𖣂

My thoughts Block dont report

[whit3rxbbit]

It's so hard to hold back from eating god I feel like I'm in dr*g withdrawal

[zombixxg1rl]

Just graduated highschool, Im terrified of gaining wait now that I have all this Boredom and free time

I need starving tips

[zombixxg1rl]

Uh oh I'm back 🥹🫰 I can't stop eating and I hate myself bro how do I loose the weight in my thighs and arms

[zombixxg1rl]

Tumblr.. I have returned I fear.. I hate my body brotatoe but I can't stop eating please help

[zombixxg1rl]

My therapist tells me I need to "accept" that I have depression but like I feel like I've accepted it and I don't like it bro like weather i accept it or not I will not be happy nothing will change I'll just hate myself more no matter what bro

And like I'm not even entirely sure that I have JUST depression like something is wrong with me bro and I wanna kms but I can't tell people that or I'll get sent away 😔

[gblqhdjh7dvc3nlmebe6bvkafvz5j4]

One day I’ll be able to eat without having a war in my head

[zombixxg1rl]

I just wanna lose weight again but winter break has fucked me so far up the ass I feel like I can't stop stuffing my fucking face I wanna kms

[zombixxg1rl]

Haven't posted in a bit but I feel so alone and just unimportant in everyone's life and I feel like my spark is just gone and like I don't feel like myself anymore idk what's wrong but I hate it and I hate the way I look right now cus I'm pretty but not natural only with makeup and my hair is grown out from its original style but like yet still short and idk what to do with it and idk I just feel not okay and I don't wanna do this bs anymore

[zombixxg1rl]

I litterally can't stop eating somebody help

[zombixxg1rl]

Bro my mom asked if I wanted food from some fast food place and I said no and then she just texted me while I'm working talking bout sum "I got you food anyways"

I love my mom and I'm greatful that she did that like I'm not trying to seem unappreciative or anything I just am trying to stay on track bro let me livuhhh

Edit: I did infact just demolish that sandwich cus I was high and I'm not to happy

[zombixxg1rl]

Going on tumblr to drown out the food noise

[zombixxg1rl]

Ed tumblr is like my guilty pleasure I love it so much but like nobody knows I have it

I think maybe one of my friends knows I have tumblr but not what I do on it

[zombixxg1rl]

Me when it's thanksgiving break!

Me when it's thanksgiving break..

Why tf do we have a holiday all about food are we dead ass rn

[zombixxg1rl]

I need a thigh g@p NOW it's my biggest insecurity, I want thinner thighs and lose the fat on my arms

I fucking hate thanksgiving cus all I did was eat and I've tried purging but it never works for me and it drives me crazy

Tips?

[zombixxg1rl]

How I look at my therapist when she asks how I cope but I can't tell her it's either get high 24/7 and eat or cut myself and starve there's no in between

[zombixxg1rl]

If getting better means gaining weight why would I want to get better

I mean I would love to be able to eat and not have to worry about gaining weight but unfortunately that's not how it works

Food is so good but I veiw it as like almost my enemy and I hate it, I love eating but I hate the way it makes me feel and I hate when I binge

I wanna be happy and skinny but I'm scared if I started eating like a normal person then I'll gain weight and I am terrified of gaining weight

Why do I feel like this

[zombixxg1rl]

I feel like part of me is dying to get better like I don't wanna feel like this but then the other part thinks if I get better than was I even ever sick in the first place?

I want to get worse but I hate that I do

And I hate how much I hate myself and now negative I think of myself but I never do anything about it because I don't think I wanna be better

I want people to know how bad I'm struggling and help me but I won't ever tell them so in my mind I need to get so bad to the point where they will just notice

I hate this so much