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[incorrectlyspn]

So I decided to step into the editing room and make one little change…

[a-fandom-life-for-me]

This was ALL I wanted...

[a-fandom-life-for-me]

+ Star Wars fans

+ Gotham fans

While I loved Endgame as a whole, I am bitter over that ending. It gives me zero hope for Destiel and I’m no longer looking forward to supernatural season 15 as much as I was before. I hope Game of Thrones and Star Wars endings are better.

Still recovering from last weekend with a series finale, season finale, Battle of Winterfell and Endgame all in one whammy of a weekend.

Well… here’s to the end of an era. Two down, three more to go…

[a-fandom-life-for-me]

Update: GOT was even worse…. help me Star Wars and Supernatural, you’re my only hope.

[a-fandom-life-for-me]

Update: probably an unpopular opinion but I loved Rise of Skywalker! It had its flaws and weird plot twists and gaps in the story that would have benefited from a backstory. But overall, it felt like a good conclusion to the story we all know and love. I look forward to seeing where the Star Wars universe takes us from here! Onward now to May and the end of Supernatural….

[a-fandom-life-for-me]

Final update... I had such high hopes for SPN. Beyond devastated. This is my last post, I’ll be deactivating this account soon. Thanks for the fun memories, conversations and endless enjoyment from your fics and art! Carry on and keep creating.

[a-fandom-life-for-me]

What I kinda wish was added in there as another callback but I loved Cas’ beautiful confession 💔

[orionsangel86]

Hey, as someone who is a fan of the show but new to Destiel, are there any episodes you could recommend? I’ve seen you mention season 12 as a stand out season?

Hey! Ooooh exciting! Okay so for a fully rounded Destiel experience you have to watch the following:

4x01 - Obviously. Castiel’s introduction is key.

4x07 - The conversation on the park bench is another key moment

4x10 - The first time the Gay piqued my interest because Castiel’s glare at Anna when Dean kisses her is legendary

4x16 - Honestly its just hands down one of the best episodes in the entire show.

4x20 - If nothing more than for the obvious LACK of sexual tension between Dean and Jimmy Novak

4x22 - Because Cas chooses Dean.

5x03 - Because DUH

5x04 - Just pay attention to everything Endverse!Cas does.

5x18 - “Last time someone looked at me like that, I got laid” *wink*

6x03 - “Dean and I do share a more profound bond.”

6x20 - Probably the most epic of all the Destiel episodes

7x17 - Castiel’s amnesic return is straight out of a love story.

8x02 - What happens in Purgatory stays in Purgatory

8x07 - WHAT HAPPENS IN PURGATORY STAYS IN PURGATORY

8x08 - Cas is gonna be a hunter! 

8x17 - “Cas, we’re family, we need you, I need you…”

8x22 - “You don’t understand, I NEED PIE!”

8x23 - “So this is it? E.T. goes home?” (and a cupid strikes two burley macho men in love)

9x03 - Push past the gross stuff. Dean’s despair at Cas’s death is worth it.

9x06 - EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS ROMANTIC ANGSTFEST

9x09 - Human!Cas gets drunk and flirts with Dean.

9x10 - Angel’d up Cas goes on a road trip with his lover and love rival. Dean is so loved up he thinks that atrocious new coat looks good.

9x18 - Okay so Metatron carries the Destiel torch here but EVERYTHING HE SAYS IS WORTH IT

9x22 - “He’s in love… with humanity

9x23 - “You draped yourself in the flag of heaven, but it was all about saving one man.”

10x01 - “I miss him” (whilst lying naked on a plaid covered bed)

10x03 - “You look terrible” “Well you, you look good” (Seriously that end scene in Dean’s room was so intimate I DIED)

10x05 - Just - give it a chance. The Destiel is played SO differently to the W*ncest. It is clearly treated more seriously and Dean’s reaction to Sam’s joking is BRILLIANT.

10x09 - THE LUNCH DATE

10x14 - Its just a REALLY good episode okay

10x16 - Okay so don’t watch the whole episode, just go on youtube and look up Dean’s confession. It is SO revealing and watching it for the first time had me in shock. I am still pissed off that this wasn’t picked up by the mainstream as a bigger deal. He basically admitted he was bisexual and wanted to try new things with certain people. 

10x20 - Dean and Cas co-parenting Claire was a delight.

10x22 - The reverse Crypt Scene with all its romantic coding and Cas pledging himself to Dean for all of eternity.

