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Diegoโs attitude toward Luther
I feel people tend to think Diego is agressive against Lutherย in present times because of jealousy, but tbh ? I donโt think so. Diego was probably jealous of Luther when they were kids, but not anymore. As surprising as it might seem, Diego matured (we like to call him manchild but letโs not forget people are multifaceted. Heโs actually pretty mature on some points): he doesnโt care anymore to be number one in the classification Reginald forced them in. He knows itโs meaningless.
No, what he canโt handle is that Luther keeps defending Reginald and denying his own abuse (and by extension, his siblingsโ abuse). I saw some posts where Diego was denying Lutherโs abuse, saying he was their fatherโs favorite and basically beingย โget over itโ to Luther, and I highly doubt he would do that in canon. He says it himself in episode one:
Now, Luther defending Reginald is part of his abuse. Yes he was theย โfavoriteโ, but itโs not actually a place to envy, and Diego ended up realizing it. He actually took a step back when growing up, and realized that Luther had been abused just as much as them. It would make no sense for Diego to be still jealous of Luther.
Reginald used a known tactic of abusers with Luther, where he would show his good side regularly, in alternance with the abuse. This leads the victim to question their own perception of reality (gaslighting), to question if they really were abused in the first place, eventually deny it, and defend their abuser. This also leads the victim to always seek the abuserโs approval, to do their best in order to be able to see their good side again, toย โreturnโ to those good times. This is exactly Lutherโs condition: he will end up justifying abuse because heโs been conditioned to only see the good sides of it and deny the fact that Reginald caused him pain in the first place. Just like Diego, once again, underline it later in episode 4 :
Luther defends Reginaldโs actions asย โsaving his lifeโ, but Diego underlines that if Reginald hadnโt sent him on a particularly dangerous mission all alone, his life wouldnโt have needed to be saved.
Now, Iโm not saying Diego is doing it properly. Heโs hypersensitive and empathetic, but he doesnโt know how to deal with all these emotions, letting them take over, and ending up using anger and agression as a way to protect himself. And seeing people denying their own abuse is something that especially press his buttons and makes him incredibly frustrated, going as far as being agressive to Grace :
Doesnโt that look a lot like what he says to Luther ?
I guess my point is, I donโt think itโs right to see Diegoโs character through the prism of jealousy especially when it comes to Luther, or have him act against Luther and deny his trauma. He probably used to be jealous (and that does play a role in making him more agressive from the start because of association), when they were kids. But he grew up to realize the abuse Luther went through, and what makes him so angry against Luther is how he reproduce Reginaldโs ways to act (part of his abuse, Reginald manipulated him so Luther would be a tool to assert his dominance on the others) and how he denies his own trauma.
I know the scenes where Diego is likeย โIโm the chiefโ when Luther gives up could make it looks like jealousy, but tbh it doesnโt sound like this to me. He took this responsibility because he was number 2 and Luther wasnโt in the picture at the time. But heโs the lone wolf kind, and is used to do things in his own way, without a team. So once he has an idea in mind, he wants to do it, and will make sure the others follow his plan by asserting thatย โheโs the number oneโ for now. Especially in the Police station scene, he clearly didnโt think to use the capacities of the members of his team: he had a plan set in mind, that only included him. And he didnโt like to change from what he had in mind (that plus the fact that the police station is strongly linked to Eudora in his mind, making him feel even more like he had to do it). But he doesnโt really pick on Allison and Five mocking his leadership, and as soon as it was clear they needed the entirety of the Umbrella Academy to stand a change, he was the one to pull back Luther into action, and then later pushing him to act as the leader.ย
He wouldnโt have done that if the core of his relationship with Luther was still jealousy. In my opinion, itโs much more complex: a mix of frustration and individualism, and his own emotional management issues. But not jealousy, not anymore.
