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i just wnna move into this damn houseeeeeeeeee

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so ive decided that ive fallen outta liking someone,,, thank god bc she was consuming me,, and i kno she might like me actually uk wht i dnt kno?? how she feels abt me?? shes so vague and ominous and i need someone thats direct and upfront and will tell me how it is,, i cant evn figure out if shes like flirting w me or just tlking normally thru txt and she bailed on me AGAIN so i cant fuck w shit like tht and she hasnt contacted me since so irdk how she feels abt me or if she even likes me anymore like just tell me how u feel so i dnt waste my time or so tht i can tell u how i feel,,,shes a fucking p*sces for godsake ,,, idk im just getting tired of this and i dont find her interesting anymore like noah fence shes a great person and wonderful conversation partner for the time being but its like i dnt really feel too much i dont feel butterflies i dont feel motivation i dnt feel tht energy tht ur supposed to feel,,,, and i would tell her this to her face but i know she would be extremely hurt but then again shes literally not telling me how shes feeling,,,, like i flirt openly and honestly i call girls cute when i think they’re cute and i tell them that im excited to meet them when i like them or whatever i take initiative and this girlie is being so fucking passive it pisses me off like im just annoyed at this point,, like annoyed at falling for her or letting myself fall for her like its not realistic at all im not ready for a relationship im not doing long distance and she cant even fucking come up with a lie to tell her parents so that she can hang out with me idk idkkk i sound horrible i sound like im not chill and im annoying af and tht im idk i promise u that i am all that bc thts just me and i dnt like wasting my time and i dont like when ppl arent clear and direct and honest and open and sure i love a good flirtation but at least u kno that theyre flirting and tht theyre interested idk idk i cant do this subtweet shit and deciphering wht shes saying and if she likes me or if she wants to hang or if shes just doing this just bc irdk irdk irdkkkkkkk im tired so ive declared that im over her,, not gnna think about her not gnna think about making out w her or ugh whtever the fuck anywayyyyyyyys thats tht;; anyawys im gnna b seein her at g*v ball and then pride the day after,,, and shes not fukcing out to her closest friends so its not even like i can make out w her in broad daylight or anything or even tryyyy flirting w her and im not abt to act like a str8 girl but honestly it would b so funny flirting w her friends in front of her omg im so bad,,, anyways im thinking abt just wearing something revealing like getting my tits outtttt n havin fun w my friend n if i run into her there act super extra like i wud lov to act like a str8 white girl in front of her friends ugh im just so excited to look hot and see the r*grettes <3 i cud care less abt her l0l im so mean im horrible 

ive defffff been thinking abt this other girlie (cokehead)a lotttttttt bc shes direct and honest and tells me tht she wants to hang out w me so bad and makes an effort and tells me im cute and talks to me and doesnt talk to me 2 much but talks to me enough and i like her a lottttttttttttt and shes bailed on me every single time but our plans havent gone 2 far and she said she wanted to drive here tomorrow but i have work obv so i told her again,, beginnign of june when im living w my friends n its fun,,,, shes so different like a breath of fresh air except its weed air idkkkk i like her a lot right now i mean ive always liked her but im just feeeeeeling this and we’re like friends 4 sure like friends 4 life i can feel this relationship being something like tht,, fwb maybe idk but shes so cool n funny n chill n i lov talking to her and her personality idk man!!!!! omg!!!!!!!!1

& then im talking to a couple other girlssssssss at like diff levels ,, this 1 thats still in hs who literally lives the town over and knows some of my friends,, but has been busy evry single weekend ive asked her 2 hang out so idk whts up w that,, idk shes been getting kinda boring so idk i feel bad for considering dropping her but shes like rlly good friends w one of my housemates and that whole crew & shes a total sweetheart n going to my college in sept

then theres this other girl whos like gnna be a junior tht im plannign to hang out w in june in nyc bc she works there and shes soooo cute n goes to my school n one of her friends follows me so?? uhaul <3

and then theres like a couple ppl ive like talked to and tld to hmu in june,,,,, i also just hooked up w this gemini in her car irdk 

anyways i just want that 1 girl in my guts like soooo bad asdfhghfjgkls LMFAO

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um ok so w tht girl i hooked up w she was like lets just b friends n i was like ok ya whtvr so ive jst been tlkin 2 her n out of nowhere shes like id totally drop this friend think im bored n horny if u want and im like,, sweetie,,, um like ya i wud totally hook up w u but i dnt wnna make this tht ez 4 her lmfaOOO so i invited her 2 go 2 a basement show w me we;ll see how it goes shes nvr been 2 1 so i mean,,, we’ll see ,,,,,,,,,,,,

also we n the cokehead aint workin out like she keeps flakin so we agreed 2 meet up after school ends :’( kms

alsooo tht other girllllllllllll wrote a song abt meeeee and its so sad but its sooooo fucking good im kms

and this other girl im tlkin 2 is studyin 4 ap’s so she cant hangggg,,,,,,, so im kinda stuck w this girl i hooked up w 4 now,,,,,, 

