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A little corner expressed my feeling to the world

[zsheepa]

April 20th, 2023

I has came up with the idea of writing diary from now on. Along with reading English novels, I will try to write the diary or some short articles using the new words I get during the reading time.

[zsheepa]

Bố yêu em hơn tất thảy mọi thứ trên đời này.

Đừng giữa cuộc đời này bố luôn cảm giác cô độc vì người ta không hiểu mình. Bao giờ cũng vậy, bố khi nào cũng là đối tượng bị người ta chỉ trích mặc dù bản thân bố chẳng đáng bị như thế và cũng không hề muốn như thế. Nhưng biết làm sao được, cứ ngày một ngày trôi qua người ta lại nhận thấy bố càng thu mình và khó gần hơn. Vì bố bắt đầu cảm thấy tâm hồn mình ngày càng trở nên cằn cỗi, khô khan, khi phải gồng mình đứng giữa ngã rẽ này khúc quanh nọ. Mọi người thích nhìn vào bố, thích dựa vào bố, nhưng khi bố yếu đuối và cô đơn nhất thì lại không có ai sẵn lòng chìa tay ra cho bố nắm. Cũng có thể là do bố đã trở nên góc cạnh và chai lỳ hơn sau những lần vấp ngã.

Em là tất cả những gì bố có, dù có đánh đổi cả thế giới này của bố để em có những điều tốt đẹp hơn, thì bố sẵn sàng làm ngay lập tức và chẳng cần biết đúng sai hậu quả.

Bố yêu em, công chúa nhỏ của bố.

03/03/2023.

[zsheepa]

Yep, this world treated me like a shit!

The people outside knew how I was, but the people inside was fucking idiots! 😊

[zsheepa]

My working experience (Part 3)

After leaving FPT, I was recruited to VSIP Nghe An and worked there for more than 3.5 years. That place brought both upset and happy memories to me. It grew me up and trained me to become a stronger and hardy person. That was a long story so I would talk about it in the future.  Part 3 of the story will be told about my current job.

In 2019, a friend who had studied with me at high school called me and asked me if I could take a coffee with him. At first, I tried to think about what he intended to do because it had been a long time since we hadn’t met each other. However, it was still good to talk with an old friend to reconnect and rise up our relationship. After chatting for a short time, I know his main purpose. He recommended a job in his company with a good salary and benefits. His suggestion came at once I was feeling depressed in my current job. Maybe it was the thing that people always called “destiny”. He let me a couple of days to think carefully and learned more information about his company. Beforehand I had never thought that Thaco was as big as that. It was an integrated company with many different fields from the mechanic, logistics, construction, retail, etc. Realize the potential of this Group in the future and the wage paid to me was at least double more than my current income. In conclusion, it was a really good chance for me to jump out of the working environment with which I hadn’t wanted to stick anymore.

According to the Vietnam Labor Law, the employees would have 1 or 2 months in a new company called the probationary process. For me, it was two extremely hard months. I left the former company while not fully handling all of the uncompleted work. It could be said that I wasn’t a responsible person, however, other people would do the same when they stayed in my situation. At that time, my superior resigned to start her new own start-up, but other colleagues said that she left the company in an angry and disappointed manner. Instead of asking why and encouraging her to stay, the Board of Directors decided to recruit a new employee for the position she left behind. And that new Manager was the reason for making me submit the resignation letter later. In the first two months in Thaco, I worked here in the daylight and went to work at VSIP at night. It was really not easy because both of them were big companies and the number of tasks was very much. Even though the stress stayed with me for two months, I tried my best to fulfill all my duties at two places.

Now let’s back to the main story about my current position in Thaco. I started here as a staff in the Planning Dept. Beforehand my department has only a member. That was me. Besides working as a planner, I had to cum the position of Assistant of Director. In general, I worked very hard at the beginning and got many good results. After three years of working, I’d got my salary raised four times. My current position was Deputy Head of Department, much higher than the start. The number of employees in my department was 4 four now, including me. Fortunately, I started my career in Thaco earlier than the others. It gave me a chance to get much knowledge, experience, and relationship.

I thought that I would stay here not only for a short time. There still were many things I could study, including skills and living experience.