followsfearโ
he knows he wonโt get any kind of comfort or compassion from luther.ย thatโs just who he is.ย out of all of them,ย luther is the most like their father,ย the FAVORITE and the LEADER of the bunch.ย he knows how his father reacts to all of this,ย so klaus can guess how luther will react accordingly.ย while he loves luther because theyโre brothers,ย he would rather see any of the others over him right now.ย heโs thinks diego would get in a few jabs and then probably drop it,ย he doesnโt think allison would bring it up at all,ย ben would try to give him some comfort,ย and vanya probably would too.ย but luther is going to be hard on him.ย heโs not ready for that.ย he doesnโt NEED that.ย everything about his demeanor already reads DEFEAT as he makes eye contact with luther,ย features still pleading for him to be EASY on him.ย but the confidence,ย the STRENGTH in luther doesnโt give him much hope.ย a heavy sigh drops out of him and he stares down at the ground and waits for him to speak.ย the moment he does,ย klaus shakes his head quickly and flicks his eyes back up at him.ย โย i fucked up!ย okay,ย are you happy?ย i said it.ย i know it.ย i fucked up!ย i donโt need you to remind me of that.ย i mean,ย what are you getting out of this?ย โย itโs just going to hurt klaus.ย he knows what happened.ย he failed all of them and heโs carrying guilt over that.ย itโs leaving him wondering why heโs doing this at ALL.ย and as luther goes on,ย those thoughts only get worse.ย heโs not like them.ย his powers arenโt USEFUL.ย he isnโt cut out for saving the world.ย โย well,ย what if i donโt want to?ย โย he exclaims,ย throwing his hands up in front of him before dropping them back down and shoulders falling again.ย โย what if iโm tired of everything we have to do?ย i donโt wanna go on these dumb mission and i donโt wanna take care of the world!ย ย you guys can do that.ย youโre better at it.ย โย he hates being there,ย but he still tries his hardest when he is.ย and today proved that thatโs not enough.ย โย if i messed up so bad that people donโt trust us anymore,ย then donโt bring me along next time.ย โ
he hasnโt been taught to care or to treat his siblings with compassion.ย all he has been taught to do is LEAD them.ย reginald refers to them as his brothers and his sisters,ย but he also insists he treat them like a team.ย and thatโs what his mind is always focused on:ย this is my team,ย not my family.ย ย if he were focused on the latter,ย then maybe he could let it go slightly.ย maybe he could find a way to level with klaus and understand thatย he needs some sort of softness in a time like this.ย but lutherโs mind is clouded;ย heโs too focused on the fact that klaus screwed up today,ย and itโs a direct reflection on himself.ย ย he scoffs at the declaration,ย his head shaking slowly.ย ย โย doesnโt FIX anything,ย does it?ย โย he asks,ย eyes narrowed in on him.ย thatโs what he wantsย ------ย klaus to put in real effort to be better.ย ย if this were allison,ย things would be different.ย she has taught him to calm down,ย to look at things from all sides of it.ย but heโs not as close to klaus as he is to his only friend,ย so he doesnโt know how to get back there.ย ย โย iโm trying to help you,ย klaus.ย โย ย heโs just not doing it in the right way.ย itโs all BACKWARDS from him.ย โย you,ย this team,ย this world.ย ย if you donโt see what youโve done wrong,ย it could only get worseย ----ย for EVERYONE.ย ย and do you want to be responsible for someoneโs death?ย โย he treats everyone like they donโt know whatโs happening,ย but the reality is,ย luther is the naive one.ย he doesnโt realize how badly his words can hurt,ย doesnโt understand klaus in a way to know what he needs to hear in order to get better,ย that lutherโs way isnโt whatโs going to help klaus in the end.ย ย brows immediately shoot up as klaus insists he might not want to.ย taking a step forward,ย puffing his chest out,ย he looks down at him.ย ย โย what are you saying?ย โย ย itโs obvious,ย yet luther canโt comprehend.ย how could they not want this?ย arenโt they supposed to be extravagant?ย ย โย why wouldnโt you want this?ย this is what we were born for. โย their only purpose,ย in lutherโs eyes.ย and without that purpose,ย without his siblings agreeing on that,ย then what does he have?ย ย โย you canโt be tired.ย thereโs no one else in the world like you.ย donโt you get that?ย โย that has to mean something.ย it has to,ย for himself.ย ย โย thatโs not an option.ย you know that.ย youโre part of this team.ย what would you do without it?ย โย what would luther do?ย ย
I think it was all those years alone.ย Solitude can do funny things to the mind.
