TO SURVIVE

  BETTER  OFF  WITH  A  SWORD  IN  MY  HAND 

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BLAITHYD:

First, there is heavy silence – the weight of it nestled in Dimitri’s chest. His eye only narrows – lips pursing as, at first, he makes the choice of doing nothing. Then, Dimitri breathes in the thick air, and it leaves his lungs wanting. His fingers twitch, and shallow breath leaves through an open mouth – blood hot under his skin. There’s a pressure now, traveled from chest to ribs – squeezing at the bones. The mute anger finds his lungs – never compromising to anyone in spite of wishes and plans.

     “Felix,” Dimitri hisses now through gritted teeth, an uncompromising strain as the weight finally drops to his stomach, “go away.”

The depths of silence grew hollow. As did the animal’s words. Feet were as if planted into the stone tile, resting beneath him; cold and unwavered. Gaze like darts targeted to the back of soggy locks, hunched figure cloaked in tattered fur. Felix was nothing more than an object in his shadow, as moonlight poured from the window before them. Before, he would never make a habit with associating with beasts. Yet, this one had removed it’s sheep’s clothing for all to see the true horror he had once laid eyes upon many moons ago. The true nature lying beneath soft charms and proper speech. It now bared teeth, ready to ravish -- and Felix, stood still a silent deny of the demand spat.

〝 Have you lost your hearing too ?? 〞     A scoff,      〝 I said, I will not. 〞    Words could not have been said any more clearer than that. Sharp as a blade, clean to the cut -- his words never ceased to wound. But, oh -- Felix dared to provoke a monster.    〝 If you’re so keen to my departure. Make me. 〞

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CROCUSBLOOMS​:

@aegisheld​ requested a starter!

She could not recall a time prior to this when swordsmanship had left her feeling envious. But observing this man and his abilities at the training grounds had poked somewhat of a sharp knife into her ego. Hisui was not inept in battle - in fact, her competency with a bow and arrow may leave others feeling jealous - but she had always struggled with combat at shorter ranges.

Her petite frame didn’t help; swinging heavy metal blades often resulted in her body being thrown completely off-balance. 

She ought to be focusing on her own training, but - she supposed - it would not harm to watch for a few seconds longer… perhaps she could even gleam a tactic or two from his performance.

Swings were short, thorough. Eyes caught glimpses of her presence, but since it carried a softness, the distraction was dismissed; but he wondered, questioned, and it cause his mind to stir. Movements were keen to secrecy, tactics used when pryful eyes observed -- judged. Stature did not turn, merely ricocheting off the stone walls,  〝 What do you want ?? 〞

Even though they bounced of the walls in a rubber like manner, speech was sharp like daggers, cutting the tension clean. If one was to make themselves useful, actions needed to be taken. Observing only could get one so far -- an assumption he would place upon his perception of the other. One not too kind.

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PLAYFOUL​:

“Oh, no. There’s nothing I need particularly.” But Felix did intrigue them. There had been something on Yuri’s mind, it was just getting around to asking about it. Yuri’s smile grows wider. “Easy friend, I haven’t come here to antagonise you. Rather… I’ve just been wondering about something.” That is…. “…I’ve seen the way you fight before. It’s rather unique, actually. Perhaps we should spar sometime.”

Consider his interest tugged when the words of sparring crawled out of those soft spoken lips. An eyebrow cocked, pupils would quickly analyze, up and down. No, not much was known to Felix of the other, which made him itching to cross swords. 

〝 Perhaps. 〞   Short, like a dagger, words would fall. Though the held tight to a clinging notion. One where speech gave away some sort of interest in the matter at hand. A consideration.  〝 But, what are you wondering ?? No use beating around a bush with no leaves to hide in.  〞

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TIERVAIN:

Crouching low, he extends his hand out, fingers lightly curling to beckon the figure that stood several feet away. ❝  Here kitty kitty…pspspspsps…  ❞

〝 .....  〞   A moment of silence, please, for the poor hand that dared to extend his direction. For it did not out match the foot of Felix and had been crushed by it’s fury. A shame, really. Something that could’ve been entirely avoided if any sense of common knowledge were to be found in such an empty, vast excuse of a head Sylvain wore upon his shoulders. Those fingers would pleasure no women, no more. Here stood a hero, one they didn’t know they needed. Standing proudly with prey below his feet’s mercy. He might as well had received a standing ovation.

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Rubs my gay hands together. I’m coming for you all this weekend.

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“I’ll cut you down!”

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[tiervain]

remi & fawn r bullies :(

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I said I’d be back today, but give me like weeks.

