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𝐢 𝐬𝐮𝐩𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐞 𝐢 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞, 𝐢𝐧 𝐬𝐩𝐢𝐭𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐦𝐲 𝐜𝐥𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐝 𝐟𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐬. - noah czerny and andrew minayd variant. david bowie lover.

[max-worm]

andrew doe, age 10

[max-worm]

andreil meeting as kids au where andrew is just absolutely infatuated with neil. not even in a romantic way, because they're only kids and andrew hasn't even considered that sort of thing yet, but in a “wow i Like this thing Very Very much” sort of way that makes him follow neil around just watching him, makes him share the food bee packed in his lunchbox with neil, makes him refuse to do his class work unless he's sat beside neil, makes him pout when neil wants to climb on top of the monkey bars because andrew is too scared to follow. and when neil gets hurt—a scraped knee or a tweaked ankle at recess—and cries, andrew is sat there beside him, staring at him bug-eyed, watching ever so closely to make sure that he's okay and not broken because oh no oh no oh no andrew's Very Favorite Thing is leaking tears oh no oh no oh no!!!

[caruccio]

Suddenly I don't want anyone to know me as deeply anymore, which is weird because I have always yearned for someone to understand my soul.

[cambieart]

“Do you even like me? As a person?”

based on that scene in Batman and Robin 2011 #20

[instigatorjosten]

Andrew “im actually just a kid but i hate feeling vulnerable so I’ll convince everyone im a monster so theyre too scared to even question my poke face” Minyard and Neil “i think im a monster and im so scared people will be able to tell so i act like im just some poor kid” Josten. takes a faker to know one. Andrew recognizing Neil’s sharp edges because he’s been hand carving his own to match for years.

[iambecomeyourvillain]

oh my GOD a drag path but it's neil literally dropping his duffel bag and racquet and phone during the riot for andrew to find before he was taken away by his father's men

[serafinapickelda]

"I won't be like them. I won't let you let me be"

Except the "them" that Andrew is afraid of turning into isn't Drake. Andrew is terrified of being like Cass.

We all know that Andrew hates Cass so ardently partly because he also loves her so much. He's scared of allowing himself to want so desperately, and he's filled with self-loathing at the suffering that he's willing to endure to keep Cass.

But he also hates her because she failed to protect him. She unwittingly used love as bait to capture Andrew and hold him down, while allowing him to be harmed beyond measure.

Andrew's moral compass, the way that he loves, and (at points) his very reason for living are all built around being the exact opposite to Cass.

It's why Andrew has himself thrown into juvie to keep Aaron from being in the same room as Drake. Andrew refuses to be the loved one that lures Aaron to Drake, refuses to let Aaron's wish for a family be the thing draws Aaron to harm.

It's why Andrew won't stop shaking at Thanksgiving until he can see that Aaron is alright, until he knows that running into the room with a weapon out of love for Andrew isn't what put Aaron in Drake's path.

It's why he kills Tilda. He will not stand by and watch someone hurt the people under his protection, even though the person doing the hurting is his own blood.

It's why he protects Nicky. He won't let Nicky's love for Andrew - Nicky's insistence on raising him and Aaron - be the thing that damages Nicky.

It's why he protects Kevin and why he protects Neil. To be that person, that safe person who uses himself as the bait that keeps them there, while refusing to let anyone touch them.

Andrew loves with his whole heart. But people miss it because the way that he expresses love is calibrated to be the exact opposite of the way that Cass loved him. Don't you think that Andrew wishes that Cass had loved him like this, too? That she had shadowed him, monitored him, fiercely controlled who came near him? Violently extracted all of the secrets that he was keeping from her, bullishly inspected his scars? Threatened to stab and hit until one single glare was enough to make everyone stop?

Andrew is not making the same mistake. He won't be like them, he won't let the people that he loves let him be.

[doesephs]

if you see a bitch on the slopes with a bad bob that is NOT kevin day. go the other way.

[instigatorjosten]

we as a community often forget how cunty and amazing this line was. outdid Neil even

[neutralomensart]

I’m not still devastated, you are

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Andrew Minyard.

A man of sharp edges and angry eyes. A man who learned that anger is easier than kindness and nonchalance pushes people away. A big dog is scarier than a little boy, and so he became a big dog.

Neil Josten.

A man of mystery. Identities exchanged like coats. Hair dyed beyond repair and scars hidden by a ghost. A man who learned that being nothing is easier, but tiring. A man who learned that being the rabbit is safer.

Andrew Minyard and Neil Josten who both understood that love is two things - dangerous and a privilege.

[elizaisdunn]

bibliophile Jason Todd is something that can be so personal

[shmooseee]

When you and ur brother beat the shit out of each other then go out for lunch five mins later.

[shmooseee]

I love when dialogue balloons follow the camera angle

[simonsrosebud]

kevin’s books and it’s “kevin and thea” “kevin and jean” “kevin on US court” no. kevin and wymack learning to be family. wymack learning what he missed out on. wymack feeling guilty over the childhood kevin should have had. being guilty despite not having a choice. kevin wanting to form relations with wymack as family and not knowing how. kevin and wymack.

[lazuli-rises]

HC that it's Nicky and the girls that show him how. That Abby and Betsy help Wymack on his side. They learn, and by the next time they win championships Kevin's senior year, in his speech, he thanks his dad LONG before he thanks his coach

[ziggyrambles]

Andrew Minyard who has never known gentle hands, hands that love unconditionally, hands that aren't hungry for things he cannot give.

Andrew Minyard who has never known eyes that search for the parts that are forgotten, who has never known eyes that aren't hunting, preying, attacking.

Andrew Minyard who has felt mouths on young skin and hands searching his body, mouths and hands and eyes that taught him that struggling causes more harm than good.

Andrew Minyard who isn't human. He hasn't been human since the first set of hands touched him, since his hospital bracelet was left behind, since he breathed air for the first time and he wailed into hospital silence.

Andrew Minyard who learned that big dogs don't get hurt. Who learned that squared shoulders and knives are scarier than searching eyes and preying hands will ever be.

Andrew Minyard who shakes his hand with the dark and the shadows, who spits in the face of the word please because it has never saved him before.

Andrew Minyard who has a grin craved into his face and laughs when he panics. He is scolded when he laughs at the wrong time, but no gentle voice ever taught him the appropriate reactions to his emotions.

Andrew Minyard who protects what is his and is so fucking human that it is tearing him apart piece by piece. Andrew Minyard who is flesh and blood and human.

Andrew Minyard who does not learn love until he is twenty years old.

[codename-adler]

do you guys have any idea how impossibly difficult it is for any sports team to have two people on staff? with one of them versed in medicine only? to have no support, no back-up. how David Wymack did it is the real miracle of AFTG. no PR, no comms, no legal, no scouters, no assistants, no driver, no socials, no managers, nothing. you think Haikyuu was a critique of classism? we can look at the PSU Foxes and think it’s just not realistic, or we can look at the USC Trojans see the whole choice as a thought-through execution from Nora Sakavic. oh David Wymack, the man that you are. always trapped in the middle, fighting for his kids that are also fighters, but that the world just doesn’t want to see succeed. all alone. it makes me want to sob violently. how the man still has hair i don’t know. i’d be bald with major heart problems. he deserved all the awards. and god i hope he gets the Kayleigh Day Award one day too. Kevin Day isn’t the only true legacy of Kayleigh.

[myfatherisaneggcarton]

Andrew killing Tilda then not trusting Katelyn because he doesn’t trust women around Aaron.

Aaron killing Drake then not trusting Neil because he doesn’t trust men around Andrew.

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