followsfearโ
a sigh leaves allison and her eyes glance around them before focusing on the floor.ย she canโt blame him for viewing things differently.ย before ben died,ย she might have thought there was true happiness in their childhood too.ย not because of their fatherย ย โโย she always had her problems with him and his neglect.ย but rather,ย thinking everything they could do was COOL,ย having fun with her siblings,ย and having fun on missions.ย missions stopped being fun once they lost ben.ย and now,ย she doesnโt view what she can do as cool.ย it hurts people.ย it has hurt the people she loves most in the world by taking away their options.ย but she has gained all of those new views from life experiencesย โโย from getting out in the world,ย ย interacting with people,ย getting married,ย having a daughter,ย getting divorcedโฆย it all helped show her how TWISTED their childhood really was.ย but luther hasnโt had that.ย all he has is THIS.ย โย we could have been,ย โย she argues,ย keeping her voice gentle.ย she doesnโt want to fight with luther.ย it doesnโt matter how long they go without speaking,ย he is always going to be her best friend.ย โย we could have been raised by our mothers and learned how to use our powers.ย we could have been normal.ย dad just had more planned for us.ย โย and she doesnโt agree with it now the way that she did when they were little kids.ย she offers the faintest grin to luther at what he points out,ย head nodding just a touch.ย she could tell.ย he was closer to her than to the others,ย and she was closer to him too.ย but she has SOME connection to the others that he didnโt seem to.ย โย i know.ย and you were the only person that i feel like actually KNEW me,ย โย she reminds,ย wanting him to know that she values the time they spent together back then.ย โย i havenโt forgotten that.ย โย her faint smile grows the slightest bit when he claims he was happy,ย brows creasing together.ย โย iโm GLAD,ย luther.ย โย her words are sincere,ย eyes finding his and locking with them.ย she wants her brother to be happy.ย if he somehow found that in their childhood,ย that isnโt necessarily a bad thing.ย though,ย she wonders.ย so much has changed.ย where does that leave him?ย โย โโย are you still happy?ย โ
for luther, ย it was never really about the fun in it all, ย nor was it about a genuine happiness that his siblings seemed to seek. ย it was about a responsibility ย โโ ย HIS DUTY to lead this group into victory every single mission. ย and when they failed, ย he failed. ย he got angry. ย he felt discouraged. ย and he lashed out, ย because he thought he had to ย โโ ย because he thought he needed to follow their fatherโs lead. ย to him, ย there was never another option than this. ย thatโs why he never left, ย why he prided himself on what he could do for the world, based on what his father insisted he do. ย without those responsibilities, ย and without that purpose, ย he was always lost ย ( ย his father saw that, ย too. ย ) ย he hasnโt seen the world for what it really is. ย he doesnโt know the world for what it really is. ย he doesnโt understand it at all, ย so stuck in his own way of thinking, ย only now realizing that he has to be more than what he has been, ย because the man that had become his master is no longer here. ย โ we did learn how to use our powers, ย โ ย he argues. ย he canโt imagine a way that could have been better, ย because this is all he knows. ย โ ย did you ever think that maybe it was bigger than dad? ย that maybe it was always our destiny ย โโ- ย and he just gave us the resources to do it. ย โ ย he thinks about that often, ย that he wouldnโt have been born with these powers if he wasnโt meant to save the world. ย how else could they explain the BEAUTY of what they were? ย ย he looks up at her, ย soft smile on his lips as he nods. ย she really was the only person he ever allowed himself to get close to. ย she was his friend, ย the only friend heโs ever known ย โโ ย not having that near him these past few years, ย it was bound to make him feel even more isolated than he always had been, ย because he had no outlet. ย โ ย i hoped you didnโt, ย โ ย he speaks quietly. ย โ ย always thought you might, ย โ ย he admits, ย because she moved on. ย he didnโt. how could they connect after that? ย the question makes his brows furrow, ย and he grunts, ย trying to think it over. ย he used to say yes like there was no other option, ย but now, ย heโs starting to realize that happiness was never a thing that mattered to him. ย and right now, ย heโs more lost than ever. ย โ ย i donโt know what i am, ย โ ย he answers honestly. ย but he pauses, ย looking back up to her. ย โ ย are you? ย โ
followsfearโ
he was hoping he would be able to sneak in and out of here undetected.ย truly,ย ย itโs only his father he wishes to avoid;ย luther,ย mom,ย and pogo are people he wouldnโt MIND seeing again.ย but he doesnโt trust that they wonโt inform reginald of his presence here once more and itโs the last thing he wants to deal with.ย he doesnโt need to hear his father is disappointed in him,ย doesnโt want to deal with the judgement,ย any comments,ย anything that will reignite the trauma he experienced here.ย so when heโs met with luther,ย he feels DISAPPOINTED.ย and then,ย he feels guilty for feeling disappointed.ย this is his brother.ย despite everything,ย he loves him and should be happy to see him.ย he just isnโt happy for what it might mean.ย โย ย oh!ย ย โย he exclaims when they lock eyes.ย โย luther!ย hey!ย ย โย ย HOME.ย thatโs one word for this place.ย โย yeah,ย well,ย ย no.ย ย maybe.ย just for the night,ย โย he notes with a shake of his head.ย โย you know,ย i wasโฆย i was wandering the streets and came across this place and figuredย โโย โย klaus throws his hands up in the air and lets out a little laugh.ย โย ย might as well sleep in my room one more time! for old timeโs sake.ย โย truthfully,ย he ran out of places to sleep and really wanted a warm bed for the night.ย this was his only option.ย he takes a moment to look luther over,ย furrowing his brows before glancing back up to his face.ย โย youโreโฆย still here.ย โย his voice is confused,ย askingย โ WHY? โย he figuredย โโย ย HOPEDย ย โโย they would all run for the hills when they could.