11x03 - Just for Dean wrapping Cas in a blanket and being so concerned about his boo.

(Note: Season 11 isn’t really full of actual Destiel moments, as there was a change in this season where Dean and Castiel’s story became fully ingrained in the narrative structure of the Season. Because of this they were separated the way star crossed lovers are and an active driving force was getting Castiel back. It’s worth watching the full season to pick up on this story.)

11x11 - Is a brilliant episode and well worth watching for the interactions between Dean and Casifer.

11x18 - “Cas! CAS! CAAAAS!” “CaAAaass” You MUST watch this one.

11x19 - Not for Destiel, but for the various subtextual implications of the episode. Jesse and Cesar are basically mirrors for Dean and Cas in a idealistic endgame setting. This is what we mean when we talk about potential endgame foundations being built in Dabb era.

11x22 - Purely for the fact that Amara literally locates Dean by using Cas’s heart.

12x01 - Introducing the boyfriend to the mother is always awkward :P

12x09 - For Castiel’s heartfelt speech about the Winchesters

12x10 - Just this whole episode is about Angels and Love and Dean is Castiels “human weakness”. Its just a masterpiece.

12x12 - Castiels confession. “I love you. I love all of you.” It was brilliant.

12x19 - One of the all time best Destiel episodes. The MIXTAPE, the intimate bedroom conversation, the “He took it from under my pillow” and all the implications behind THAT. The pushing against the wall, the heartbreak as Cas is brainwashed and walks away… URGH. Just its so good. 

12x23 - For that “NO!” at the end and Dean falling to his knees. Yes it is SO PAINFUL but OMG it was EVERYTHING.

13x01 - One of MY all time favourite episodes. I always cry. The angst, the EMOTION. Dean’s grief is just GUTTING. He wraps Cas’s body like a widow in mourning. the way he calls Cas his everything… This episode KILLED ME a thousand times over and continues to do so every time I watch it. 

13x03 - Dean snapping and screaming at Sam that he can’t get over Cas’s death is so intense that it causes Jack to reach through the veil of death and wake Cas up - thus saving the day :P

13x04 - “I have tiptoed through all your little tulips. I know what you hate, I know who you love, what you fear.”

13x05 - “It’s never too late to start all over again” the romantic turn around reveal! ARGH the romance was more intense than any other romantic film I have ever seen. If it was heterosexual I would have gagged so hard I’d have thrown up my dinner.

13x06 - CAN WE SAY BROKEBACKNATURAL? “he’s an angry sleeper. Like a bear” “I’m your Huckleberry” “It’s good to have you back Cas.”

13x14 - The whole married couple scene with Gog and Magog. Plus Castiel’s brutality towards Donatello when he tried to hurt Dean.

14x01 - “Joined at the Everything” and Cas’s determination to do anything to find Dean.

14x03 - the reunion, the sweeping romantic music specifically placed for Dean and Cas. Pfft.

14x08 - Again whilst not a Destiel episode exactly, the key component of Cas’s deal with the Empty Entity is that his happiness is tied to his doom. This is an inherently romantic story line.

14x10 - Dean’s dream world with heavily coded romantic desire especially in the song, and in Pamela. Cas appealing to Dean’s emotions compared to Sam appealing with well known code words.

14x12 - Doctor Cas! “So this is goodbye?” before Moosus Interruptus gets in the way. :P

14x14 - Dean and Cas as a united front. Always side by side like hunter husbands. the foreshadowing of the Death kiss and both of them dropping to the floor, plus the whole “maybe you’re not his type” and grumpy husband flirting. 

14x15 - Just watch because the whole episode is perfect and Cas is heavily coded as queer and it just WORKS and the opening conversation is just soft husbands and co-parents Destiel PLUS the mirror fight scene to 10x22 which displays the clear difference between the two scenes. Again. Perfect episode.

The season 12/13 escalation is a must if you are looking for practically textual Destiel. The episodes listed above in those seasons (from 12x09 to 13x06) are a lesson in building Destiel for the general audience. Since then they have not quite hit the breaks, but they have come off the throttle a lot. Instead we are getting little clues and morsels of information in practically every episode which confirms that at this point:

Castiel is living in the bunker with the boys

Castiel and Dean have movie nights together

Castiel and Dean call and text each other regularly between cases (privately away from Sam and Jack and anyone else)

Castiel invites himself into Dean’s room early in the mornings (probably before Dean is even awake) to update him on his whereabouts.

Castiel knows what Dean is like first thing in the morning - having woken him up before (he’s like a bear).