[zsheepa]

Tennis Competition

Yesterday I took part in the Tennis Competition held by my company. In everyone’s opinion, my team was the highest win rate couple. We had a big chance to reach the first prize because I was the best at the B level and my partner was assessed quite well at level A.

The first match of us was not really good. My partner arrived at the tennis court a little bit late. All members of our club gathered to take some photos, however, he had not arrived at the tennis court yet. After making a phone call to confirm that he was on the way, I kept myself calm and watched the first match. The match went so fast without any surprises. Team DQ won the game and the score was 6-0. After that was my team’s turn. We came to the match with all of our confidence. Even though our competitor was rated quite strongly, our team could beat them down because we knew how they played. The game was really a struggle and we fought for every single point. My teammate seemed not to concentrate on the match as usual. He made some foolish mistakes and let the ball fly straightly away to the opposite player many times. This would be very easy for the competitor to hit the ball strongly back to our court. Besides, he also pushed the ball outside the court himself. With more and more fouls we made, the match was out of control. The final score was 6-4 with the victory of the H2 team.

I had to say that it was the most regretful match for us. However, according to the regulation of this competition, each team must play 3 matches in the group stage. It meant we still had two chances to advance to the semi-final round. The next competitor we encountered was the couple DQ. Mr. D was assessed as the best player in our club. Therefore, the strategy for this match was to try to put all ball toward to Mr. Q. With 100 percent of concentration, we won and the score was 6-3.

The final should have been the easiest one that we had got in this competition because our competitor was the weakest team. But it was that subjective thought causing us to fail. In fact that I tried my best to complete my duty in that match, however, my teammate played uncarefully. We were officially disqualified from the tournament. Moreover, that day was my birthday.

It should have been a very happy day for me. My birthday, fighting in a strong team, etc. But the result was completely different from what I thought. End of the group stage, all members decided to hold a party to celebrate my birthday. We moved to a restaurant near the tennis court to have dinner. Although I wasn’t really interested in drinking that night because of the failure of my team, I had to join the party till the end.

[zsheepa]

Working experience since graduating (Part 2)

After 4 years of studying in Hanoi, I was back in my hometown for seeking any jobs suitable for me. I hadn’t received my university certificate at that time because I had not completed all my lessons yet. All I had was a scoreboard, an application form, a job offer letter, and a health check document. I applied for every position that I found on the internet. It was really difficult for an all-new-just-graduated boy like me. With not much experience, I fell into a deadlock. My mom seemed to understand what I was feeling so she didn’t ask me to do anything but play games. Being disappointed in myself, I called my siblings and asked them if there were any jobs I could apply for. Fortunately, my cousin introduced me to a friend who was the director of FPT Nghe An. He agreed to recruit me after a short interview. From that time, I got my official first job in Vinh as a Salesperson. My main tasks were finding the customers having demand for FPT internet, FPT telecommunication services, etc. My first job obviously gave me many interesting and unhappy experiences. However, it made me stronger and more confident. I spent my time implementing my own duties, as well as joining some other activities of the company. There were a few things about that company that made me want to quit my job after 4 months of working. Firstly, the wage was too low compared to other companies. I thought with my university certificate (one of the most reputed universities in Vietnam), I deserved to get a better job. Secondly, my mom got a disease that made her have to undergo surgery. Because of that news, I couldn’t put my mind to work. Finally, after thinking carefully, I decided to submit my resignation letter to the board of management. It was a day in the middle of August 2015, and about to be my birthday. Luckily I had my friends who helped me come through the sadness.

There weren’t many things to talk about in my first job. I was young and had much ambition. All I did was wait for a better chance to come to me. What must be, must be, I got a new job at a great company in an unexpected way.

The next part of my story will be about the second job, where I had sweet memories, friendly colleagues, and a clean, modern office.

[zsheepa]

Working experience since graduating (Part 1)

It has been about 8 years since the day I graduated from my university. In the year of graduation, many unhappy events were happening to me in particular and to my family in general. However, I passed all of them with my whole effort. Let me tell the story about my career process after receiving the university graduation certificate.