a small breath falls from his lips as klaus says itโs just for the night, ย luther nodding in response. ย he wonders if his father knows, ย and if he doesnโt, if he should tell him. ย not because he wants klaus to get in any kind of trouble, ย but because he always feels like he owes the full truth to his father. ย โ ย you can stay for longer than that, ย โ ย he insists. ย โ itโs still your home. โ ย he genuinely believes that this is a home. ย heโs too naive, ย too isolated, ย too sheltered to believe anything else, ย to ever understand why it was that his siblings all left so abruptly. ย luther still felt like he owed something to his father. ย he stares back at him blankly once he notes that heโs still here, ย as if to say ย โ ย why wouldnโt i be? โ ย โ ย yeah, ย โ ย he mumbles, ย shaking his head slowly. ย โ ย where else would i be? ย โ ย ย this is where he belongs, ย he believes. ย โ ย iโm needed here. ย โ ย he has to believe that. ย he has to believe in his own purpose, ย something his father is still giving him. ย WE ALL ARE, he wants to add, ย but while heโs naive, ย he still knows better than that. ย โ โโ ย do you miss it? ย โ
followsfearโ:
his arms are crossed in front of his body,ย hands clutching at his opposite biceps and holding himself securely as if to give himself a HUG that he desperately needs.ย klaus already struggles on these missions,ย never feeling like his powers are quite as useful as the others,ย but today,ย it went beyond that.ย not only was he not useful,ย he MESSED UP.ย he got in the way and some of the people they were supposed to take down made it out.ย he knows heโs to blame for it.ย he knows he let his father down,ย but what he cares about more is that he let the rest of the umbrella academy down.ย he disappointed his brothers and sisters and that KILLS him.ย ever since they left,ย heโs had a lump in his throat and an overwhelming desire to get up to his bedroom and be away from their disappointed,ย judging stares for the rest of the night.ย but as he hears the footsteps approaching his room and feels a presence behind him,ย he knows thatโs not what heโs going to get. a sigh drops from him,ย shoulders slouching, body filling with DEFEAT as he turns to face his brother.ย โย come on,ย luther,ย i donโt wanna hear it,ย โย he pleads,ย already anticipating being torn apart over this.ย he doesnโt NEED to hear it.ย he already has enough hurt,ย ย embarrassment,ย and GUILT over this.ย but he only expects MORE to be added on top of that.
this is his responsibility. ย itโs HIS responsibility to make sure his team falls in line and does what is necessary of them. ย thatโs his problem, ย thatโs what he forgets: ย they are not just his team. ย they are is SIBLINGS, ย his family ย โโ ย and when theyโre done with missions, ย when theyโre back at home, ย he needs to keep that in mind. ย instead, ย his persona is still that of their number one, ย their leader who is responsible for their downfall. ย and because he is their number one, ย he has to make sure this doesnโt happen again ย โโ- ย that klaus understands that what he did ย ( or didnโt do ) ย is the problem here. ย his mind is so focused on their goals, ย on what reginald is trying to make of them. ย the idea of disappointing him is upsetting, ย but wanting to impress him isnโt out of fear. ย itโs out of a respect he has for their father, ย like heโs supposed to be here, doing this. ย straight-faced stare is shot back at him as his arms cross over his chest โโ- ย a way to puff out his biceps, ย to look STRONG and in charge. ย โ ย you know i canโt do that, ย klaus. ย โ ย his responsibility, ย his responsibility, ย his responsibility. ย though, heโs wavering on a fine line between taking responsibility for his team and wanting to show off. ย โ ย do you know what happened today? ย โ ย he finally shoots at him. ย clearly, ย the answer is yes, ย but he needs to say it out loud. ย โ ย we have a good record. ย weโre supposed to WIN. ย people are counting on us to take care of this world. ย โ ย and he believes in that. ย he believes that it has to be THEM to do this. ย it gives him a purpose; ย without that, ย he doesnโt know who he is. โ ย we start screwing up, ย and how long โtil they donโt trust us anymore? ย how long until weโre not the people theyโre supposed to count on? ย โ
it was the only way i could get back here.
