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☆... that's just part of my bad luck ...☆

[99badnature]

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21+ failboywife he/him

memoryloss.neocities.org

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disabled < Ehlers-Danlos ME/CFS >

𖹭: visual art; transformers; vocaloid; hundred line; graphic design; old web; sea life; stickers; journaling; colors

my sideblog i rb what makes me laugh & sometimes use as diary

tags; graphics - fav - cyberlife - disability

[balaclava-trismegistus]

Just saw my doctor type "FUCKED FOR LIFE" on my chart then he turned the screen away and stopped making eye contact with me

[balaclava-trismegistus]

Just saw my doctor type "FUCKED FOR LIFE" on my chart then he turned the screen away and stopped making eye contact with me

[dreg-heap]

We used to make posts about loki on here

[deaddolin]

[ukgk]

☆VOCALOID (+ UTAU) Ukagaka ghosts masterpost☆

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ＫＡＩＴＯ ghost 【 .nar DL 】 shell: 中藤える Miku Hatsune ghost(+another newer Miku ghost called Humanoid PC Hatsune Miku by girlinthemirror :DL) 【DL 】 (2009)

[Uka3D Project] MIKU-san days (animated 3D ghost) developer: MyDimension [DL] (+sailor shell) shell: Lat (MMD) [preview]

Desktop Meiko (animated music player): [DL] developer: haka/八ツ墓 (2009) (no baseware needed)

Adachi Rei ghost (+ extra shell) [DL] developer: NightWork Note: This ghost is a fanwork of "Adachi Rei" by Mechanical Girl LLC (also to add her voice, use AIVOICE in the Tray) (2025)

NIGAITO ghost [DL] developer: tobi s. (杉浦トビ)

Akue Toku & (sir/mr?)Unyu (UTAU/AquesTalk) [DL] (solo ghost DL) developer: h_kazama (fully voiced! Akue Toku is the Ukagaka version of 'Defoko')

Inuhebi (utauloid) [DL] developer: h_kazama (fully voiced! but buggy on the newest ver of SSP)

so many Vocaloid, UTAUloid & fanloid FLELE shells developer/shell author: Ritsu (AtelierCherry) ghost: Sound Player Ghost "FLELE" (passwords can be found here, click ダウンロード under the shell you want. the passwords are just the characters first names written in english. ) note:Ritsu is also the creator and voice provider for the UTAUloid Souga Melo! [preview]

de poche FLELE shells

shell author:vcl.nobody.jp ghost: Sound Player Ghost "FLELE" (has dressup options!) ■ KAITO - de poche ■ Miku - de poche ■ MEIKO - de poche ■ Rin - de poche ■ Len - de poche ■ Luka - de poche

■ "cryptons" shell author:vcl.nobody.jp same as above but you can pair them up!

[hateusandseeifwemind]

We should all be pushing our bodies to prepare for something unknown

[fishyfishyfishtimes]

I made a video about the northern pike :]c

[sorrrowfull]

[99badnature]

they should invent a death without guilt this summer

[sioltach]

They should invent a summer that isn't a lesson

[sioltach]

They should invent a summer that asks the question instead of answers

[99badnature]

i miss my baby

[ducks-unlimited]

[ducks-unlimited]

[ducks-unlimited]

[99badnature]

Very dysfunctional day regressing mental issues has left me thinking maybe I do need therapist again but its gotta be weird, weird one like art therapy , I've lost (however temporary or not) the ability to understand or express inner self which has always been a problem for sure, i can never even identify with any name or nicknames

I am also losing my beloved companion my cat Email soon just due to age complications which has obviously brought on a lot of grief lol. I'm not always suffering it's just this is the only easily accessible diary before bed to try and sort out my troubles. I'm going to open a preorder shop soon for some of my sticker designs (individual vinyl) to help pay for the costs I hope. I've never been able to get much reach on anything, but I'm happy for myself to have even be satisfied enough to try and do it. signing off

[bakedbananners]

dolorem ipsum / "pain itself"

[fawndollie]

Hello!!! Idk if you've already done this but can you do some pink and black blinkies/banners? 💗🖤

i did pastel pink and black for these ones, if you want hot pink and black ones you can check out these posts !! -> one, two

credits:

asking for it lyrics by @legality-graphics !

21, 25, and 27 by @likeymelikeylikeylikey19 !

ame chan by @ivy-vinezz !

perky goth by @phantasmacorn005 !

dividers by @kentuckykitten !

[evergreen-femme]

the thing about trans women is that anyone who isn't one can, at any moment, ideologically dump trans women and jump on the genocide bandwagon. they will, generally, face no social or material repercussions for doing so. the "genocide bandwagon" i mentioned earlier? that's 80%+ of the population who, consciously or otherwise, do not consider trans women to be people.

trans women can't do anything about this. if they try to argue back, they're framed as AMAB freaks wielding their male privilege by the people who are attacking them. it's an unwinnable situation because trans women, as a class, are not capable of oppressing the people who are ideologically dumping them. it's happening in droves in "AFAB queer spaces" by covert TERFs who are literally recruiting them. it's low key incredibly terrifying to see.