In 2014, I left my university with a good grade certificate. Those days, I thought having the National Economic University qualification was excellent. It would be easy for me to find a job with a good salary. But the truth was the opposite of my childish thought. After a long time of searching on the internet, I found that it was really difficult. The position I wanted to apply was requiring for much experience meanwhile the ones agreeing with my abilities didn’t meet my need. The desperation washed over me. Anyways, I must choose a company to start my career, and THT LAND was my last option after scanning the recruitment website. On the very first day of being at work, I posted statuses on Facebook, Instagram, etc. Many people gave me congratulations or kindly asked me about how my job was. But on the second day, the supervisor required me to move to the construction site to get used to other colleagues. Because that company’s main profession was real estate, the employees must go to the construction site at least twice a week. At the age of always thinking life was wonderful, I obviously didn’t want to go out on an extremely sunny and windy as it. I rejected my boss’s requirement and applied for my resignation letter after that. Rolling in the loneliness, and hurries in Hanoi made me tired. There was no one with whom I could share my worries about the future. Finally, I left this city to be back to my hometown, where I had got my family always looking after my developments.

Part 2 will be told about the process I sought a suitable job for myself in Vinh city.

[zsheepa]

The 1st day of a lunar month

In the Vietnamese people’s conception, Lunar Calendar was a strongly essential thing for them to schedule important plans. It may be the wedding day, the groundbreaking day for building construction, or even the day they decide to purchase something new.

On the first day of every month, people think what they do on this day will happen some times in the rest of this month. For example, if you picked up the money on the 1st of the lunar month, someone would have given you money for another day. Whereas, if you had an argument with anyone, the rest of that month would have been able to be full of unhappiness. Therefore, Vietnamese people usually go to the pagoda, temple, etc. on the first day of the lunar month. They wish the peace would come to their family, themself, or wish their career would reach a higher result. Everyone will burn incense and pray at home.

Before the Covid-19 pandemic, I often headed to the pagoda in Hung Nguyen District on the first day of every lunar month. Got up at half past 5 am, quickly took personal hygiene, picked up the offerings, and went to the pagoda. Because almost people were still sleeping at that time, the place was very empty. Perhaps, there were only a few people having the same habit as me. After finishing the process of praying, I usually had breakfast at any restaurant on my way home. Eel soup was the dish I always chose because people said that a good beginning made a good ending (= Well begun is half done,  All's well that ends well). However, from 2020 to 2021, Covid-19 has developed complicatedly for 2 years. It caused a hindrance to traffic, transportation, economy, and commerce. The government had issued a regulation not to gather in numbers. So the places that were often crowded with people such as the pagoda wouldn’t be allowed to operate. This rule made me not be permitted to visit that sacred land anymore. But for the community’s benefit, I made a decision of being strictly obeyed.

It has been two years since the last time I visited that pagoda. The pandemic is well controlled at the moment. Thus, maybe I will be back there in the next month. Forming a good habit is always a meaningful thing everyone should do.

[zsheepa]

Try to be familiar with English writing

I have got many technology items in my bag, however, two things of them take up most of my time. They are the Kindle Paperwhite e-book device and the Kindle Fire tablet. For usage purposes, I used to read e-books on the Kindle Paperwhite and watch movies on the Kindle tablet.

I bought them about 3 years ago. Initially, I thought that I would use them for studying English. The Kindle Paperwhite for reading English books, and the Fire tablet for looking up the vocabulary like an e-dictionary. Yet the fact was always different from plans. I downloaded many books in Vietnamese, namely most of them were sword-art novels. Sometimes I skimmed some books such as Harry Porter, Oxford Bookworm, etc. but after a few minutes, I felt bored and changed to other ones. In my view, the difficulty for readers in the foreign language was vocabulary and strange word combinations (idioms, phrases, etc.). It took everyone much time searching on the internet for the grammar/idioms or looking up in the dictionary for new words. The same as me. Doing it, again and again, was so bored and exhausted. I continuously read Harry Potter’s first volume for 3 years but unhappily that I hadn’t yet completed it, even though, it was my favorite novel. Still, it was easy to understand. You couldn’t finish a book when you only read it once in a while, maybe several times a month. Whilst it was a classic novel series with 7 volumes in total.

