Dandelion

🇨🇳 I'm learning English. Trying to write down whatever it is here. Feel free to correct my English but please be kind and friendly. Ty. /love

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Death is normal and inevitable, then why do we have the feeling of wanting survival?

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The present is a present.

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What!?! Imu has a sooooooooooooooooo good looking aaaaaaaaaaa!!!!=͟͟͞͞(꒪ᗜ꒪ ‧̣̥̇)

Nooooooooooo!!!

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aaaaa what did I watch!!??? Craaaaazy ~~~ Ahhh my eyes!!🤣🤣🤣

Here is the link of this video. Someone used AI to create this funny video:

【“前辈，说好组一辈子Faze Clan的呢？”-哔哩哔哩】 https://b23.tv/KAw3CjB

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Watched a video about letting her boyfriend add the latter part of the only given the former part words that our parents used to PUA us when we were little.

I cried...

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I heard that 耳をすませば had released in north america and europe.

It's my favorite love story film and ghibli film as well. Sadly I can't watch it in the cinema here (for political reasons...)..😭

But I will rewatch it at home in these days. Actually I have rewatch it many times haha.

When I was in the middle school, I fell in love to it at the first glance.

Because of it, I was fascinated by violin. I wrote love stories and the male lead definitely was good at playing the violin.🤣

In a few years, I finally realized what I truly loved wasn't the violin, but the male lead. I didn't love the man playing the violin but the man making the violin.

I took a screenshot of the scene where the seiji(the male lead's name ) was making the violin by the work table in the corner. That was the subjective shot of 雫(shizuku, the female lead's name), so was mine.

He was quiet, devoted the whole himself to the craft in his hand. The air was quite, the time was paused, I saw the infinity. I was deeply attracted to that scene.

I have used this screenshot as the profile image of my music app since then. Also, when I want to change my computer wallpaper but have no a specific alternative. It is always the first option popping up in my mind. I also used it in many other places when needed.

In the high school, I was attracted to a boy. I remember the scene I loved most. Even now I recall, I still feel it charming and fascinating. Somehow I want to use sacred to describe it. What am I thinking haha my goodness.🤣

In the long time I couldn't understand why I was deeply fascinated by that scene until I thought of this film. I related him to seiji. Oh I got it.

These two scenes are similar.

I finally realized the personalities I was fascinated by of seiji and that boy.

The film tells a love story taking place in the middle school.

Frankly speaking, it built my value of love.

For myself, I had expected such a pure love story in my middle and high school. I saw it as my ideal love. Sadly I wasn't lucky enough to have one...

After I entered the university, I still rewatched it a few times. But I thought that I was not at the age of that pure love any longer. The teens time had gone away from me.

It wasn't the love that I should expect for anymore. I consciously controlled myself not to recall this film often. I rewatched much more other ghibli films.

In one afternoon a few years ago, I suddenly thought of it and decided to rewatch again. I found that I still love this film. What's more, I felt more, I was touched more by their love, I found seiji more charming, I saw a familiar image on suzuku.

Yeah, today I am still loving it.

(By the way, the names of this film are extremely beautiful.)

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I can see you, and I allow you to be what you are, and I allow myself not to choose you to be my side as well.

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I was playing a 30min video while working. Each time I looked up at the screen and surprisingly it was always the same scene.

..amazing

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"The door opens widely, there is still someone wanting to stay inside.

The door closes fully, there is still someone wanting to go out."

“门来得再大，也有人不想出来；门关得再严，也有人想出来。”

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風の谷のナウシカ

I have added it in my shopping cart for a long time.

I was thinking, well, I would buy it one day when I was able to.

Until a few days ago, I was buying something else and suddenly I thought of it.

I searched a lot and decided to buy it immediately.

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I had a language call tonight.

We planned to talk for one hour and at last we talked for two hours.

In the book I am reading, there is a saying that most people are waiting for a better life. The author told us not to wait in the time.

I tried to recall, hardly thinking of anything I was waiting for.

But in the call tonight, the talk with my language partner reminded me of the thing I have been waiting for so long.

