☁ あおぞら ☁

Be positive.

[gabapentinblues]

everything feels empty and i just want it all to end

[quotefeeling]

“She’s never where she is. She’s only inside her head.”

— Janet Fitch, White Oleander

[kiarakirai-deactivated20200605]

[mournfulroses]

Jeanette Winterson, from "Why Be Happy When You Could Be Normal," publ. in 2011

[saccharinehell]

Oh what an unlovable thing I've become.

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

people have said good things about you behind your back, without your knowledge. people have shared their love for you with others.

[wishful-seeker]

As someone who used to be abled and am now disabled, you cannot wait for the perfect moment to live your life.

Healing is not linear, and its slow. There is now switch to flip, its a garden you care for.

You will never wake up one day miraculously healed.

When you have "healed" you won't even notice it.

Months will go by until you realize "wait, its been so long since I've had that pain."

In the meantime, do things even though they hurt. Make art occasionally, even if it hurts your wrists. Try to dance once in a while, even if it makes you exhausted. Part of healing, growing, LIVING, is training your body to grow resistant, doing things occasionally even when it's hard.

[weltenwellen]

Ilya Kaminsky, from “A City Like a Guillotine Shivers on Its Way to the Neck”, Deaf Republic

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

note to self: don’t hate yourself over things out of your control. really just don’t hate yourself in general. you are not what your dark thoughts insist you are.

[lil-reminders]

i know this can be hard to hear, but sometimes you are the only one holding you back. the world is not against you. there isn’t going to be a right time to do the things you want to do. sometimes you just have to go for it.

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

we are not broken people. we are bent and distorted. to adapt to our hostile environments we conformed and shaped ourselves around everything in life as trees do when they grow around obstacles. as we grow we’ll return to a more comfortable shape, no longer growing only to suit our surroundings.

[pillowgraveyard]

[kosmogrl]

[arjunasearth]

*thirty

[kosmogrl]

born to be chill, forced to be overthinking and anxious and overwhelmed and restless

[kosmogrl]

[mothprincess]

stop trying to be palatable, stop trying to be palatable, stop

[mothprincess]

i give u full permission to be weird. i am signing your permission slip

[hauntanelle]

bad news! i have no idea what im doing. good news! i will continue nonetheless.