moon girl’s diary

here lies the thoughts I never said aloud

[222moongirl]

I crave what scares me, love. Or maybe it's the loss I fear... the loss of love.

moongirl

[222moongirl]

I let you read me

You’re first to touch my spine

You held my pages together

You flipped through them

and caressed every word

[222moongirl]

Loving myself: My own attention is the most rewarding

I show myself attention by taking bubble baths.

I show myself attention by writing down my thoughts.

I show myself attention by lathering myself in lotion.

I show myself attention by dancing in the mirror.

I show myself attention by letting myself eat my cravings.

I show myself attention by spending time alone.

I show myself attention by shouting the lyrics to my favorite songs.

I show myself attention by admiring my beauty.

[222moongirl]

Challenging thoughts of comparison

I am not better than her just the way she is no better than me. Putting either of us down does not come with any benefits. Hurting her does not make me feel less hurt. To surpass the feeling of unworthiness is to accept that we are one and the same. We both have the ability to succeed in all aspects of life. Every emotion I feel she has felt too. The things I admire about her can also be found in myself. Realizing that we are both humans I can appreciate that we both deserve love.

[222moongirl]

Loving myself: Allowance

I allow myself to feel without judgment because suppressing feelings isn’t healthy.

I allow myself to dress the way I like because it makes me feel good about myself.

I allow myself to feel beautiful because I am.

I allow myself to feel whole alone because I trust myself.

I allow myself to show off my body because there are no parts of me that deserve to be hidden.

I allow myself to love everyone around me because that is how I want to be treated.

I allow myself to make mistakes because I am still learning and mistakes make me a better person in the end.

I allow myself to grow even when it is difficult.

[222moongirl]

Crescent Moon

Let me cup you in my hands

Feel the warmness from my palms enwrap you

Press your face against them

my fingertips, your home

Let me breathe through you

Until we become one

[222moongirl]

I don't feel quite whole

Air fills half the cup

Three quarters full, it doesn’t add up

Lemonade low on sugar, if you look close enough

[222moongirl]

Call me a garden

I’ll tend to my garden for you

I pricked my pinkie picking thorns off the roses

I learned my blood is blue

[222moongirl]

My life will always be open to you.

moongirl