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0mg 0k so i had a complete meltdown ovr tinder n some1 asking me out n my anxiety got so badddd n it still is bad rn bc i hav work in a couple of hrs ,,,, basically ugh the girl not cokehead wanted 2 read more of my stories so i sent her 1 abt her n she like freaked tf out abt it n was so happy n i was just like kinda cringy kinda overwhelmed by the emotions n my heart was hurting so tht happened n then last night she sent me something she wrote only after she was not sober n was high af,,, s0 i like barely rad the first line and was overwhelmed and i just started crying and omg it was like i was hit in the face and hit in the gut and hit in the heart and it was this weird weird feeling ive never felt before it was so strange and so i kept reading and i really started crying and i was smiling and crying and a mess and so i told her tht i was cryin n obvi we changed the topic <3 and im like fuck ,, now, like fuck,,,,,,,, i really feel something 4 this girl,,,,,,,,, and i like dnt wnna feel it bc im just so confused n i dnt kno whts goin on but i like her so fucking much and im like no!!!! bc she goes to school thousands of milles away and i reallly dnt want long distance bc i kno my hearts gnna hurt sooo bad like i knowwwwwww its gonna get to the point when i cant concentrate on anything irl bc im thinking abt her like i kno and i kno tht i neeed to hav someone here that i can hang out w frequently so tht i can idfk i just i m so scared i really am,,, bc im faling for her and i dont want to because of the circumstances,, shes gonna be back in nj in may thats like a month n a couple of weeks,, like ok i can wait 6 weeks but its like ,,, whats the summer gonna be like ,, like how often are we gonna hang out what the fuck is up ya kno ,,, i told her i would b there for pride which is right by her town and omfg i dont wannna feel this but i hav to feel this but i dont wanna feel this and omg im crying rn over a girl i havent even met irl ugh fuck!!!!!!!!!!

and then w my cokehead ,, she was bein rlly cute last night n she was like i just wnna mf hang w u and i was like bith me 2 tf omg n she invited me 2 her friends 21st party weekend after easter so she cant come out clubbing and she said she just wnna take me around penn state n im like fuck,,,,,, 0k,,,, let me look into how to get there so ima research all tht today probs bc i rlly do wnna hang out w her and i tld her just wnna fuck shit up w her over the summer ns he was like me 2 and all this so ugh!!! wow!!! im p sure she just wnts some1 to hang out w her ovr the summer bc she said she wanna get wild so i dnt think shes actually looking 4 a gf,, but its so hard 2 figure out w her,,,,, like does she want a gf or not,,,,,,,, bc if she didnt want 1 y is she tlking 2 me 4 this long ya kno,,,,, im abt 2 ask my friend wht 2 do abt all of this in general,,,,,,,,

n i also just recently started tlkin 2 this girl thts literally around here thank fucking god so we’ll see how tht goes, shes cute n funny s00000 

