Taking up space and making friends is so hard. Especially when you can tell when someone just wants to talk at you and not hear what you have to say. Like a thickness enters the air that only you feel. Sitting is a group of people who are enjoying talking to each other can be arguably worse. You can try to interact and join the conversation but no matter how hard you try its obvious that the only thing that would have changed if you weren't there was no one would be interrupting. "You make friends by sharing experiences together!" Is right and would be perfect if anyone remembered you were there in the first place. Being surrounded by people and still being alone is suffocating cause you cant even say your lonely. Being an adult who had to abandon everything to get out of a bad situation, starting completely fresh is hard. Making friends as an adult is hard. Something im still struggling to figure out. But until I do I will indulge in my sillies amd live vicariously through them. They adore hearing each other talk ❤️