followsfearโ
โwe were happy once, werenโt we?โย - @moonexile
โย iย โโย โย voice cuts off and her brows furrow together,ย staring down in front of her.ย โย i donโt know.ย ย were we?ย โย itโs complicated.ย she has good times in her past.ย she is now realizing that a lot of it was FAKEย ย โโย ย forced by her words to be everything she wished it was.ย thatโs not real happiness.ย because of that,ย she doesnโt know if she had any real happiness in her life that wasnโt just curated by her powers.ย on top of that,ย itโs not easy to look back on their childhood fondly.ย there were momentsย โโย a lot with lutherย ย โโย that she can remember that way.ย but the moments where she tried so desperately to get her fatherโs attention,ย where she took away other peopleโs free will,ย big things that took up a large part of her childhoodโฆย those moments,ย she canโt remember happily.ย โย i mean,ย think about it.ย we werenโt allowed to have FRIENDS outside of each other,ย we didnโt go to school,ย we spent every waking minute TRAINING,ย we werenโt allowed to PLAY like normal kids.ย i think about that andโฆย no.ย we werenโt happy.ย none of us.ย how could we be?ย โย she speaks quietly,ย gaze staying away from luther before it slowly drifts back to him and she lets her lips curve just barely into a grin.ย โย but then i think about the parts that make me smile andโฆย ย YOUย ย โโย you were the happiest part of my childhood.ย โย allison has always been closer to luther than she was to the rest of her siblings.ย he was always the one she felt she could confide in,ย really TURN to when she needed a friend.ย โย so maybe we were,ย โย she shrugs,ย shaking her and raising her brows.ย โย or maybe we were just as happy as we COULD have been back then.ย โย and maybe it wasnโt really that happy.
he was happy once. ย or so he had convinced himself of it, ย for so long ย โโ ย because he never knew what else to believe. ย he was so stuck in the life that was built for him here that he didnโt see anything else. ย he didnโt know what he was missing on the outside, ย didnโt know that there was a whole life to live that he could never reach if he never left the academy. ย he was convinced he was destined to be here, ย for some greater cause. ย it got lonely, ย once his siblings left ย โโ ย despite his lack of real connection with any of them, ย aside from allison. ย she was his best friend, ย the one person he felt he could actually talk to about his interests without feeling like he was invalidating himself, ย like his other siblings could only see the luther that was their number one, ย their leader. ย not some guy who wanted something more out of life. ย his brows furrow as she questions it, ย shoulders falling slightly in defeat. ย itโs hard to hear that his siblings didnโt have the same experience here. ย but thatโs the problem; ย he was just as stuck and destroyed as them, he just doesnโt see it. ย โ ย we werenโt normal kids, ย โ ย he points out, ย and thatโs how he justifies it to himself. ย โ ย we were never going to be normal kids. ย โ ย ย he blinks slowly as she admits he was the happiest part, ย something that makes him feel better. ย allison is the only REAL friend heโs ever had, ย and losing her had only made his mental state worse, ย isolated in the academy only to fixate more on the missions he needed to keep him going. ย โ ย didnโt realize it until everyone left, ย but ย โโ ย you were the only one i ever really talked to. ย actually talked to, โ ย he points out. ย she was the only one who knew him for who he was BEYOND their leader, ย and he needed that security with someone.ย he lets out a sigh,ย shoulders shrugging lightly.ย ย โย i was happy,ย โย ย he finally declares.ย he didnโt know toย be anything but.ย
I have some thoughts about Luther that Iโd like to share today if thatโs okay with the group
SO we all know that out of all of them Luther is still the most oblivious to the fact that they were all abused as kids, and he also seems to have the least like.. empathy I guess for the others like Diego is absolutely rightfully angry at Reggie and he doesnโt get it, and he thinks Klaus is somehow living a carefree life compared to him etc. etc. We also know that Reggie spent more time with him and took him to hisย โfavourite spotโ and stuff like that, so basically I think that he was isolated from the others way before they all actually left home without him. Like obviously the favouritism and the emphasis on him being Number 1 was a manipulation tactic to get him to push himself but it was also a way to keep him separated from the others because like he obviously loves his siblings a lot, but I kinda get the impression he didnโt get to be their brother that much when they were little. Because I think Reggie knew that if he let the others talk to him too much, heโd start realising how horribly they were all being treated.ย