ugh im rlly such a mess but its cute its a look not rlly but ya

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0k so heres whts up ,,, basically,,,,, idk me n the girl tht i cudnt meet up w ovr spring break hav been getting awfully flirty n close n we were tlkin abt my wriitng n how she wnted 2 read more so i just ended up sending her a short lil piece abt her tht i wrote in mid feb,, it was super dramatic which i warned her abt twice n i just was rlly proud of my writing in tht so i rlly didnt kno how she wud react,, like i just assumed she wud b like omg its so sweet ur writing is so good,,, and no she went offffff n said she almost cried n i was like hunty,, uhh,,, basically it got super emotional n i was overwhelmed by it ,, truly overwhelmed s0 me bein tht bish changed the convo obviously n then we were tlkin and then all of the sudden she was like omg i feel so bad abt spring break and she was like geniunely so srry abt it and i legit was like girl irdc like honestly move on wht can ya do ,, bc obvi like in the moment i was salty but obvi wht can ya do so i got over it and ya so then we were tlking and then she brought it up again and was like im so srry like i cnt stop thinking abt it like im so scared i messed this whole thing up ,, something like tht im 2 scared 2 go back n check the convo bc i was just so fuckin overwhelmed by it n so scared by all the emotions like my heart legit hurt n felt a lil anxious idfk wht tht was all abt so i reassured her once again like girl chillllll i feel like an asshole she must think im heartless like i did not express anything at all n it got mad awk after tht n she tried tlkin 2 me today but i totally gav her lame ass responses bc idk im just ugh y did i hav to send tht dumbass emotional story,,,, like obvi i like her a lot but i cant b in a long distance relationship if thts wht she wnts ya kno ,, its like i dnt wnt her 2 miss out on anything bc of me n i dnt wnt 2 miss out on anything bc of her,,,,, if tht makes any sense ughhhhh im so annoyin but shes a pisces they’re emotional virgos arent they’re analytical or whtevr the fuck ,, so me being me ,, trying 2 tweet abt tinder n all the girls im tlkin 2 so she can see <33333 bc i dk whts wrong w me y cant i act like a normal person ,,, y am i so freaked out by emotion n commitment n some1 actually likes me like actually fucking likes me and i like them 2 but my bodys just freaking the fuck out n is so overhwelmed ugh,,,,,,,,,

anyways thts tht;;; the other girl im tlkin 2 made me a fuckin playlist w 115 songs ,, thts like 6 hrs worth ,, n i keep stepping up the flirting bc my friend tld me 2 b a cringy h0 n flirt like w out any joking saracasm whtevr n im like ok and its working,,,,, she wnts me 2 catch up on rupaul so tht i can watch the nxt ep w her n i suggested facetiming so thts happenin n we’re supposed 2 b hanging out weekend after easter ,,, going gay clubbing ,,,, n im scared bc i kno shes more experience then me in general but shes so cute n funny n i like her n yA

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cokehead rlly likes meomffggggggggg,,,,,,,,, idk shes so expressive & uninhibited which is wht i like about her a lot,,, she’ll tell u ur hot if ur hot & she doesnt rlly play 2 many games shes p straight up which i rlly like a lot,,, & shes so cuteeeeeeee & also i lov her voice a lotttt its rlly deep and husky which is h0t af ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, ugh fuck i just made a playlist 4 her bc im @ tht stage ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, ;;;; me & the other girl havnt been tlkin as much lately idk y idk if i know whts up w all tht but she can confront me if she wnts im down 2 tlk im just not initiating it lOl ,,, i just kno tht ima b tweeting vague things about girls & luv on twitter so 1 of them can mayb feel somethin ,,,,,,,, idk i just wnna kiss some1 like i need a cuddle i need somethin & once again considering finding a random guy again 2 fuck or somethin once i get back bc im sexually frustrated & not rlly attracted 2 guys but if i just picture a girl i think ima b fine tht sounds so bad but like im thirsty af & i just wnna shut the fuck up 

[bob-belcher]

[descole-dead]

[gothcostco]

ACCEPT

[sinfullvibes]

half of me is a hopeless romantic and the other half of me is, well, an asshole

[inahiddenplace]

it’s march and like, you know what? that’s fucked up. literally, it was march this time last year too, and what’s up with that? like, a year has passed since it was last march, what the fuck ?

[skygenders]

me flirting with other wlw: I can drive

[l-prismatique]

me flirting with other wlw, not knowing how to drive: wow, if only there were someone who could drive me around… someone I could ride… with

[madeline-kahn]

Congratulations to the winners of the 90th Academy Awards!

[naruhoe-deactivated20220131]

being held??????? holding someone?????????!!??????? fuck

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i wnna kiss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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evry day i wake up w some of anxiety in my heart,, like i can feel it in my left b00b,, & i just tell myself 2 fuck it evrytime im anxious and im usually ok which is d0pe but idk y im s0 anxious it might b bc i hav work or a lot of assignments i rlly dnt fkin kno thts y im tryna write out evrything im feelin like a data dump so tht i dnt feel overwhelmed and see im already feeling better by typing evrything out,, 0k so 2day i gotta study study study for astronomy,,, then im thinking about doing my virtual team quiz rl quick ,,, then i hav work,,, then ill get food,, eat, shower, do my cinematography proj & ask the group chat if they can b in it,,, then review astronomy 0k 0k we got this

[emmy4keri]

Greta Gerwig and Saoirse Ronan at the 2018 Film Independent Spirit Awards

[nessa007]

★ B99 Week ★

↳ Day 1 ● Favourite Season(s) ● Seasons 1 - 4

“That’s how we do it in the Nine-Nine, sir. Catch bad guys and look good doing it.”