These kinds of things would have been practically unheard of pre Dabb era. Dean and Cas are already basically a married couple, currently co-parenting a Nephlim (with Sam). 

So a lot of people tend to moan that we aren’t seeing Dean and Cas interact as much as we used to, that the sexual tension isn’t there anymore, and all that. But I don’t see that. What I see is a progression of their relationship towards the domestic. It’s actually really lovely. When you compare fanfiction written now to fanfiction written in Season 4/5, its always practically pretty much already established married Destiel, or its very little effort to push them into romance when canon has already brought them so close. 

So I’m sorry that this isn’t just a short list, but its very difficult to condense Destiel into a few episodes when it is something that has been built into the foundations of this show since season 4. Destiel has always been a part of the show.

You can’t create the greatest love story ever told in a few short episodes. This is an epic dramatic love story spanning 10 years. It’s astounding when you really step back and look at it. If you are pressed for time, at least watch the episodes in bold, but really, for a true Destiel experience, you just need to watch the show. 

[inacatastrophicmind]

[charlie-minion]

THE GREATEST LOVE STORY EVER TOLD

[shipperofdarkness]

THE GREATEST LOVE STORY EVER TOLD

[a-fandom-life-for-me]

Ouch

[subcas]

agent beyoncé

[a-fandom-life-for-me]

My manip but not my photos

[a-fandom-life-for-me]

My manips but NOT my photos

[chaosmisha]

SUPPORT OUR BOYS

Hey psssst….Take it home people, round it up. Put down the pitchforks, even if it’s just for one day. Forget about ships and your hatred for other parts of the fandom. For one day, let’s come together, and be the fandom we intended to be. 

The last couple of weeks have been a mess on social media. And we often forget that when we bash on a show or person, our favorite actors/show/crew become collateral damage. They deserve so much better after 15 years of giving themselves to us and enduring long hours, hard work and crazy fans. 

Let’s give our boys the love they deserve!

Flood twitter with kindness! No hate!

Use the following hashtags: #spn #supernatural #spnfamily #supernaturalforever

Don’t forget to tag your favorite cast and crew members!

Show them we are grateful. Show them we love them. 

[rozanovnas]

Baby’s

Don’t look at me I’m so fucking emo

I want this for Dean so bad

Pairing: Dean/Cas

Words: 1079

Dean never realized how much cleaning went into owning a bar.

He’s spent a lot of time in bars, and more often than not they’re greasy, crusty, smell like cigarette smoke and sweat and stale beer.  But not his place.  Nah, Baby’s is gonna be clean, with one of the shiny bars you always see in movies, with a ton of beers on tap.  It’s a place he’s always dreamed of, obviously, since Michael stuck him there when he was in control, but he tries not to think about that.  Those memories were hazy anyway.

He found this place by accident, maybe the last of Chuck’s luck, maybe the universe throwing him a bone.  (He has saved it a few times, after all).  The place is perfect, right in the middle of Texas, so he has the blazing summers to look forward to, but he can do without the winters in Kansas, so it’s a fair enough trade.

It’s an honest to god roadhouse, the perfect mix of bar and home, especially with the apartment situated above it.  The whole place needs some serious TLC, but he doesn’t mind.  For the first time in his life, he doesn’t have anywhere else to be.

He fixes up the little garage first, taking the tools he had scrounged from the bunker and from his own supply when he left and storing them carefully in the backseat when he leaves for the last time, taking a long look in the rearview before he matches Sam and Eileen’s tire tracks and turns the opposite direction.  He strips the wood, sands it, clears it of debris and weeds and trash, spends his first days at the new place outside in the sun, listening to his favorite songs on Spotify from his phone.

Finally, after five days, his first of many projects is done.  The garage is fit for a queen, which is, well, perfect really.  Dean parks the Impala and covers her carefully in a sheet.  She’s finally semi-retired.

He heads inside, hoping against hope that the pipes wouldn’t rust out on him and he can get a good shower.

“How’s it look?” Cas looks up from his place at the bar, where he’s in a ratty t shirt that’s already covered in wood stain, scrubbing the bar with so much vigor that Dean is kinda scared it’ll snap in half.

“It’s done.  She’s parked.”

Cas smiles at him, and Dean can’t help but return it with everything he has. 

He had thought, maybe, that Cas would want to go out on his own, being human and everything now.  Looking back, that was kind of stupid, but Dean had felt like he was twenty pounds lighter when Cas had slid into the passenger seat of the Impala saying nothing but,

“Where to?”