Nevertheless, it was unable to deny the benefit of reading books in English could help people to improve their knowledge. The vocabulary would be increased more or less. Along with reading books, I manipulated other methods as well. Translating movie subtitles, studying e-newspaper, watching abroad channels on Youtube, etc. All of them were good ways to improve my skills, however, I didn’t follow them to the end because of my impatience.

Until now, after making and applying a lot of plans, I realize that I can use any method as long as above all I must be patient. That is really true. I have started trying to write short stories, diaries, etc. in English since last week. Besides, I posted them on Tumblr to review in my free time. Hope that I can remain in this routine for a long time before I start feeling bored, LOL.

[zsheepa]

It's a historic day. Where once was before, there will now be after. Funny how historic days seem so ordinary when you're living them. Well, perhaps that's what happens when the world gets things right.

Said Dumbledore in “Fantastic Beast: The secrets of Dumbledore”

[zsheepa]

At least, we don't have to go through it alone

Dr. Strange: But I do wanna ask you something. Are you happy?

Wong: That's a, um, interesting question. You'd think that saving the world would get you there, but it doesn't. Sometimes, I do wonder about my other lives. Yet I remain grateful for this one, even with its tribulations. At least we don't have to go through it alone, huh?

Dr. Strange: No, we don't.

[zsheepa]

A little bit angry inside

This morning, as usual, I got up at 6 am and spent a little time reading the news on Facebook. Nothing was interesting. It was all about beautiful girls, videos with bullshit content, or some advertisements that I didn’t know what they were. Ok fine. Didn’t waste time anymore. I jumped out of my bed, washed my face, and brushed my teeth. After that, I took all my personal items and made my way back home. I had lived in two places for more than 2 years. My parent’s house and my parent-in-law’s house. Every morning, I went home to take my clothes and drove to work.

This morning, I bought three loaves of bread on the way home. My younger brother had waited for me at home (or waited for the breakfast that he guessed I would take home as usual, lol). He fried the eggs and meat to fill up the bread, while I completed the curriculum vitae for my wife. It took me about 30 minutes to be done. Then we had breakfast and gossiped together. However, when I found clothes for wearing to get to work, I realized that all of the trousers were so dirty. I didn’t know why, but who cared about the reason. I quickly wore the thickest trousers remaining although I felt so hot wearing them in the hot weather like these summer days. But I didn’t have any other options. It was 7:25 am, meaning I had only 5 minutes for the distance of 5 km. What must be, must be. I got to work 7-minute late. Poor me.

When I stepped on the path to my office, the security guard appeared behind me. He seemed unhappy, angry, or whatever but I didn’t really care. He threatened me that he would lock the gate the next time. Oh my gosh, I’m scared. He made me scared to death. Yet, I was a gentleman. I was a manager in the company as well. So, I just turned around and said to him “Hi”.

Then I sat down in my chair and took a cup of coffee to start a new week.

[zsheepa]

A failure of investment

Let me tell you about my investment process, which was really an unhappy experience I didn’t want to talk about it anymore. Of course after this post.

Last year, I invested in the crypto market. At that time, this definitely was a potential channel to grow up your money. Everyone said about it and the amount that they earned from it. In the beginning, I doubted why people could easily earn the money like that. However, I couldn’t wait any more when I heard that my colleague gained about 60 million VND from that market. I immediately asked him how he could do that. And all I needed to do was to install a mobile application named VNDC. Unable to wait for more, I installed it on my own phone. My wife initially agreed with me to spend 2 million VND investing. I looked at the candlestick patterns whole the time and gradually lost my focus on work. Every 30 minutes, I opened the app and saw the price of the coin I had bought. It actually took a lot of time of mine. After a few days of my initial capital (2 million), I earned a small amount that I didn’t remember how much it was. It obviously made me happy. I felt that I was destined for investing in the crypto market. I wondered why I hadn’t joined this market sooner. I was an extremely genius investor. Then I asked my wife to give me more money to gain more profit. If only she had stopped me at that point, we wouldn’t have lost much money like that. The desire to become richer made us unwise.

I tried my best to get more knowledge in the fastest way. Spent more time reading on the internet, ask professionals in this field also. In general, I did much because I thought that I could do better than anyone. Still, the fact was always more difficult than you thought.

