13xReader - Finding Truth In The Rain
A/N: This wasn’t a request, but something I wanted to write for a while. I hope you like it.
Warnings: None. It’s just fluff
Summary: The Tardis had left you and the Doctor standing alone in the rain, in the shelter that you found one truth reveals itself.
You and the Doctor were just about to follow the rest of the team back into the Tardis when suddenly an invisible force shield made the blue box inaccessible for you. Confused you turned to your left to see the Doctor banging against the imperceptible wall.
“Oh, no, no, no. Don't do this to me. Can't you see that we’re soaked to the bone?”
“Doctor? What is this? Why can't we go in?”, your voice carried a hint of worry, but also annoyance as you really wanted to get out of those wet clothes and into your warm bed.
“I don't know. It's some sort of shield, but I have no idea what could have caused it. I have thoroughly checked this planet and we are the only intelligent life form currently inhabiting it. It must be – Y/N!”. While you were listening to the Doctor's thoughts you had leaned against the shield, the shield that had now vanished along with the Tardis. You lost your balance, but thanks to the Doctor's quick reflexes, your hitting the ground was once again avoided. Looking into the Doctor's eyes as she steadied you, you thanked her. You were almost sad when she let go of you. “Well I guess that answers the question. The Tardis must have put that shield up herself. The only question that remains is why she wanted to lock us out and leave us here? Well, nothing we can do now but wait and find shelter from that rain.”.
The rain had actually stopped coming down as hard, but there was still a slight drizzling coming down and judging by the colour of the sky a second round of cats and dogs wasn't completely out of the question either. You just nodded and decided to follow the timelord in her quest to escape the wetness. Even soaking wet the Doctor was the prettiest woman you had ever laid your eyes upon, you had noticed her eyes and her jawline the very first moment that you saw her. Since then she had only become more attractive to you and you found yourself slowly falling in love with her. Of course, nothing would ever come off this. She was the most generous, lovable, beautiful and honourable woman in the whole universe and you were just – well, you were you. Knowing this didn't keep you from looking at her though daydreaming about how it would be to see some of the telltale signs reflected in the Doctor's gaze. You sigh, catching the Doctor's attention again who immediately tried to console you and reassure you that the Tardis would come back soon enough to come and pick you both up.
“Can you imagine the team being in there alone and having no clue what's going on?”, you asked the Doctor laughing. Her face scrunched up in amusement and you really had to hold yourself back not to reach out and touch her. “Oh, I am sure they'll be fine.”, she chuckled, thought about it once more and then added, “Although I am not so sure about Ryan, he is a bit wary of the Tardis since the toaster incident last week.” These words made you laugh even harder, actually causing you to snort which in turn made your cheeks redden in embarrassment. The unfortunate happening had been a tiny misunderstanding between Ryan and the Tardis and since it happened Ryan refused to go anywhere near the console. You and the Doctor had found a little cave to settle in for the time being and it had turned out to be a rather good idea because the rain had indeed started up again. Still a bit breathless from your laughing fit you remarked on the time. “It must be getting pretty late.”. But the late hour wasn't the only inconvenience as it was also getting colder and colder. It wasn't long before even your thick jacket couldn't keep you warm anymore and you started shivering. The Doctor didn't seem as fazed by the cold, but that did not surprise you. No one who gets cold easily wears the same clothes in summer and winter, with the small addition of a loose scarf. The Doctor noticed your discomfort though and started to scoot closer towards you. “You are freezing. We need to share body heat to warm you up a bit.”, she said and proceeded to take her coat off to lay it on the ground. She gestured for you to remove your jacket as well and then pulled you down onto hers. You were lying very close, her left pressing to your right with your coat dealing as a blanket for both of you.
It wasn't uncomfortable per se, but it was weird, to say the least. You had never been this close to the Doctor for a prolonged amount of time, you had hugged before of course, but never longer than a few seconds, not that you would have minded them being longer, but you also did not want to seem like a creep who preys on her friends. Now you have already been lying next to each other for about 10 minutes and no one knew how much longer you were forced to stay here before the others found their way back here, or rather before the Tardis lead them to you. You were quite content to just stay quiet, silence never really bothered you, but you also knew the Doctor and her intense need to talk. If you thought about it it was already quite out of character for her to have been completely silent these past 10 minutes, so with a confused look you turned to look at her., “Cat got your tongue? You aren't usually this quiet.” She quickly turned her head towards you on reflex before staring straight up at the ceiling again, but not quickly enough for you not to notice her blushing. You grin, you didn't know there was anything that could get someone as confident as the Doctor to blush. “Come on, you can tell me. I swear I won't judge you.” The grin in your voice was as tangible to the Doctor as your finger which was insistently poking the timelord's torso. Instead of answering she blushed further. Suddenly it hit you, the Doctor was thinking about someone she liked. The most common reason people blush is when they are asked about something related to the person they have a crush on, right? Now it was your turn to blush, you tried to say something, to apologise for invading her privacy like that, but instead, you just opened and closed your mouth a few times looking like one of those fish your GP kept in his waiting room. You laid back down on your back. Where the contact of your bodies did not faze you before it now felt as if someone constantly sent tiny electric shocks through the whole right half of your body.
