Vfor5foxes

oh god oh fuck what do i put here transfem or enby maybe compsci and photography she/they/it assholes dni

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✨ABT Me ✨

pronouns: she/they/it and any number of non masculine neopronouns you find *funny*

im queer as hell, but am completely in the blind to what degree day to day, fear my lack of consistency pretty please

i AM a college dropout, but im somewhat well versed in general chemistry and computer science, and a little photography

severly mentally fucked, im much too lazy today to list them so just read context clues i guess dog

CONTENT AND TRIGGER WARNINGS: this is first and foremost mostly a vent blog so: sui ideation, mention of self harm, gore, mentions of mental illness, scopophobia, general paranoia, mentions of hypothetical violence, drug use and paraphenelia, ect

DEAD DOVE, DO NOT EAT

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bitch of a sister has to beat me over head with the fact that nobody will see me as anything more than a disgusting moid thing because i asked her to stop constantly quoting AI

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i really wanna buy a skirt, but i really dont know what type cause i dont think my legs pass, and all my clothes are baggy stitched together denim and baggy band shirts because im both too scared to go outside and nobody will teach me how to fashion 3:

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feel sickeningly wrong today

generally weak and incompatible with the human condition

id like enough oxy to never have to worry about thinking again thank you very much

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asked for weed and this motherfucker gave me cbd gummies 3: gigabummer

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bwomp

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DO DDRUGGS THAY WMAKE THE DEPPRESSION AND COOLAPISNG FEELING OF UTTER DESOLATION GONAWAY

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legitimately too much of a lazy parasitic prick to get up and sharpen my blunt as fuck blade to ki cut myself

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its never going to get better, is it

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i should maybe do an into post when my thoughts are a little more stable and im not arguing with myself wether im one or im parts, though arguing with myself directly dose kinda nudge me to the latter most answer. i trust my oomfie completely to help me to some vauge degree

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so, mirrors where mirrors almost certainly shouldn't be is a new one, and the only real reason it's bothering me is i cant get a good look before it all dizzolves and such

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my thoughts keep snapping in the middle whenever i try to think loud enough to drown it out, its like theyre being eaten or chewed upon (the noise they make when they snap at least)

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theres this quiet but fairly high pitched noise i cean hear when its quiet in my new room in the new house, almost exactly like a mosquito exept constant in tone and volume unless i move, where is sounds more distant or closer though i cant actually locate the origin, and i just cant get the idea of a hive or nest in the ceiling filled with the vauge fuckers, so thats fun and preventing my slumber

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theres a spot in the room where is just stops, like an inch forward and its swee silence, an inch back and its loud and droning as ever. i keep trying to look for the source of the noise in the room like finding anything making that noise wouldnt terrify me. i tried recording it but the sound is apparently too quiet for my crappy phone, and i put my foot through a box of my sound equipment when unpacking so i cant exactly go that route

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theres this quiet but fairly high pitched noise i cean hear when its quiet in my new room in the new house, almost exactly like a mosquito exept constant in tone and volume unless i move, where is sounds more distant or closer though i cant actually locate the origin, and i just cant get the idea of a hive or nest in the ceiling filled with the vauge fuckers, so thats fun and preventing my slumber

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once again reiterating i really do not fucking like bugs, with the addition of its really easy now for my nails to cut through my skin while digging and itching, thank you HRT

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i had a lengthy chat with the concrete patch in the overgrown garden about wether i am a good person, to what degree, and how everything is going bad but i still love the spirit of the earth and nature that the concrete represented in my minds eye and how it was only fair the paper and plant i was burning had to have the fair trade of me slowly fucking my lungs over tike yk?

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i should maybe take it easy on the xannies

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i had a lengthy chat with the concrete patch in the overgrown garden about wether i am a good person, to what degree, and how everything is going bad but i still love the spirit of the earth and nature that the concrete represented in my minds eye and how it was only fair the paper and plant i was burning had to have the fair trade of me slowly fucking my lungs over tike yk?