After our call, I was doing some washing. Suddenly I broke my glass cup.

Looking at the pieces on the ground, I was thinking, there was something broken and my cup paid the cost.

It must have protected me from some curse.

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From what I know about myself, when I spend hours and hours on trivial and meaningless things, there must be something important that I put off once and once again, day after day.

The real life is,

although I know clearly it can bring me income, I am still 100000％reluctant to do the commission.😭

くるしいいいいいいい!!~~~~

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Alipay is one of the most frequent apps I use.

Until today I finally noticed my profile image(the above one).

Omg it's a soooo cute one!!🤣🤣

I must have used it for over ten years. I didn't realized I had fell in love to bob haircut(波波头in Chinese) since I was little.🤣

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有时候人们的热情和真诚会压得我喘不过气。(ó﹏ò｡)

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( I rarely used the night mode hhh. I couldn't help my shaking.)

Just finished an English call, I decided to take the note that I had pinned in the discord channels for long.

But somehow I was too thrilled for no reason to sit down quietly.

I paced up and down in the room and suddenly I looked up the sky through the window.

“我与月亮对视了。” aww sadly English can't interpret what I thought in Chinese.

The moon was there, among the buildings. It was bright,round, clean, pure and quiet.

It was 9:30pm, but I was like:"It's time to go out to admire the moon."

I remember yesterday I watched a video saying how the Chinese character "闲" is beautiful. At the quite first stage of this character, the symbol looked like a person, leaning against the wooden door, was admiring the moon.

I went to the river. Sitting on the grass by the river, listening to the song 《月亮代表我的心》(The Moon Represents My Heart), I saw the moon waving behind the weeping willows.

I like this night.

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I haven't responded to the messages of my language partners for two days... I read them but had no energy to think of what I reply.

So I had to close the dm and exited the discord.

Someone recommended me a game. I searched it in the steam and found it interesting. In a few days I thought of it and added it to my wishlist.

I told my language partner (who recommended the game.) that I would play that game. She said she wanted to know how I thought of the game, telling me definitely let her know after I play.

But the game still lay in my wishlist.

A few days later, I finally added it to the shopping cart.

Until today, I know it still lay in my cart, because yesterday when I added another game to the shopping cart, I saw it still there.

Another one also recommended me one game. Clearly I repeated the whole process. I also received a demo web that allowed me to experience the game firstly. I read the introduction of the web and also saved it.

That was what I all did. I didn't play the demo although I was told it was really short.

I played TFT earlier days streaming to someone. I told that I would download NA LOL so that we could play together.

After the stream, she sent me the official site link. I opened, checked and saved it.

The next day I downloaded the game, and then left it alone...

On another next day, I opened the game and looked at the login page. I was like:"Oh! That's good. It is true as what she said. It only needs my email to make an account!"

Then I clicked the exist button..

It is still on my desktop and I haven't created my account.

I definitely will play all of them. I just don't know on what day it is.

I did it to almost all things in my life. Even it was the message from my family or bestie.

I saw the floating window of the message notification poped up but seemed to ignore it.

I checked the messages from my bestie last evening. But I just checked it and then closed the wechat. After I came home and found I finally had the energy, I replied to her.

I don't think I was aware to choose not to reply or do the rest.

I thought nothing at those moments instead.

I seemingly was able to do a tiny step at a time...

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“万家灯火”

First time to take a walk along the river in the evening. Less passer-by, cool wind, fresh air, quietly flowing water... and I saw the moon. The moon is round and golden.

“今晚月色真美。”

(Sadly my phone couldn't take what the moon really looked like hh.)

I saw someone burning something on the other side.

QingMing Holiday is around the corner. What was he thinking of when looking at the fire burning? Was he missing someone in the another world?

I smelled the ash in the air. A familiar smell. The wind brought it to me, and brought me to somewhere I once came from.

"Is it the bridge of two worlds?" I was thinking.

I thought of the scenes in the anime March Comes in Like a Lion.

They were also in the air of ashes, looking at the fire, missing the family they loved deeply.

When I came back, the man had left, leaving the ashes on the ground, as well as the smell in the air.