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sunny. they/them. nb and queer. 28. white. adhd, madd, ocd, autism, depression, anxiety this is my art blog my main is nonbinaryspacegoo and my zombies run sideblog is enbeast

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Source: @/eye.on.palestine, @/filasteeni on Instagram

Hani (@dawoudi) has not eaten anything for 7 days. For 7 days he has consumed 0 kcal/day. He and his wife are not eating just so their children can eat. He told me that he enjoys seeing his kids eating more. He told me he has lost a lot of weight. I am really worried.

I have been messaging with Hani since last October. I sincerely think that he is one the kindest and most selfless person I have ever had the honour of knowing. Despite his own struggles, Hani founded and has been continuously running @/gazavetters. The @/gazavetters vetted list has been growing rapidly the past few months, a testimony to the hard work of Hani and the gazavetters team, yet Hani's own fundraiser often go for days without donations.

Surviving a genocide is difficult and stressful, to say the very least. What you can see online is just the tip of the iceberg. Everything Hani told me in private just made me admire him more. From him telling me about Darine, his children, @/gazavetters and helping other Palestinians in Gaza, it is evident how much love he has in his heart, love for not only his family but also for strangers he does not even know.

I know he is not going to stop worrying about the people around him, especially his children. I just hope he is also taking care of himself, I just hope that he also gets to eat. But to be able to get food, he needs our support. Please help him buy food in the market so he can eat.

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In what world is it normal for a person to have to go for 7 days without food? Please, please, please support them in this incredibly difficult time!

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If you where a film, what film would you be?

Eara, genera..film name. I don’t mind :3

lmaoo probably like

saint trinnians

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What type of cat would you be? Breed…colour…what naughty cat activities do you get up too?

probably a larger mixed breed, think in terms of norwegian forest cat big, naturally pretty fat and round-looking with a round face. probs a mix of brown/black blotch tabby and white? long curly fur. mad bacholer jowels despite not being an unneutered male

extremely mellow cat, the kind that wont smack a toddler that has tucked it under their arm and is dragging it around the house, or even when you pull its tail. happy to be carted around and snuggled all the time. lies around all day napping then needs to SPRINT between 11pm and 4am

likes being as high up as possible, wants to be in your tallest cabinet and is trying to build a nest up there, digs claws into the wood when you try and lift me out.

pretty much never kills small animals but WILL bap them around a bit and chase them until they get tired before lovingly bringing them into the house and tucking them into their bed.

powerful motherly instincts towards abandoned kittens of any species (cats, dogs, rabbits, rats, guinea pigs, plush toys)

terrible chewer, plastic is so very yummy. loves being thrown around and played like drums way harder than youd think you could. tries to groom you when you brush it. actually loves water.

you would most likely encounter me rooting through garbage or sitting somewhere high up, if you show any kindness whatsoever i follow you home and wont leave until im Ejected

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thanks @iseeasong who tagged me :3

Favourite colour: i like all of them but orange, pink, black, and green i guess?

currnetly reading: im listening to two separate warrior cats books, #5 twilight (from the new new prophecy, with my gf) and im also listening to a vision of shadows

coffee or tea: tea, specifically spearmint tea

last song: uuuhhhh i think its Enemy from imagine dragons

last movie: i think that would be the rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles?

currently craving: phat burger grasseater and a bubblegum thickshake from this local burger place

currently working on: a bunch of stuff lol, uuhhh a notebook of information on training service dogs, im setting up a larger mouse cage, and im prepping to set up a scorpion enclosure too

im not big on these but ill tag @gender-freak @flamekinz @return-of-miss-mgm

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the base sketch for my runner 5, using my own body as a reference and without a lot of details, i started doing a cleaner coloured version on my laptop but then ran out of steam lol

my end goal is to have a base that i can then add onto to do a reference for each season, and eventually i might even draw them wearing clothes for a change lol

a few notes on notable physical features:

* their spine has an overly pronounced curve

* they have a small pudge pouch above their ass

* plenty of fat rolls, very muscular underneath

* their left hip sits slightly higher than their right which sometimes causes a limp but usually results in an abnormal gait when walking/running

its still very rough and ill hopefully clean it up tomorrow

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tried to force myself through the zombies make challenge tonight but only got two prompts before i was too tired to keep going

prompt 1 (left) is five just jamming through their post s3 feelings

feeling pretty shitty at the moment but im still trying to keep doing art

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tfw you draw a pretty good hand but you gotta erase it cause you accidentally made the arms too long

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they emerge! i know i barely ever post here, but here is a little art i made recently of my new fursona! while shadow will always have a special place in my heart i wanted to make something that goes with my vibe a little more these days

they are as of yet unnamed but they are a dog/pig hybrid

i still love my old orange/black colour pallet but now its much more black with orange details lol

a lot of these were hastily scribbled up just to help me visualise so please be gentle lol

i wanted to give them a curly tail, and add trotters/hooves to the mix and im pretty happy with what i came up with. they have paw pads at the back of the foot, where the heel would more likely be so they are always sort of standing on their toes, im also enjoying the pig snout i gave them instead of a more normal dog nose as i think it really adds to the design

they had triple top surgery (rip in piss for originally having 6 tiddies) and have pretty torn up ears

