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October 11 2018

Update: Been here for 3 months. The work itself is pretty good. I mean the reception i’ve been doesn’t have much to do other telling them thier visitor has arrive.

BUUUUT!

The big fvcking but is my co - receptionist! They are so fcking annoying! I mean literraly!!

Everymove i do they kept will be spread among them! Talking bout shitty gossip girls!

Even if i’m not doing anything all their mouth do is talk bad behind my back! Like bitches i know i’m the youngest here but for fcking sake leave me alone!

We fcking work here, we all have the fcking same low salary! And when ibsay low i mean literally lowest salary a receptionist could have!

Why not support each other? If i ever do a mistake say to my motherfcking face than spreading gossip about me!

Mind you readers for this 3 months i have NOT been committing any mistake! But every little thing i do to them is a mistake.

I can’t wait go away from this hell place! I’m still young and just making this work my experience.

#irene #the name of the btch i hate the most #inggitera #palaka #karma #is #waiting #for #you #ilaria #is the other btch #no hope to them

July 05 2018

Blessed

This day i got 2 interviews. The first one was in mcdonalds. Second one was in Sicuritalia.

And guess what? I got accepted on both!

The funny thing is, when i went to sicuritalia I thought i applied to the wrong position because all of the people waiting there was all black men (they were nice tho).

I got confused for a moment and re-read the job offered. Then i suddenly realized maybe i reaaally did applied for the wrong position. Maybe they were searching for a bodyguard not a receptionist!

I really wanted to throw myself into the window to escape as soon as possible! But then i stayed, and tadaaaah! I really did apply for a receptionist position, thank God!

I will be back there next week on wednesday for the contract signing!

(I rejected the mcdonald one)

Wish me luck you guys! 🙏🏼

#excited #diary #thankful

28/05/2018 Can’t believe of the news i just relieved. It’s true. Slut do exist! Like literally! Your whole life consist of ruining friendship by fcking your ex friends? What do you gain by that? NOTHING! Your pussy stink! Just like your true color!

Via news. . .

24/05/2018 Can someone like me be ever be wanted in their professional world? I’m kinda loosing hope. Is it my fault? What can i do to change this? Please person from above! Help me! What fate do you have for me?

08/05/2018 I’m dying inside. And no one knows. How can i be save?

05/05/2018 Regret & annoyance to myself.

23/04/2018 They say, trust yourself, boost your confidence and you can and will reach what you aim for. But what if its your own family member that doubt you and without her knowing, its making me feel useless. I mean i do admit, i am at this point really a useless person.

Nature

20-21/04/2018 I recently feel like you’re leaving me out. What is wrong with bringing me with you? Do you dislike me that much with your friends? Do you feel like i’m a burden?

10/04/2018 Big day for the day! Big exam on 3pm. Slept late & woke up early, like seriously! I was really nervous i felt like vomiting every time or needing to 💩! HAHAHA I felt sorry for my friend but there’s always a next time. But thank God i passed it! Thank you for always blessing & guiding me lord!

Confidence booze up!

30/03/2018 So yesterday night i was feeling a little bit dizzy. I thought it was because of the tiramisu that i ate because it has a little bit of wine in it and i also had an empty stomach. My boyfriend says it might because the dessert has already expired. Really don’t know. This morning i woke up feeling weak. As if my body has lost its strength. I thought it was because i didn’t ate last night. I was hoping having breakfast would lift me up. But still after breakfast i felt weak. So i search for the thermometer and then tadaaa! I’m sick. What a wonderful day to be sick, not! I’m not really the type who get sick easily so when i told my mom i couldn’t go out tonight. She thought i was lying. Haha!

Flu flu go away!

22/03/2018 So, i just got kick from work. In these past 3 days of work i’ve been thinking very hard how hard the work is, not physically but mentally. This is the story, first of all it’s owned by a Chinese and they are known here to use people for their advantage. Second my coworker are both Chinese again! One is the wife of the owner & the other is idk maybe their cousin or whatever, he never even talk to me, not even a single glance. And they talk Chinese so all day i feel alone & no one to talk to. Third the work is 10 HOURS a day for 6 days in a week, with only 1 day rest & it’s not even a fix day. I’ve also known they’re always open even on holidays! And with no bonus! (Reason why Chinese here are known for using people) 4th is its a BETTING CENTER! Where every clients are addictive on betting their money on every race or any sport. Every race has a 1 minute countdown. Take note this is just my 4th day, i’m still learning & the keyboard is not even the same as the computer ones & there’s a lot of code consisting of numbers & every clients have their “own way of saying the bet” so i still had to know that. Take note, i’ve never bet on my whole life. 5th the fckin fat Chinese owner kept on shouting at me! Every single move! They kept on insisting i should’ve known every single code, which is more than 50, by my fckin 4th day! It’s not even a just a shout of mistake, they also insult me like they’ve known me for life! (Highlight: they also shout at their clients! I still remember he shouted to them “Don’t do that! I’m the owner!) Soooo full of himself. Some clients even apologize at me! Saying i was not in the right place & i’ve been treated bad so never come back. I’m quite glad i got kick from that toxic place. I could have become someone else if i stayed more. I should have trusted my instinct that its never the work that inspire me but an obligation to do. Cuz i’ve been feelin that on my first days but i kept on telling myself this is not for me but to help my mother.

Lesson: Never let yourself be step on and treated badly.

20/03/2018 You know what i find annoying about you? Your fckin patience! You got angry everytime, literally everysecond.

14/03/2018 So today a lot has reaaaally happened. Went home to find out, i finally received omy freebies (camera accessories) i’ve won on online shop, which i thought would never came cause its just a fraud. I wanted to get some afternoon nap cause lately i’ve been always tired because of my babysit. I’m glad i couldn’t sleep cause my high school friend message me they needed another worker. Got there and i’m finally gonna start on monday! Yay! In the evening, as always i went to my driving lesson and they finally gave me the exact date on my exam! I’m kinda scared, yet excited at the same time. Please, pray for me to pass this!

What a wonderful day

#contented

10/03/2018 O - M - G! The day my bff finally told me the truth! This is soo shoocking! Didn’t even expected it. She was never V even in 2017 & they were not even together yet! But i still support her. 💝 Still them ass fakin friends keeping it up.

Friendship renew

09/03/2018 You girls are so obvious. And obviously, I’m hurt. I do know a long time ago i don’t belong. And you just made me realize it all over again.

Irky situation

19-25/02/2018 Every time i’m with you it’s like a roller coaster ride, yet i’ve enjoyed every single part of it. I will miss you. I will miss us together.

1.32 am My midnight confession turns out to be midnight depression into midnight fight. Why can’t you understand? Not everything i say is because you did wrong. I’m just expressing i want to be there too.

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