You started shivering again, catching the Doctor's attention once more. Worried looks were sent in your direction, but your mind was pre-occupied with one thought only the Doctor is in love. You tried to focus on the plitter-platter of the rain, a sound that never failed to calm you, at least not until now. A numbing sadness had suddenly taken over your mind and body. You had never really thought you had any chance with the Doctor, you really hadn't, that's why you never told her. Having proof of her affections lying elsewhere, however, was still crushing you. The Doctor interpreted your shivering differently though and moved again, this time to lie half on top of you with her arms around you to chase the coldness away. But this closeness hurt you more and the shivering intensified, plus you couldn't look at her right now, it would only pain you further and she would know instantly that you were in love with her. You couldn't jeopardise your friendship. If that was all you were ever gonna have with the Doctor you would do anything to protect it. You were so focused on your thoughts that you didn't pay any attention to what your body was doing. Currently, your face was very openly declaring your discomfort and when the Doctor saw this she gasped and immediately rolled off of you to sit up, causing your jacket to slip off as well. Shit, you thought, she knows and now she is disgusted by you. Now the tears you were so desperately trying to hold back burst free and even if you wanted to talk, to explain to her that you weren't in love with her and that you are sorry you made her uncomfortable, you wouldn't have been able to because all that was currently able to leave your mouth were sobs. The Doctor was evidently troubled, she didn't know what to do or how to comfort you. In the end, she just opted for a straight-up apology. “I am so sorry my feelings made you uncomfortable, I thought I could hide them better and I totally understand if you want to leave me now. As soon as the Tardis is back I can get you home and I won't bother you ever again, I promise.” She was looking at you with tears of her own in her eyes, but she was trying her hardest to be strong, she didn't want you to feel guilty for not returning her affections. Her words hit you like a wall of bricks and you yanked your head around to face her, not minding the cracking of your neck as you did. Stuttering you asked her “What did you say?”. You were sure you must have heard it wrong, in your frenzy, it had sounded like she had apologised to you for having feelings for you. The Doctor gulped once and repeated “I said I am sorry I made you uncomfortable. I totally understand that you don't like me like that and if you want to leave I will drop you off back home and not bother you again.”. Your eyes were as wide as saucers, so you had heard correctly. Your heart began to hammer wildly and you sat up to be face to face to the Doctor. “Do you really mean that?”, you had to ask again. Your head still couldn't wrap itself around the idea of the Doctor returning your feelings. Her face fell, as she lost all hope that you would still be travelling with her if given enough time. Swallowing hard she nodded once and lowered her head, not being able to look you in the eyes as she slowly lost the battle against her own tears. Your face, however, showed the definition of contradiction. Your eyes were puffy, cheeks swollen and decorated with wet trails of your tears, but your mouth was spreading into the biggest grin you had ever worn. The Doctor was in love with you! You couldn't believe your luck. With new found energy you raised your hand to the Doctor's chin and gently lifted it up. She was a little startled by your touch and when she looked into your eyes, confusion shone in hers. It hurt to see her so broken, but the happiness over the news overweighted and without thinking about it you lunged your head forwards and pressed your lips to hers. The Doctor gasped in surprise and you wasted no time, deepening the kiss and sighing contently. You don't know how long the kiss lasted, all you know is that her mouth tasted of custard creams, early grey and something heavenly that must have been the Doctor's own specific taste. You loved every second of it, only registering the sighs and moans both of you let loose and ignoring everything else around you.
When you reluctantly broke the kiss to fill your lungs with desperately needed air, both of you just took a second to look at the other. Outside of your little cave, it was still raining and slowly the cold was returning to your bones, without looking down you grabbed for your jacket and covered the Doctor and yourself as best as you could. You were still looking at each other, smiling softly and sharing small touches, when you finally broke the silence. “God, I love you so much!”. Again the Doctor blushed, but this time she didn't look away, instead, she leaned in close and whispered, “I love you too, Y/N.” As your lips met again you heard the unmistakable whooshing sound of the Tardis.