? you’re freaking out [name]. ’ ‘ maybe i’m the one whose freaked out ! ’ ‘ he’s not as strong as you. ’ ‘ we are all soft ! we pretend to be hard, but we’re soft as baby shit ! ’ ‘ there’s racoons and bandits and shit out there ! ’ ‘ the good guys are here ! ’ ‘ we’re fine ! it’s gonna be fine ! ’ ‘ i went out this morning and specifically bought this milky way. ’ ‘ i’m not sporting a crop top in your house. ’ ‘ you couldn’t handle my midriff. ’ ‘ i’m gonna sleep with you. ’ ‘ i’m gonna sleep with you, it’s too scary to sleep alone. ’ ‘ maybe this horrible, horrible, deadly earthquake happened to make us closer as friends. ’ ‘ not terminator two, for god sakes. ’ ‘ you wanna spoon ? ’ ‘ goodnight my sweet guys. ’ ‘ he didn’t suck any dick last night. ’ ‘ now i KNOW y’all are trippin’. ’ ‘ here’s my vote; fuck all of you. ’ ‘ this is real, this is fucking real ! ’ ‘ i’ve been feeling really weird about him lately. ’ ‘ i know that dude ! ’ ‘ i’m straight up lovable, son. ’ ‘ you’re just as shitty as the rest of us. ’ ‘ hey, what’s cheese without a few crackers, you know what i’m sayin’ ? ’ ‘ weed is for the people ! it’s the people’s weed ! ’ ‘ b-f-f-f-f-f-f-f-f forever ! ’ ‘ you’re british, right ? you’re used to eating shitty food ? ’ ‘ don’t talk about [name] like that. ’ ‘ that’s fucked up, man, i’m right here. ’ ‘ she’s like a little sister. ’ ‘ what kinda vibes are you talking about ? ’ ‘ chill the fuck out, man, puttin’ that shit in the mix ! ’ ‘ the one who denies it, supplies it ! ’ ‘ it’s me, america’s sweetheart ! ’ ‘ it’s smoky as fuck out here. ’ ‘ somebody, throw me a knife. ’ ‘ o-m-g, [name], i’m so sorry. ’ ‘ you saw something out there, didn’t you ? ’ ’ this is the real shit, right now, happenin’. ’ ‘ do shit unto people that would do the same shit to you. ’ ‘ we’re gonna do it together. ’ ‘ who has goddamn porno mags anymore ? ’ ‘ don’t walk away. ’ ‘ it’s too late, i’ve already walked away too much. ’ ‘ remember when i got you that twenty dollar taco bell gift certificate, and i bet that you couldn’t eat that much taco bell ? ’ ‘ i broke my ass ! ’ ‘ this is terrence peterson, my monkey flashlight keychain. ’ ‘ i needed to wash down that dry ass cinnamon toast crunch. ’ ‘ you’re making me into a joke right now and you are not gonna like the fucking punchline. ’ ‘ god fucking dammit, i’m gonna kill this motherfucker ! ’ ‘ that’s what i thought, nerd. ’ ‘ that fucker has got to go. ’ ‘ i party so fuckin’ hard. always have. ever since i was a baby. ’ ‘ you didn’t have my back back there ! you fuckin’ disappoint me. ’ ‘ that self-righteous, cocksucking, two-faced backstabber. ’ ‘ you’re twisting that shit around. ’ ‘ textbook twattage. ’ ‘ his insides are worse than my outsides. ’ ‘ what’s up, what were you thinking that day ? ’ ‘ just kill [name], that would be so tight. ’ ‘ so something… uh, not that chill, happened last night. ’ ‘ just… bad sleep, crazy dream. ’ ‘ uhh, lemme break it down for you; i’m not fucking going. ’ ‘ what do you think this is, scooby doo ? ’ ‘ this shit’s cray-cray, guys. ’ ‘ acting like it’s hot when it’s cold. sitting on the beach, it’s freezing, you’re in your draws, talkin’ about how everybody’s surfing. ’ ‘ they didn’t make a mistake. ’ ‘ there’s a reason we’re all here. ’ ‘ i gouged a man’s eyeballs out. ’ ‘ god did this. ’ ‘ the power of christ is compelling me ? that’s what’s happening ? ’ ‘ you’re gonna repeat lines from the exorcist ? ’ ‘ well, i assume they did their fuckin’ research. ’ ‘ we’ve got an exorcism to finish, hello ! ’ ‘ i would have sucked a dick for half a cracker ! ’ ‘ i run over there, screaming and shit. ’ ‘ holy shit, do you know what this means ?! ’ ‘ if we’re actually nice to each other, we can get sucked up into heaven. ’ ‘ i made him my bitch ! ’ ‘ we’re friends, you can’t fucking eat us ! ’ ‘ another fine mess we’ve found ourselves in. ’ ‘ you’ve got to be fucking shitting me ! ’ ‘ i didn’t like what i became, so i hated what you became. ’ ‘ i don’t deserve to go to heaven, but you do ! ’ ‘ welcome to heaven, motherfucker. ’