Lumos my Love

Never not loving

[7yati]

Estoy en Valencia. He vivido aquí desde hace 5 meses y algo, 5 meses y 5 días en el piso más hermoso que me hubiera podido imaginar (en Valencia tanto como en Alemania, eh, je).

- Me siento bien, de verdad. Claro que me siento bien porque sé que me queda solamente una semana - el daño de la despedida es lo que hace cada momento dulce dulcísimo pero... sé que no fue siempre así. Sé que en febrero me sentí terriblemente sola, aún más en marzo, viendo que había esa chica con su amiga con su amigo que me habla aquí solo porque quiere demasiado a ella. Y realizando que dos nunca se habían interesado de mí de verdad, pero por lo más que él s’en fou complètement de moi et quand enfin j’avais commencé à accepter _vraiment_ qu’il jamais avais des sentiments envers moi - il y a trois jours - il m’écrit. Depuis de plus de 9 moins d’ignorance, tout à coup, seulement comme ca. Et rien de sympathique. Moi, répondant avec une nouvelle de ma vie,je  recois la reponse que ma connaissance de cette langue soit “améliorable” [mais très très bien][mais améliorable était la première parole, c’est ca que conte]. Personne t’as demandé, ptn. Je veux pas perdre mon temps parlant de lui, seulement que oui, j’ai repondu sans rage et oui, j’étais la dernière qui a repondu. Et oui, je m’ai demandé plusieurs, trop de, foi pourquoi il m’écrirait. Mais aussi je suis plus forte. Je sais qu’il vit sa vie sans être heureux, et ca, oui, me fait sentir peine pour lui. Et plus, parce qu’il ne le réalize pas. Mais ce sont plus mes affaires - ils étaient jamais les miennes mais quand même, je ne pouvais pas vivre sans penser en lui et comment on le pourrait aider.

Mais maintent je connais le vrais bonheur: la musique, l’arte, la famille, la felicité des autres. Créer et aider. C’est ca. Y eso es, yo vivo para mi familia y está.

Danke dir Zukunftssarah dass du bist, dass du da bist, dass du du bist und dass was er andere von dir halten dir egal ist und dass du die, auf die du zählen kannst, nie vergisst. Oh Eau de Rochas publicité, oh Samsung rocket man, oh despacito, oh vamos a bailar, oh putanella, oh soy luna, oh himym, oh first dates, oh pullandbear, oh blender, oh accento florentino, oh leornidcon, oh giulia, oh zitronensorbet, oh huit, oh amb les línies, oh adeu.

[thoughts-memories]

ariana is allegedly in hospital because she’s been in hysterics for 15 hours, has allegedly discussed ending her career and is actively blaming herself for all of this and people are angry for her cancelling her tour?? priorities people, please.

people have lost their lives. families have been separated, an 8 year old girl has just been identified as the second victim. ariana’s whole team actively tried to protect people by taking young kids into safe areas- include her own mother.

this isn’t just a small inconvenience. this is a tragedy. think before you react. i’ve got too many people around me thinking about themselves other than those who deserve and need it.

people still do not consider their idols as human and continue to expect ariana to tour when she’s in pain. it’s sickening.

CREDIT

[montrealfitnessfoodie]

Cake ended up being as good as pretty . . . #strawberry #cheesecake #grahamcrackercrust #birthday #cake #homemade #dessert #baking

[suspend]

[kieu-silly-world]

“stop spending so much time drawing the face!”

[7yati]

!

[hipster-and-thoughts]

[theinturnetexplorer]

[shabbitable]

Olly + Emoji [Pt. 2]

[goodreadss]

Water Lilies, Pink - Claude Monet

[7yati]

So privileged

I am so thankful for everything, thank you thank you, whoever whatever is out there, ruling everything in my life.

What I refer to is my first real “job” which I’ve had for about 5 months now (1 more left).

There are so many things I love about it,

how my random singing is accepted and shared

the FOODING, omg I gained bout 10 pounds in that time but we love snacks

how everyone goes nuts on Mondays

and Thursdays

sometimes also Fridays

how the end of my singing is always and perfectly followed by someone continuing the melody singing or whistling or clapping or or or

how we regularly just spend a few minutes making weird noises

cutie 1 who is my fav sincere and purely honest everything-doubter-and-perfect-melody-continuer

cutie 2 who is the hungriest and most lovable, humble, social, empathic, motivated and purely positive prankster

cutie 3 who is an amazing smart-brain, super inspiring and got me so much useful new knowledge (which I should have had but.. .heheheh)

cutie 4 who is the most relatable, funny, open-hearted and -minded, tirolean-mountains-and-curly-hair-lover

cutie 5 who may or may not have been a crush is so incredibly intelligent and fast-understanding+learning, knowing about 1000 languages and whose general knowledge would fill about 10 brains of mine

cutie 6 who I used to fear but who turned out to be the most fair boss you could imagine, ever. “I don’t know.” - if you say this sentence to me and let me explain something to you, I will immediately like you. He did.

cutie 7 who we miss already, our first leaver, chocolate-lover-food-lover-history-brain-best-couldabeen-teacher-ever, never-not-smiling

how at the end of the day I will quite surely hear someone sing a song I used to hum about a few hours ago

the “Thank you!” I get everytime I leave the office

What have I done to deserve being paid for spending my time with these beautiful people, doing things I love, making me even want to go there just to escape everything else. Thank you so much. Thank you. Y Valencia: Por favor no me falles, por tanto lo que dejo para ti.

[7yati]

I used to be better

I used to think I was worse. Now I am worse and think better of me And worse of thee I used to be a forgiver, always the forgiver, but then you made me feel like I should be the one who was to be forgiven And then don’t And still do, not forgive.

This is not how anyone should live, always forgiving and feeling wrong, even though the only thing I want and always wanted was to be cool with everything, well, what a fool

I was the forgiver and still could be but now that you don’t seem to quite forgive me though I should be the one to forgive we seem to have found a better way to live Without

[swankydesserts]

I’m not much of a baker, but I attempted a mirror galaxy cake!

[7yati]

I’m not much of a baker, but I attempted a mirror galaxy cake!

BLABLABLABLA

[dennybitte]

behind the veil

by Denny Bitte

[femmequeens]

Cranes in the Sky/Don’t Touch My Hair directed by Solange and her husband, Alan Ferguson (2016)

[tomfordvelvetorchid-deactivated]

https://instagram.com/p/BJie23LBoIL/

[7yati]

I just heard the soundtrack of “please save my earth” again, for the first time in about one year

And it brought me back to that time, that late summer of 2015, when only PSME restarted to rule my days, when my soul was clean and pure and free

And it made me feel the moment, looking at my two little lamps, being so everpresent and static and not moving

And it made me want to feel the moment more, push my nails into the backs of my hands until something happened

And it made me refall for anime and manga

And it made me regret regret so deeply not having lived my love for Japan, for those geniuses of storytelling, more when I was younger

And it made me think that if I was there, I would be feeling lost, though, trying to belong but never fitting in

I would in Spain. I hope

And this made me realize that travelling is for me a way to search for myself

My travelling will never end

[h0odrich]

no no, it’s fine, ill text myself back