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he   wears   his   heart   safely   pinned   to   his   backpack   ,  his   backpack   is   all   that   he   knows   .   shot   down   by   strangers   ,   whose   glances   can   cripple   the   heart   &    devour   the   soul   :   all   alone   he   turns   to   stone   -   while   holding   his   breath   half   to   death   !   terrified   of   what’s   inside   -   to   save   his   life   he   crawls   like   a   worm   from   a   bird   .   out   of   his   mind   !   away   !   pushes   him   ,   whispering   ,   must   have   been   out   of   his   mind   !   mid   -   day   delusions   of   pushing   this   out   of   his   head   :   maybe   out   of   his   mind     -     INDEPENDENT   ,   HIGHLY   SELECTIVE   &   PRIVATE   DIMITRI   ALEXANDRE   BLAIDDYD

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My activity is going to be even more scarce. I apologize.

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I’m gonna be blunt. Felix repressing his sexuality, relates a lot to how I grew up and found it hard to associate myself around women because I wasn’t suppose to have feelings for them. I based some of it off of my own experience and it was... extremely hard to write.

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It’s late night headcanons with Remi.

The aggression Felix feels is repressed toxic masculinity. Something Rodrigue had stored in him more intensely after Glenn died. Now, my Felix is bisexual but, he has never told anyone or would come out as so. He leans more towards men, and is very particular when it comes to a woman. And that is where the Tm comes into play when it comes to his feelings. Being told that he has to replenish his families name and is the last hope in the bloodline and crest, leaves a bitter taste in his mouth since he wasn’t told this was his path since birth. So Felix’s feelings are not noted or really cared for by his father, and doesn’t help when Felix addresses men he thinks are attractive. He gives off a mean demeanor. Which is why he doesn’t get along with Rodrigue. Yes, I believe Felix had a crush on his childhood friend Dimitri and Sylvain, but never thought anything of it until his teenage days. But repressed it after Glenn’s passing. With Dimitri, they both were apart of the Rebellion. And when Felix witnessed what Dimitri has become, it broke his trust with him and his heart. It stored fear, instead. Which is why he is more sharp with his words and aggressive when it comes to dimitri. Sylvain never gave Felix a reason to distrust him, if more reason to keep him by his side. Which is why he’s more friendly and easier to talk to with him. But Felix does miss Dimitri, which is shown in their second support. His reminiscing is shown as a weakness and he revolts strictly back into anger — trying to repress even the slightest bit of feelings. But as the year goes on, being in Dimitri’s presence, Felix’s guard steadily goes down and becomes more concerned and keeps a watchful eyes over him. It’s subtle but he says many things about Dimitris’s health. His sleeping and training mostly. Which means he didn’t give up hope and his heart is speaking louder then this head. Which he struggles with throughout the entire game.

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                  ♗            //           FAITH,    unwavering. 

      mercedes von martritz, of fire emblem: three houses.   adored by emily.

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@aegisheld​​​​     /     LET   ME   NERD  ABOUT   LANGUAGES     /     always   accepting   ! ↺         Speak Russian to Felix —

          𝐈𝐓   𝐖𝐀𝐒   𝐀   𝐒𝐎𝐅𝐓   𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆   ,   the   kind   they   never   got   enough   of   .   dimitri’s   arms   around   felix   ,   staring   into   a   bristling   fire   .   silent   .   serene   .   private   .   eyelids   falling   ,   fluttering   open   only   to   close   again   &   maybe   that   was   okay   .   they   were   exhausted   ,   remnants   of   war   forever   resting   heavy   in   their   bones   ,   post   -   war   life   allowing   them   barely   a   moment   to   recover   .   which   was   just   why   dimitri   valued   this   .   cuddling   with   felix   ,   holding   him   close   ,   occasionally   pressing   a   kiss   to   the   back   of   his   head   ,   playing   with   his   hair   ,   squeezing   his   hand   .     ❛❛     kotyo   .     ❜❜     the   language   they   shared   felt   nigh   foreign   on   his   tongue   ,   meetings   with   ambassadors   &   diplomats   &   ministers   held   in   the   common   language   only   .   going   back   to   the   words   they   only   chose   in   private   was   an   intimate   affair   .   (   like   they   still   had   a   secret   &   did   not   wear   matching   rings   .   )   his   left   hand   found   a   resting   place   over   felix’s   hard   ,   feeling   its   steady   rhythm   ,   knowing   his   one   beat   the   same   .     ❛❛     i   love   you   ,   ya lyublyu tyebya   .     ❜❜     another   kiss   ,   to   the   lips   this   time   .   long   .   heated   .   more   private   ,   even   .   broken   off   only   when   dimitri   smiled   into   it   ,   earning   him   a   scowl   from   felix   .     ❛❛     more   than   anything   .     ❜❜

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