It's very interesting to contrast Kan and Akk as well as Thua and Ayan because they play similar roles in their relationships but with very different bases.
Kan is not having a sexuality crisis in the same way Akk is. Kan knows he's gay. Kan knows that he's attracted to boys and, very specifically, that he is attracted to Thua. He knows that and he is torn between self-hatred, social discomfort and a desperate yearning for what could be if he just gave in.
Akk is having a sexuality crisis and a morality crisis and an education crisis and a personal crisis and just... how many crisis can one teenager have? We're gonna find out. He's struggling with his own thoughts, with figuring out what he's feeling at all and with the very concept of what is going on in his life. He doesn't understand how he feels about Ayan and he's still in the middle of discovering himself.
Thua knows he's gay as well. He knows he likes Kan. He even knows that Kan is protecting him and, I suspect, he knows that Kan likes him back. He's the most honest of the characters, the most comfortable in his skin. He is not in any kind of crisis nor denial. He's just trying to be the best student he can be, a good friend and to keep the people he cares about safe.
Ayan is in a very different kind of crisis. His pain is coming from an outside trauma. He's comfortable with his sexuality enough to use it to his advantage and he's smart enough to understand how to use his knowledge and his understanding of people to help himself. But he's still in a deeper crisis, one of pain and revenge and loneliness and isolation. Because for all that he's doing all of this, for all the flirting and the closeness, he's shared nothing of himself with anyone and he won't for some time. No one at Suppalo knows him.
There are so many stories here, stories about repression and loneliness and isolation and acceptance and fear and rules and history and change.
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