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why

why must the world decide for me 

why must the world decide for us

we’re already here without knowing why we live

why can't we just choose our own destiny

why can’t we at least know if it is really up to us or if this world gets the say in all of our lives.

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Post #1 post heart break

Tonight is one of the very many nights him and I have slept apart and I know it will not be the last. 

I don’t know what it is we just have issues together, we can’t get along. He sees white and black, I see the full array of colors the rainbow has. 

There is not telling what tomorrow will unfold for us.

For me tonight will be another cold lonely night.

If I had documented every single disagreement and break up since the beginning of this relationship, marriage, what you may, et cetera, I might have owned my own home with %100 equity by now and a million farms.

I am now 20 years old and life has me by every angle it can grab me from more than it ever has

There is no telling stories, you couldn’t make up any of it if you tried.