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Do u feel like this feeling we share together is strong enough for you to feel fully capable of taking on the role of being the person i see as the one? Because by doing so im handing over so much power to cause me a hurt i cant even imagine. Are u ready to take on that much trust that im giving that you wouldnt dream of causing me to face such heartbreak. Do u feel like we have something your willing to spend ur lifetime making it work. I mean. If we end up both unhappy its different but we cant allow temporary unhappiness to consume this feeling we share right now. The same feeling it was years ago. Our lifes took seperate paths but the vibes are as if untouched or tamperd with since day one. Is that a sign we can stay commited threw whatever stages we grow threw no matter if at deferent times. We cant be completely in sinc with speed of maturity all our life but ill wait for you if u wait for me. Cuz i trust Itll happen for us both and lead us to the final outlook which we have found our common ground and or similar view of how we choose to perceive life as we know it.

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If only i could resite this to him off the top of my head without sounding semi obsessed or too attached. Cuz you would only save my heart by choosing to take a different route than u lead me to believe we shared mutually.

Do u feel like this feeling we share together is strong enough for you to feel fully capable of taking on the role of being the person i see as the one? Because by doing so im handing over so much power to cause me a hurt i cant even imagine. Are u ready to take on that much trust that im giving that you wouldnt dream of causing me to face such heartbreak. Do u feel like we have something your willing to spend ur lifetime making it work. I mean. If we end up both unhappy its different but we cant allow temporary unhappiness to consume this feeling we share right now. The same feeling it was years ago. Our lifes took seperate paths but the vibes are as if untouched or tamperd with since day one. Is that a sign we can stay commited threw whatever stages we grow threw no matter if at deferent times. We cant be completely in sinc with speed of maturity all our life but ill wait for you if u wait for me. Cuz i trust Itll happen for us both and lead us to the final outlook which we have found our common ground and or similar view of how we choose to perceive life as we know it.

Am i strong enough to allow myself to receive the mutual love i deserve? Sounds like a crazy thing to wonder but honestly im struggling more than id like to admit right now. Now that its in arms reach and is happening unexpectingly. The possible heartbreak u have to allow that person of giving you is harder than it sounds. Especially when settling for what just works is all ive ever known. Im handing over power im not so sure im willing to allow take place. Please dont hurt me. Ive been through enough and would rather not give the devil a slightest chance to hurt me that way. Idc if life is full of hurt moments. This could ruin me if its taken away. Ruin me in so many fucked up ways. Ive come to be too strong minded to allow any steps backwards. It took work to feel this independent mental strength i have today. Im tired of feeling like life just sucks for me and i gotta make the best of it tho. Im a good person towards others. Im a leading shoulder everyone needs im the trusting ear people vent to. Is that what got me blessed with you?

I see how these other bitches youve had or have tryna get at you

And im so no mentally strong enough to be played by someone who is capable or making me feel the things u make me feel. Its to strong and ive been hurt by someone who had that much power over me and i fear feeling that way ever again. This vibe we share isnt a vibe that ive experienced often with several people. Its more rare than im even ready to allow take place in my life again. I pray this feeling is mutual and threw whatever battles that await us we stay commited to the feeling we know we are capable of giving the other. We are getting older and so many people younger than us are commited and even married to the person they chose to spend the rest of there lives with. At some point its our turn to get that devotion everyone with a good heart deserves to have. I need reasurance im not like the others who throw themselves at you. I know youve proven it by your suprising actions but nothing beats feeling like this person is down for you thru anything life throws ur way. We cant always choose the hand someone is dealt but itd be nice to know that if you mature before me about whatever it may be that youll be patient and wait for me to get it. I cant promise to grow at even speed but i know i want this and i feel ur ready but god i need to hear it in black and white. These vibes are strong but vibes are only personal perspective. Im sure u gave these other bitches a reason to feel the need to chase you and i need to know im not classed with them. We share this strong attraction in a mutual way that you refuse to let out of your life the way i want to allow myself to feel. I feel like a straight fool for falling for you. Im desiring to let this fall take place and from a different perspective it all really textbook but its textbook that means more than coming from you than anyone ive ever met before. Is this as real as im wanting to allow myself to believe so bad. I want you forever apart of my life in anyway possible. You make me feel capable of anything and ive gone my whole life feeling like i just had to accept my misfortunes and not expect much more but the ability to get by with current struggles. You take away all feelings of overly sympathetic veiws of myself. Fuck all that. Im capable of being great and achieving anything that means something to me. U make that feeling possible. I don't know how you do it. But u inspire me and give me confidence and a sense of strong self respect that i didnt know i was capable of feeling especially all together at the same time. Thats to good to be mutually true. Theres no love that extreme. People settle with with who they are capable of living with and accepting of morally. But with you this is far from just settling. This is a cheesy love story that is too strong to even ever be talked about in romance movies. Most is lust and the willing to accept the other because they have good intentions and its better to be safe and call it good than expect this kind of love and end.up forever alone. This can't be real. Help me believe im safe and that this is that forever kind of partnership. I want to let myself fall so hard im just in fear of fucking it up and coming off any way that is frowned upon. I wanna be ur everything. Ill change what needs changed if when ir time to step up actually happens in return. Lets be the others cure to this fucked up world people are forced to survive in despite how unhappy they feel at present moment. Life is always full of moments that make the bad worth going thru to be able to experience that pure content happiness. Could it be that my shitty hand thats always bringing me down is ready to work in my favor for a change. Im blessed with great friends currently and love ontop of it so i have no reason to feel any bad way im use to feeling. The negative things thats always brought my way have started to feel familiar and normal. So this is unbelievable for life to give me my blessing ive always felt i deserved cus of the honest open heart im giving to those who dont even deserve it. All my fucked up luck led me to you and im ready to grow up and get some independence adults eventually have at some point. That point where they? Can only rely on themselves and for once thats not such scarey realization but a safe one that u need in a persons lifetime. Im ready to count on myself. And i want you by myside threw it til the very end.

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What's the Meth World coming to?

Here in California I saw someone turn down .5 for $20 because he said for $25 he can get a teener. Pretty soon dealers will be paying customers to smoke around here.

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You get what you pay for… I bet a $25 teener is 50% cut.