They spend the next six months fixing the place up from seam to seam, from the rotted floors to the dingy bathroom, to the apartment upstairs.  With their sweat and blood and ten thousand trips to Home Depot, they make the place into something that has only ever lived in Dean’s dreams.

And as they clean and repair and replace and build, that thing that he had always tried his best to force into the lowest, darkest part of himself.  That thing with Cas.  That was allowed to grow.  It was more natural than anything else.  More natural to lean over a beer and kiss Cas than it was to start the engine of the Impala.  Something that was a given, never to be questioned again.

“What’s the name?” Sam asks over the phone one Sunday morning, while Dean organizes their first ever liquor shipment and Cas tries to figure out how to put a tap together.

“I was thinking Baby’s.”

“For the Impala?” he can hear Sam’s smirk through the phone.

“Yeah…and for Dirty Dancing too.”

One last homage to Lee, even after everything.

“Wow, chick flick king over here,” Sam laughs, “Well, Eileen and I found a great little place up in Montana, you and Cas should come visit when you get a break.”

“We won’t ever get a break,” Cas cuts in, rolling his eyes and huffing in frustration, “He’s already got us working eighteen hour days.”

“What can I say, I’m a business owner now,” Dean winks at Cas, who’s mouth lifts at the flirtation.

“Well whatever, you should come see the place when you get the chance.”

“Will do Sammy.  I’ll talk to you next week.”

“Sure thing, bye man, bye Cas.”

Dean doesn’t really expect much business.  They are a little…off the beaten path, but they’re close enough to a small town that they get a few curious locals who quickly become their regulars.  And those regulars bring in people who bring in people who make Dean and Cas busier than they ever were as hunters. 

Dean’s crowning achievement is the purple neon sign, with pink and deep blue accents, that they set up above the place.  Baby’s.  His place.  He swells with pride every time he looks at it, and doesn’t even complain when Cas makes them switch sides of the bed because it bothers his eyes at four in the morning.

They have to hire two more bartenders in six months, and Dean suddenly feels like a real owner.  He loves playing bartender and slinging drinks much more than the boring paperwork, but Cas helps him with that.  They’ve always made a great team.

Dean feels like he spends most of his free time cleaning now.  If he was downstairs, he was always armed with a bottle of disinfectant spray and a dishrag.  Cas calls him a germaphobe.  Dean says he’s not and then kisses Cas to prove it.  Cas just shakes his head and goes back to wiping glasses.

Dean doesn’t realize it until about a year in, but he looks around at the bustling place, with pool tables and foosball and classic arcade games that Dean bought for a song and fixed up himself, with the line of craft beers he’d always wanted, with Cas by his side, throwing his head back at a joke one of the regulars is telling, Dean realizes that he might be really, truly happy for the first time in his life.

And it was all down to a roadhouse.

Dean finally gets the piece of Heaven he’s always deserved.  Funny enough, maybe fitting enough, it just happened to be here on earth the whole time.

[a-fandom-life-for-me]

I love this so much

[jarpadandjensens]

jensen insta story   (ᗒᗩᗕ)

[a-fandom-life-for-me]

🥺🥺🥺

[notwithd]

How does it feel to kiss an Angel?

[verobatto]

Bshdjdjddjdjdjdjdjfjfk

I love it! 😚

[bahtmun-deactivated20240623]

(November 29, 1976 – August 28, 2020)

[cosmicwavelength]

WIP - Don’t Say Goodbye

The trailer got me fucked up.

[verobatto]

Angsty kiss oh yes gimme… Beautiful 💙💚

[a-fandom-life-for-me]

I can’t with that trailer... but this art is everything

[petite-madame]

“A well-deserved night at the diner” (Castiel) - 2020 🍔🥗

“Don’t worry guys: I ordered a drink so that people think everything is absolutely normal”

Third artwork in the series “A well-deserved night at the diner”. Sam and Dean can be found HERE.

[a-fandom-life-for-me]

My favorite

[stuckytilltheendoftheline]

I had to.

Source: mattjcutshall

[a-fandom-life-for-me]

🤣🤣🤣

[aphony-cree]

If Covid happened in the Supernatural universe and hunters were having to shelter in place in their ramshackle houses in the middle of nowhere, do you think they’d start summoning demons just for the company?

Demon “How dare you summon me here, human!” Hunter “Want to play poker?” Demon “Yeah sure. 5 card stud, jokers are wild”