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*waves* Hello! You said the asks were still open for this so hmm. If they haven't been asked already, Major De Santa, Professor Van Ark and Owen (Runner 6)? P.S. Sorry if this is a terrible mix up - I'm trying to think outside the box and could be failing considerably there. ^^' But thank you for taking the time to read and consider doing this. ^^'

hello (: sorry it took so long to reply, ive been busy with house inspections.

fake date with van ark, not only because it saves me from necessarily getting with him but also so i can make him suffer.

you best believe that i WILL be chewing up and eating a while clove of garlic five minutes before leaving the house, and that i will violently bump the table when i get up, knocking everything on it directly onto him. the only way he gets a laugh is if he tries to make any serious conversation. HE. WILL. SUFFER.

owen for enemies to lovers because it would be easy to both bully him and take whatever he dishes out.

the major for slow burn. i feel like shes the slow burn type, especially with that thing with her near the end of season 2 i think?

thanks ffor the ask lol

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im trying go make my art more expressive and dynamic which is hard for me

this is one of the sketches i did yesterday that i actually like.

hopefully ill find the motivation to clean it up and lineart it.

hopefully.

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early season 4 runner five. specifically pre-m22.

1. a liittle looser on the long part of the mohawk but still obsessive about the sides and beard.

2. a LOT more scars in hard-to-find places

3. feels like everything keeps pulling them back. they want to confess their feelings for sam but want to not be so unwell first because they feel theyd be an emotional burden due to their mental health issues (relevant in the next one)

4. barely sleeps, avoids people. wants help but feels like they cant ask for it since everyone has so much on their minds already. knows this isnt healthy but cant get past it.

just overall a bad time

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part 3 out of 3 for season 3. spoilers for late season 3!

welp heres 5 post mind control, a total wreck who is exclusively powered by the screaming rage and terror at the thought of moonchild getting what she wants.

1. growing their hair out and cutting their beard are now severe triggers for them. they obsessively trim their hair far shorter than normal but will cut you if you go anywhere near the beard. dyed their green the most eyewatering, unnatural shade of neon green they could find as an act of panicked defiance and to try and regain some autonomy.

2. insomnia took a hard turn for the worse accompanied by nightmares and panic attacks.

3. fell off a seven year self harm wagon.

4. severe mood swings. desperately wants the comfort of their loved ones but feels too guilty to seek it out

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S3M44 AND ONWARDS SPOILERS

2/3 for my s3 sketches of five, sooo this is them under mind control.

1. moonchild just Happened To Mention things she thought would look good on them, primarily that they should grow their hair out and shave their beard as well as stop bleaching and dying it. and being under mind control 5 was only too happy to do what msde her happy.

2. 5s eyes are usually fairly glazed over and tend to go unfocused and wall eyed when not focusing on something specific.

3. their smile is usually peaceful and mindless but on rare occasions becomes a frantic grimace when forced that can even break into hysterical giggling when excited in any way (doing something that they fight against)

4. the most well rested theyve ever been.

5. picked up a lot less scarring during this time

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im splitting season 3 into three phases with this first phase being up until about s3m44.

1. the usual applies; scars fade, new scars are acquired, more facial hair grows in

2. taking the loss, betrayal, and uncertainty hard. having a lot more trouble sleeping. their hair is a little more unkempt this season.

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part two of my sketches (see zombies run seasons challenge tag) for runner 5.

they picked up a Lot of new scars during season 1 and are more confident and competent but a lot more tired and stressed out.

1. since its been about a year since the outbreak and even longer since their accident, five's face is healing quite well and some more patches of facial hair are cropping up on amoungst the scar tissue.

2. keeping their hair a bit shorter now so theres less to grab

3. doesnt wear their facemask in abel nearly as much but still wears it on runs

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first in a series i want to draw where i draw my 5 for each season (i want to draw them for every mission too but ik starting small. will do full body ones later just posting this with some notes.

1. their facial scarring is still relatively fresh although their wound have for the most part healed.

2. most of their lower face cant grow facial hair due to the burns but a few small patches manage to push through.

3. during the helicopter crash they suffered a minor burn to the back right side of their head which healed up fairly quickly but they had a bald spot and a gnarly scab there for a few weeks plus some scarring later on.

4. they wear a face/neck mask (one of those bike ones thats like an elastic sleeve) almost all the time for a long time. the reason for this 50% because it helps them breath (sudden temperature changes make their throat tighten and hurt), 40% fear of germs, and 10% self consciousness. over time they wore it less and less when not on runs

5. was made to shave their head at mullins and so spent a few months growing their mohawk fairly long

6. while they've always had insomnia the bags under their eyes are much lighter in earlier seasons.

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EXPRESSIONS!