[t4timekeeper]

[deadpigdarling]

Hiii I really don't want to do this again but everyone that cares about me keeps telling me to! My car is broken my tags are expired my only pair of shoes broke I don't have money for rent I don't even have money for like bus fare to get to my job interview tomorrow so if you want to help me not die this month I would greatly appreciate it!

[sys-advice-corner]

I meant "how to tell if a memory is real or not", sorry

[PT: Welcome! Please, take a seat.]

No worries. /genuine

There is no such thing as a "fake" memory. False Memory Syndrome (FMS) is not real. Memories can be unreliable and/or include details that are unintentionally altered (or intentionally, in some cases), but they aren't "fake." However, memories are not necessarily things that happened exactly as you remember. One might have memories hidden behind a different scenario (like happening in a different place).

Figuring out what aspects of the memory are and are not warped can be difficult without digging up trauma. Either way, the trauma (the reaction) is still real even if the event has been warped and should be treated as such.

[PT: The owner of this blog is anti-endo, anti-radqueer, and anti-proship. If you are a supporter of these, kindly do not interact!]

[32sys]

its really saddening how every generation finds ways to encourage publicly bullying & hurting children.

[she-is-autiblogging]

sometimes abuse victims will think they were/are not being abused. sometimes abuse victims will think it's okay they were/are being abused for whatever reason.

sometimes abuse victims will insist to others that they were/are not being abused. sometimes abuse victims will insist to others that it's okay they were/are being abused for whatever reason.

in fact, leading a victim to believe that what is happening is normal and fine and even good or righteous for whatever reason is a common feature of abuse, whether the abuser did it on purpose or not.

if an abuse victim in your life...

questions whether they were abused

goes back and forth about whether they think they were abused

tells you they weren't being abused, and then later says they were

...these can all be very normal parts of living with abuse trauma and don't mean someone is lying or exaggerating about being abused.

[teaboot]

^^^ These are all things I struggled with for years! Still sometimes I have days where I think "it wasn't THAT bad" or "I had it coming" or "but they're not bad people"- but it was still abuse! It still happened, and it was still bad, and even if I DID do something annoying or bad to make them WANT to treat me badly back, that doesn't mean it was okay!

It's difficult to accept, but impossible to move on without accepting.

[anti-willo-nekomura]

willos wouldnt exist and wouldnt wanna be a system so bad if the alter part wasnt there but every other symptom because they only want to role play while harassing disabled people til they stop existing.

[thehellsaint]

Dr. Colin Ross is a DSM contributor. He's not just some random doctor. He is PART of that academic consensus you're talking about.

I couldn't find anything about him contributing to the DSM but what I did find was a lot of information from a malpractice suit brought against him for abusing his patients at an inpatient facility.

Here's Elizabeth Hart's affidavit describing being over medicated, wherein Dr Ross would dismiss her complaints by calling them switches and naming different alters responsible for her reactions.

While still hospitalized in the ward, Dr. Ross admitted a male patient in what was, up until that point, a female only ward. The patient had videos on file of him sexually assaulting multiple women. There's no surprise then that the patient assaulted Ms. Hart and when she sought help from Dr. Ross he said, "I didn't think he would do that on the ward."

When she reported him to the local paper for negligence resulting in her sexual assault while in his care, he "became furious" and "told me I had to get out." He then proceeded with the patient discharge of Ms. Hart despite knowing he would be forcing her out to face extreme withdrawals from the medication he put her on.

He left that hospital some time later, abandoning her with no recommendation or way to set up a continuation of treatment, she was left to face the addiction he created alone. When she finally was able to speak to him again, he suggested more medication.

The next year, he would deny to her face that he ever gave her medication in the first place.

This is a very brief summary of only the first parts of one patients affidavit, of which there are two that I saw when looking at the case. Both victims of his malpractice continue to explain the things he put them through and I recommend reading through them.

But sure, if he says what endos wanna hear then his word is gospel, I guess.

[maripoorsa]

My gf is a native trans woman trying to finish her transition quickly out of fear the current admin will make it impossible for her. If you want to help her and dont care for details then please reblog this post cuz my other posts died & her gfm has lost traction.

If you do want details, theyre under the cut.

Thank you!

Donate to Help Lilith Complete Her Journey, organized by Lilith Skye

Heya, I'm Lilith. I'm a trans woman who's trying to complete her journey with some final … Lilith Skye needs your support for Help Lilith Co

edit: actually i decided to add links to her paypal cashapp and venmo to try making this more accessible

Ive been helping her raise money since last May and Id feel AWFUL she had to cancel her last surgery when shes so close to the goal. So pleasw reblog and donate if you can •͈ᴗ⁃͈ ✧

We have money for the hotel stay & for the surgery deposit (barely). We also already have some post-op supplies she'll need (leftover from her previous surgeries.)

But she still needs help paying for

gas (her surgeon is a day trip away)

food

the meds her surgeon prescribes

missed work days/bills while shes in surgery & recovery so that she doesnt fall further into debt

So thats where the money will be going.

She has used this gfm to fund 3 surgeries for her transition and has one surgery left.

This last surgery is Facial Feminization Surgery (FFS) and is the 2nd round of FFS shell be going through.

(she has updated her gfm to include pics if you're curious to see her after her BA & 1st round of FFS!)

[interyuurei]

Please read and reblog.

Support ᥫ᭡.

Not to sound overly dramatic or anything, genuinely, but my situation is pretty dire. Please help, if you can? Otherwise please share.

I keep agonizing about this, how to go about trying to make this post, it’s dangerous for me to say too much in my situation and risk being recognized but also not saying enough risks me just looking like a scammer… So, I’ll give a bit more detailed information more than what’s already on my page, but I am genuinely scared to say much more.