Like idk how much each of the siblings really knows about everyone elseโs training and how much they kept to themselves because the only real time anyone acknowledges someone elseโs trauma is when Ben is with Klaus while heโs being tortured and like.. we donโt know how much he knew from when they were kids and how much he found out just through being with him after he died, but either way what they do know has probably come from talking to each other about it. Luther on the other hand probably got a lot of his information through his dad, which was all sugarcoated and twisted to make it sound like everything he was doing was in the best interests of the kids, and wasnโt as scary as they were making out. Itโs why Diego Allison and Klaus instantlyย know that locking Vanya up is a terrible idea because they know how awful all of dadโs other plans were, but Luther canโt see it because from his perspective dad was only ever trying to help them. Itโs why he lashes out at Klaus and Diego because from his perspective theyโre just blowing everything out of proportion, because thatโs what dad told him too. Like I honestly believe he has no clue about half the stuff that happened to the others he could be likeย โYeah I guess he sucked but at least he never hit usโ and they all just stare at him likeย โโฆ.. Dad never hit you?โย โDad HIT YOU GUYS????โ. Like.. heโs not intentionally ignoring their trauma he just doesnโt?? know??
Anyway thereโs a lot of words here and I feel like I havenโt made my point but what Iโm trying to say is we all talk about Vanya and Klaus being excluded a lot but I think he was too, just in a less obvious way. Thatโs all.
hot daaamn
he hears someone in the hall,ย and heโs quick to his feet,ย walking slowly to the door to figure out who it is.ย his parents and pogo hardly ever roam the halls of this floorย ----ย not anymore,ย now that itโs only him there.ย with his hand on the door,ย he pushes it softly,ย only to spot one of the last people he ever expected to see.ย ย โย what the hellย ย ------ย ?ย โย ย heโs startled,ย shock painted all over his features as he locks eyes with his brother.ย itโs strange for him,ย seeing another person in this house,ย seeing another person at all when heโs not on a mission.ย he seems to handle that betterย ----ย he has all the confidence in the world when heโs on a mission,ย doing something of importance,ย but trying to communicate with anyone else at any other time always feels like a struggle,ย a product of the isolation heโs dealt with for over twenty years now.ย ย โย klaus?ย โย ย it should be comforting,ย seeing one of his siblings after all this time.ย refreshing too,ย at the thought that maybe,ย heโs here to stayย ----ย making luther feel less lonely.ย but he doesnโt think thatโs why heโs here.ย ย โย youโre home?ย โย ย home for luther.ย but was it ever home for klaus?
ย ๐ โข @followsfear
โ๏ธ ย the umbrella academy:
diego recognizing (and trying to get luther to recognize) lutherโs abuse
luther
quick notes about this blog:
this is a private sideblog, currently only open to writing with followsfear, meaning iโm not accepting new partners.
l.uther is problematic, that wonโt be ignored. heโs also interesting as hell,ย so that will be explored.
most importantly:ย l.uther / a.llison donโt exist here romantically.ย nothing in their past or their present alludes to romance between them.ย however,ย their close relationship is important to his development ----ย because of their isolation growing up,ย the two leaned on one another for support,ย but it was entirely platonic.ย she was his best friend / the only person he really felt close to.ย ย
You wanna know why I left? Because thatโs what you do when youโre 17. You move out, become your own person, grow up. You stayed because you couldnโt let go of the way things used to be.
Despite being Number One and the Leader, Luther is actually the most naive of them all. Unlike the rest of his family, he never freed himself from Hargreevesโ control and went out to find himself. Itโs why heโs stuck in a state of arrested development, and ultimately why heโs unable to lead effectively. He doesnโt understand the nuances of life.