I haven’t been active in awhile and I’ve been reading all of your kind messages worrying about me and wondering where I went so I wanted to come here and not leave you all in the dark and tell you why I haven’t been posting anything for months.
Some people thought I died, I did not die.
It’s definitely not because of the haters. Never that.
I didn’t get COVID-19. (Stay safe, btw!)
I took breaks from posting off and on in 2018 and 2019 because I slowly started losing interest in what used to be so exciting. I took breaks to think and clear my head mostly because of my Depression (which once again has nothing to do with people that hate on KMBW or hate on me, I’ve basically had Depression all of my life) on top of that, I slowly started losing interest in K-Pop between that time, something that made me happy since 2012, I used to always say I’d never stop being a fangirl of K-Pop but shockingly, out of nowhere I did and it’s nothing bad, I would never be like the people that stop being a fan of K-Pop and then start bashing K-pop and K-Pop fans and start calling people (and themselves) a “Koreaboo” and say it was just a bad phase, the disrespect, but for me it wasn’t. K-Pop made me happy for so long, and K-Pop is still amazing! I mean, hello, the music, the talent, the fashion.
Creating K-Music And Black Women is one of the greatest things I’ve ever done. I got to talk to a lot of K-Pop fans of all races and I’ve met some of the sweetest people, even someone who was going through cancer told me I really helped them get through it and I’ll never forget that. I’ve helped others who were Depressed and suicidal like me. K-Pop fans made friends because of me. A lot of amazing things came from doing K-Music And Black Women and because of that I will never regret a thing!
I rarely address haters but every since I started K-Music And Black Women in 2014 I’ve gotten hate and bullied (didn’t hurt my feelings, annoying? Yes. Made me cry? Never, Made me want to give up? No.) they’ve always been bullying and harassing me and my lovely supporters so if you ever wondered if what they’ve been saying about me for so long (or some things new) I wouldn’t mind clearing it all up before I go..
No – I do not have any kids.
No – I am not a pedophile (they be saying anything!!)
No – I do not “steal” people’s content, people ALWAYS send me their own pictures and videos and ask for me to add it to the next video I make or to share it and I always give them credit.
No – I do not make money from doing KMBW and I never have and I never wanted to because I felt like you guys are family and I didn’t want to make profit off of any of you, trust me, I don’t need the money.
No – I don’t fly to South Korea to stalk K-Pop idols.
No - I am not Islamophobic (I love and respect everyone, all religions, races, weight, background)
No - I have never supported any racism against Black people within K-Pop
I have no idea where these rumors even came from but haters will do anything to drag you down and people will believe it and run with it. There’s probably a lot more but those are the things I could think of at the top of my head. Not everyone will like you in life and that’s fine as long as you know the truth and know who you are, never explain yourself to anyone in life (even though I just did but I didn’t want to leave without saying something, If I stayed I would’ve never addressed it).
But anyway, I love you all very, very much, I truly do and I’m so sorry if you’re sad or disappointed in my decision to no longer to KMBW, but I would feel bad if I were to be fake and act like I’m into it when I’m not. If you know me personally you would know I do lose interest in things over time and completely cut it out of my life, but K-Pop stuck with me from 2012-2019 that’s 7 years! The longest I’ve ever been into something even though I slowly started losing interest over time I still was considering myself a K-Pop fan until 2020 officially.
And Black women please uplift one another, we as Black women already get so much hate and disrespect from the world, even from our own people, let’s do better and be better.
Keep K-Poppin’ my loves! Do what makes you happy! Don’t listen to the haters, God is good. I thank all of you for everything and for always defending me, for having my back. I love, love, love you! and you can share this with everyone because I haven’t logged into my other social media in awhile and I’m not planning on posting them elsewhere, just here where it all started.
Oh, and Black Lives Matter :)
Thank you again. I love you, again,
- K-Music And Black Women
- September 2014 – August 2020
