[nichewinchester]

dean stood next to sam's bed secretly jerking himself off to his little brothers face while he sleeps bcs face reminds him of mary 💭💭

[zombigeee]

i think a lot about dean and john fucking sammy at the same time it's just so mmhhfhdnm

[watercolorys]

JohnSam and the preventative r*pe to make Sam stop misbehaving

[rotserah]

sa. mu. el. he was sam, plain sam, in the morning, standing four feet ten in one sock. he was sam in slacks, and samuel at school. he was samuel on the dotted line. but in my arms he was always sammy.

[lambmotifz]

post john’s death sam subconsciously trying to find a father in his older brother and in god

“and i needed to think that there was something else watching too you know? some higher power” <- he needs a father

[blacknidstang]

Lebanon samjohn...... I am thinking about you..................

...

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[saintgirlchild-archive]

at ever and ever sight <3

[saintgirlchild-archive]

‘in my time of dying’, supernatural ─ by eric kripke / ‘lolita’, by vladimir nabokov / ‘lebanon’, supernatural  ─ by eric kripke

[blacknidstang]

learning that azazel was played by jeffrey dean morgan in the pilot changed my life... the implications

SORRY FOR LATE REPLY BUT HELLO??? MY GOD. i thought it was just supposed to be visually close but oh god OKAY.... Samjohn / samazazel so real....

[iliveinyou]

the silhouette of azazel looking so similar to dean and john makes me so 😵‍💫

[weaknature]

[12/50] dean caps 1.01 “pilot”

[hudbannon-archive-deactivated20]

[ani-coolgirl]

I want to wrap Sam Winchester in plastic.

[ani-coolgirl]

So I just finished re-watching the original Twin Peaks and Fire Walk With Me and I'm back on the Sam Winchester = Laura Palmer train, with John as Leland and Azazel as BOB.

[lambmotifz]

sam pining for john after john’s death, and projecting that longing onto dean

sam hates his brother’s toxic, controlling traits, but he still lets drunk, angry dean fuck him as roughly as possible, because that roughness reminds him of john’s rough hands, of his whiskey-heavy breath

when dean hits him and sam tastes blood on his broken lip, it brings back the memory of his father’s fist

and he misses him. he misses him so badly it makes him feel like he might throw up

he’s in love with his dead father, and dean is the only one who can fill that absence

[lambmotifz]

it’s honestly laughably obvious that neither dean nor john handled sam’s absence well, considering how angry they both were at him for running away. “we needed you” — yeah, must’ve been real hard not having a warm, tight hole to unload in after a rough hunt. well, at least for dean, because it’s canon that sam is his personal punching bag ♡

[lambmotifz]

i’m not interested in weecest, but the only way i could vibe with this dynamic is when dean is at least a tad bit rapey. not the other way around. young sam being portrayed as a predator in 90% of fics leaves such a bad taste in my mouth, considering the reason why he ran away was to get away from familial abuse at the hands of both dean and john

[devoteesam]

a sick teen sam reverting to a childlike state and calling john daddy, who in turn, gets harder than he’s been in his entire life. a sick (in a very different way, the type that makes him admit he’s a perverted freak) john using the pliant and vulnerable state sam is in to get what he wants from his son. sick sam who wakes up the next day aching and thinks it was a dream brought on by too much cold medicine.

[devoteesam]

what are your thoughts on dean smelling like john on his drunken days. do you think it’d give sam certain samjohn flashbacks

(this is about s5 specifically)

yesss! same coat, same drink, probably a similar motel soap (if any)—they would smell identical. season 5 is the worst for that right up there with season 2, right after john’s death.

in s2 i don’t think samdean would be together in a sexual sense, but it would still effect sam as if it were. s2 sam would be a mess with mixed emotions, constantly smelling his dad (who he misses) and his dad (who has done unspeakable things to him while smelling exactly the same).

i on the other hand, in s5 dean would get drunk and fuck sam hard and angry. sam would barely be able to tell the difference between the past and the present with how intense his flashbacks are.

(i also think that during season 5 he refuses to dissociate as a form of self punishment out of guilt for season 4, so everything is 10x more intense)

[carryonmywincestsounds]

From here.