Up to now, I lost all my initial investment capital (about 10 million) in the crypto market. We could call it by the name was Hung’s stupid investment. The price of all crypto was down more than half from the date I join the market. Fortunately, I only spent a little while my friends lost much more. Poor them. The crypto market nowadays was seen as a scam. A very small amount of people could gain profit from it. What I regretted most was unable to get back my money. Anyway, it taught me a good lesson for my investment in the future.

[zsheepa]

Day of fever

Yesterday morning, I and my wife took our daughter to the clinic to check her health. She had got a fever before but we don’t know exactly which disease was. We had taken her to a drug store close to home, however, we hadn’t actually believed in the professional certification in medicals of that medical representative. Therefore, instead of purchasing drugs from that store, we decided to take her to the clinic the next morning. Fortunately, it was the right choice. The medical representative mentioned above made a wrong diagnosis. She said that our daughter got tonsillitis even though bronchitis was the correct disease she got.

At the moment, our daughter was getting better after using the right drugs and methods. Her body temperature was no longer a cause for concern. She only needed to take the pills for two days more. Hope that she would be certainly healthy and completely recovered from that disease without any effect in the future.

- Friday, Jun 24th 2022 -

[zsheepa]

Dinner with my buddies

Last afternoon, I had dinner with my two buddies. As usual, it wasn’t anyone but Tony and Hai. We took 2 bottles of beer with some dishes such as fried fish, stir-fried vegetables, and peanuts. The cost wasn’t too much expensive, however, Tony paid for all of them.

The reason we dated for dinner was to think of the name of his son. He had just had a baby for 2 weeks. His family members suggested many different names but at that moment he didn’t really like them. He wanted us to help him find some names that both were matched the feng shui and meaningful. Even though we drank several times before for this topic, however, the final result was nothing but getting drunk (LOL). Tony decided to pay VND500,000 to get a recommendation from an online feng shui consultant. After receiving a list of meaningful names (said the feng shui consultant), we read the whole carefully to choose the most suitable one. Unfortunately, all of them were really common and not interesting.

After about 1 hour of chatting, we made a conclusion that the most meaningful one was Hung Thinh. It was combined with Tony’s name and his son’s name. Besides, the word Thinh meant rich and prosperous.

The meal finished at 7 PM the same day. We were high. Hai continued drinking with his former colleagues though.

- Thursday, June 23rd, 2022 -

[zsheepa]

Life changes when thoughts change

As I mentioned above, our lives are changed only when our thoughts were changed. These days, nature-love suddenly came to me. Maybe my mom was the one giving me the inspiration of growing plants. I watched many videos through many different channels on youtube.com to learn the most suitable methods to grow plants on the second balcony. Truly, there were too much information and knowledge related to this field. At first, I didn’t know exactly where or who or which to follow because everyone in those videos talked like a professional as well. After hours of searching, watching videos by videos, I finally found two channels fitting my requirements. The style of their videos was very close and really easy to understand for a newbie like me. After all, I decided to build up a small garden on the second balcony in my house. It was uneasy to wait until they grew up strongly because I was quite not patient :) I wished they could grow after just one night of watering. How greedy I am!

In my opinion, the process of growing plants helped me to partially reduce the stress, tired after a long long day working under a pressure, and bored at the office.

[zsheepa]

A little meeting after a little argument

Yesterday I had a little meal with my close friend, who had lived with me for about 3 years during university time. We talked about the past - the great memories of us, the current life of each other, and plans in the next year.

In these days, I had a little argument with my wife. I talked something hurting her (in her opinion, but in my view that was not as serious as it sounded). I hoped everything will be over soon because the new year is coming. There are so much work to be done before the Lunar New Year.

Change the information of Land Right Certificate: My Dad has passed away for 8 years however he is still the one owning the land where my family is living at. Therefore I will change the owner to my Mom with the support of my uncle.

Contribute money in repairing the lineage hall: Last night I went to my uncle’s house to ask him about how much my family should contribute in the lineage hall repair. Total was more than 75 million VND but my relatives paid almost of it. He told me to contribute about 3-4 million, that depended on my family. At that time, I wished I had much money to making decision more easily in my life. So stressful of money pressure.

My younger brother had a stomach ache last night. The pain slowly tormented him all night long. There were much drugs he had to use, but the pain wasn’t stopped. Worry about it.