Human rights organizations, genocide scholars, and advocates warn that the United States is in the early stages of a genocidal process against transgender people. Experts point to an escalating wave of hostile state legislation, restrictions on gender-affirming care, and public rhetoric aimed at eradicating trans identity from public life.

there was a recent ruling (6 days ago as of my posting this) that states can exclude TRANS WOMEN AND GIRLS SPECIFICALLY from sports teams. this gives LEGAL PRECEDENCE for states to, specifically, discriminate against trans females (in this sense, meaning transsexual women and girls).

i can't write in third person about this anymore because this is terrifying.

we're being sent to men's prisons. those prairieland protestors, including two trans women, got sentenced to 556 total years in prison, essentially life sentences, for "left wing terrorism." in mens prisons we are systematically raped and murdered, including, often times, by the guards.

this shit with the TME qweerz is actively dangerous because its peeling off part of the overall trans community to be used to isolate us. it is an obvious ploy by TERFs to remove the few people who have generally been our allies so that we are more vulnerable. do you think these people don't have think tanks funding these things? they are trying to eliminate trans women from society. the president of the united states has explicitly said such.

if you haven't, read this wikipedia article. there is a concerted effort to funnel all of us into mens prisons where we will be tortured beyond civilian comprehension. please help us.

[snowlilysystem]

one aspect of being transfem that has always been a bit weird to me is how condescending some people can be towards us in the realm of subjects considered feminine. like, thank you for the nice intentions, please analyze why you inherently consider yourself to be more of an authority of makeup and fashion and how boobs work and so on.

and like. "you might not know this, but some people are treated badly because they have periods." why wouldn't i know this? what about me makes you think i wouldn't know and that you have to be the one to tell me?

on occasion it can even be hard to take some compliments about our knowledge and skill, because some people go about it in such a backhanded way. why were you not surprised that the trans man was good at makeup, but you were surprised when it was me? "i didn't know you knew how to actually do it." what about me made you think that my system didn't know? my system, which has been stealthing for years?

in a way, i would describe such behavior as maternalistic. as if i am inherently always new to being femme, and i apparently need someone "more experienced" to teach me. and i have had people be mad at me before, for not seeing them as a form of authority on a fashion subculture that they directly told me they knew very little about.

and i do know that there are people out there, tfems who do need some help. which is part of why i consider this behavior to be so bad, because the advice a lot of these people volunteer to give is not good! i am so tired of people sending me those contour maps, thinking about how good and helpful of a person they are, meanwhile the diagram is meant for someone with a different face shape than me.

people have tried to give us fashion advice and recommended us things that would have just emphasized aspects we are dysphoric about, because generally they're too concerned with the idea of how good of a person they are being to who they consider to be perpetually a gender tourist.

in general: people really need to learn that good intentions does not negate harmful impact, and really look at themselves about the assumptions of knowledge that they have towards anyone transfeminine.

[uboatheflesh]

I always do my own eyebrows, as every time I go to a eyebrow bar place full of cis women they always give me BIG GIANT eyebrows which accentuate precisely what I don't want to accentuate, and insist I look pretty for it - until I go home and immediately shave them smaller. I looked clockier and it made me dysphoric - and it happened numerous times, as they had designed eyebrows with a cis woman's face shape in mind. It reminds me of going to a cis doctor and them trying to convince me injectables - the only form of estrogen I can do which doesn't make me sicker - is going to immediately kill me with DVT, or that progesterone does nothing because of studies on cis women, usually poorly done (or not applicable - pills have the highest clot risk, not injections). Or they try to get me to stop monotherapy and start on antiandrogens that make me sicker. I had a GP lie and make up a study about DVT risk with injectables, leading me to worsen my ME/CFS with added unwanted menopause symptoms - forcing me to find a new GP and causing not only unwanted stress, but additional life-threatening problems (worsening ME, PEM). Us transfems often do our own fashion for the same reason we often are forced to do our own healthcare (even when it is legally available), we're the ones who know our bodies best. We're not the ones getting dysphoric from 'hundosing' or osteoporosis from long term underdosing of estrogen. Condescending benevolence may start with silly eyebrows or stupid dysphoric contouring (I am super pale, only a subtle pink blush works on me) but the same "welcome to womanhood" bullshit can lead to your chronic illness being worsened, or potentially life-threatening and limiting consequences - and some of those cis women are medical professionals. Just like with makeup, they often believe that just because they were born with innate estrogen production they are the sole experts on it, when that same innateness means they never have to do their own research on the difference between valerate or enanthate.