Since the election, just trying to buy groceries I’ve been assaulted three times, around a month or so back a neighbor threw a can at my head when I took out the garbage. Said neighbor’s wife has been trying to get the landlord to kick me out for being a “predator” for daring to be a good neighbor and warn her and her child that the balcony was unsafe (it was winter and it was. Slippery, full of giant icicles, etc). I already had agoraphobia, it’s now much worse to say the least.

I have been trying to get away from my abusive father, the last he saw me he tried to kill me, or I should say the last we were within three feet of each other he did as he’s still not done or gone. He keeps doing drive by’s just as a little ‘you aren’t safe’ reminder seemingly. He cyberstalks as well (see why I am trying to be so careful?), plus there are so called family I know would go right to him if they recognized me here. I know that when/if there’s a snitch line or active hunting of gender diverse people were to start my family would all give me up. All. Of. Them.

My state is now allowing for doctors to, unless it’s a life or death situation such as a patient is bleeding out, totally refuse treating a patient whose existence or “life style” goes against their religious beliefs. Intersex and trans people are no longer in the state’s CRA, too, and I’ve already been having to contend with the results of that. Medication I need to live, GAC isn’t just GAC for me, I need my medication not just for affirmation but for my health with my intersex variation(s). I nearly wound up in the ER from complications of not being given my medication once already.

I also almost had to request a hearing with DHS to prove my medication “actually does anything” for me using research articles. My own health records are no longer enough. They’re fighting me tooth and nail on every medication I need, for all of my health issues, in this way. Every exam or treatment I need. Everything. This is barely scratching the surface. I haven’t even touched yet on the ableism, saneism, classism or racism aspects of my situation and oh boy is there a LOT of it. That I quite literally cannot work, not traditionally or regularly anyway, I try to do voice work and art commissions when able. Part trauma part disability being the why in simple terms, and my state is eyeballing Medicaid SSI/SSDI work requirements. I have already said too much, there’s more on my k•-fi, just… Please help me if you can, share in safe circles whether you can or cannot. I need to get out of here, to a blue state so I can at least fucking breathe a little, I just need to not constantly feel like death is knocking on my door. And then, start saving to leave the country.

I have nothing left, no other way to do this. I have tried multiple relocation charities and groups but I’m SOL. I can’t “make myself worth the risk of saving” (yes an actual quote I was told) so not even they will help me. I’m sorry, and thank you.

Editing to add and update, now with the American government officially labeling trans rights groups as terrorists, my need to get out has shot up ten fold.

Yes, they've been hinting at this for a year or so now, but now it's done and the end of the document is literally saying they're going to find us all and kill us... And, on a more personal level for an update more specific to my situation, my doctors are trying to find ways to take away my medication still. I have about another two months supply of most of it, but they've oh so kindly let me know that I will have to speak to my state's DHS to get any more of it because they still don't think I need it... I nearly wound up in the ER without it, and they're trying to say I still cannot "prove" I need it. They are trying to kill me. I do not care anymore how paranoid I sound.

Please help me, if you can, I am begging ever so kindly :’)

[leathersys]

switching

[anti-willo-neru]

endos be rude as hell and then when youre rude back suddenly its "your entire community is so mean weeeeh :((( you hurted my feelings". but when we go "endos have never been nice and are rooted in ableism" of course we are bad and mean and the worst people ever

[anti-willo-miku]

I have no idea which of our parts it was, but they locked in on our late art project/final at the last minute, managed to make the whole presentation within an hour, and submitted it with just a few minutes left before our teacher completely closed it off.

They also managed to figure out that the veterinary program we want to do is not covered by financial aid, so now we need to figure out how to get almost $3,000 before the end of summer.

Thanks buddy, but who are you.  😭 

-- 🪉

i always love parts like that shout out competent person. and half the time they dont let u know who they are

[anti-willo-stu]

when i say i hate endos i do not mean cdd systems in denial or who are misinformed or who don't believe their trauma was bad enough. you can stop being like "what about them!!" now because that was NEVER what the conversation was EVER about

[32sys]

i get upset at what feels like most people’s inability to be as self aware as we all need to be in order to function productively in a society but then i realize 99% of people don’t have multiple people controlling + giving their opinion on the same life loooool

[changyuu]

i was forced into syscovery by an endo system when i was extremely young and in an unsafe environment. almost immediately, they pushed me into using pluralkit. they treated my alters like circus freaks and got annoyed whenever i expressed discomfort.

for the longest time, i felt completely alone in my experiences because i didn't match what they insisted was "normal." i didn't consistently have a headspace. my gatekeepers couldn't just summon alters to front at will the way theirs supposedly could. everyone around me seemed to experience things in the same neat & tidy way while i felt pressured into pretending that i was just like them to avoid scrutiny.

i had to redo my syscovery from scratch last year because so much of what they taught me (& what the community normalized in general) felt harmful and incorrect.

you know what happened once i did that? i could actually see experiences similar to mine reflected in medical texts, rather than feeling like i was forcing myself to fit some standard. funny, isn't it? somehow, i was more of a "faker" in their community than i ever was in ours.

so yes, i am anti-endo, and i do believe endogenics are harmful to our community. i was a victim of that environment. there's a lot more i could say, and i know i'm not alone in this.

[witchofanguish]

There's a somewhat-unstated division in social progressive circles that goes "being socially inept for autism reasons is fine, but being socially inept for regular reasons is bad and mockable." And then in practice everyone assumes it's for regular reasons when it comes up

[chekhovsglock]

it's scary the amount of people who wholeheartedly believe that men and women are fundamentally different creatures