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[a-madd-world]

started worrying about college apps and instead of studying, I spent 2 hours pacing around my house imagining parame talking at my graduation party about how i overcame my MD to graduate and get my life together 🥲🥲🥲

rip buddy

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Want to try something new? Try Maladaptive Daydreaming!!!

It's the best way to spend your time when you're alone with your own thoughts!

It has a lot of amazing benefits, including!:

Wasting between a quarter and a half of your day daydreaming instead of doing useful stuff!

Pacing around your room like a caged animal until you feel dizzy and your legs hurt!

Jumping, running or doing sudden movements in the most intense moments that can lead to you accidentally hurting yourself in the furniture from running straight into it!

Making the same faces as the characters to visualize them better in your head!

Daydreaming in public, including the weird movements and faces, and hoping nobody saw you!

Making yourself happy, sad, angry or panicked just by daydreaming something as vividly as possible!

Dropping whatever you were doing just to daydream! Washing yourself? Doing your homework? Paying attention in class? Drawing? No!! Your daydream is more important!!

Imagining yourself as the-nobody-who-turned-into-a-hero-and-is-admired-by-everyone because no one cares about you irl!

Having multiple storylines with the same characters and alternating between them while you try to find the best one to keep!

Stopping the fictional daydream you've worked for almost half of your life just because a furry anime that came out recently has almost the same plot as your daydreams, and feeling like you're stealing their idea!

Switching your daydreams from a fictional world with fictional characters to using real life people!

Daydreaming about situations that have a close to zero chance of happening, and obsessing over them happening!

And if they can happen irl, daydreaming about them until you actually do them!!

Daydreaming about people you'll never meet, and I don't mean only celebrities!

Obsessively daydreaming about said people as a coping mechanism that you'll never meet them in real life!!

Slightly altering your daydream after you find something new about those people, which conflicts with the current storyline!

Having dramatic daydreams about what someone might say and what you'll answer and how you'll feel, only to get an underwhelming answer irl!

Imagining THE worst scenario if something bad happens to someone and you know about it only vaguely, and seeing it so clearly in your head that you panic because you don't know what's actually happening to them irl!

Taking the "thinking about what you could've said in an argument" to the next level and preparing yourself in case one happens based on vague hints that it might happen!

Daydreaming so much about an idea and for a longer period of time, "waking up" and being sad that the daydream wasn't real even though you knew it wasn't real from the get-go!

And this is only my experience! Yours could be completely different! Maybe even better than mine!!

Experts recommend starting it as early as possible, preferably in kindergarten!! So you can daydream for as long as this short life allows you!!

Soon enough you won't want to live in this boring "real" life anymore!

[dearpacificday]

okay MADDers and IDers i have a question. when you daydream, do you do so with your eyes open or closed?

[skiaismadd]

do u ever daydream and then u need to pee or get a drink and then it takes u out of the immersion like yes i’m peeing half way through a traumatic murder

[a-madd-world]

college anon again: I’m actually on the bottom floor so I’ve realized pacing is fine (I was worried abt annoying people under me) and I haven’t quite figured out the noise level but I live like at the end of my hall so no one really walks all the way down to by my door anyway and I know it’s not loud enough for like the whole hall to hear so I know I’m fine! thank you though :)

Ayye nice! I hope college goes well for you! Have fun!

[a-madd-world]

have you ever like sat down and thought like “wow ive really wasted all this time daydreaming about my carefully constructed world/how weird that I constantly imagined these exact characters and these exact scenarios over and over” because I just did (I’ve been busy w settling into college dorms and classes so I haven’t had my usual experience of listening to music and pacing around all fucking day and night) and I’ve made myself so fucking anxious??

Oh yeah all the time. I calculated how much time (at the minimum) I've spent daydreaming and dear god did it smack me in the face. I've wasted years of my life. All I can do about it is ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[a-madd-world]

hi I’m going to college soon and like many people, I’m nervous about dealing with madd while there 😭 I was fortunate enough to get a single dorm, so I’m just wondering if you or anyone else knows how much noise I can make without bothering other people? I tend to pace a lot while listening to music and I’m worried that my footsteps might be too loud and bother people :/

I mean, if anyone asks you can just say you're exercising? As for the noise levels... I have no clue.

Anyone who's lived in college dorms have an answer?

[daydream-ideas]

do you ever just….there are so many paras

[amateur-madder]

Why must I do things, is it not enough for me to just daydream all day?

[teacoffeemadd]

My only joy

~ found this on twt

[celestialmadd]

"my child is fine" your child spends hours per day pacing around their room and imagining themselves in a made-up world to escape reality

[mandalor-the-gay]

“Fuck you my child is completely fine” Your child is staring at the ceiling for 5 hours straight imagining getting the barest hint of affection from their comfort character.

[lauratraseylikepaccoons]

"You are so quiet" bro i daydream 80% of my time

[fallingmaddlyinlove]

Me starting over a daydream scene because I thought about it for too long

[aislingean]

Does anyone else regularly have fairly dark daydreams? Like a lot of my daydreams involve someone getting hurt in some way

And they always end up getting love and care in the end but idk if I should be worried about the amount of violence in my daydreams ndksks

[daydream-ideas]

Daydream about being hugged around the waist.

[inhum3n]

Welcome back to me being bitter that Maladaptive daydreaming disorder is thing literally no one knows about. I mean we know about it, but like people without MaDD. Yeah very slim chance.

I’ve been thinking about this and how much MaDD affects my behavior. Which it does to a great extent. It affects all domains of my life, so for my family and friends to not know about it is for them to lack a vital piece of information needed to understand how I work. And ya know, its sad. And frustrating. Because I feel like there are so many situations and problems and struggles that involve my daydreaming. But because no one knows about the daydreaming, I cannot be adequately understood. And since I can’t be understood I am isolated. I am unable to share the unique struggles that come along with this. Don’t you see? How am I supposed to tell them those things?  The feeling like shit when I come out of a daydream because not only have I wasted time but I know my life can’t ever measure up to the worlds inside my head. That I cannot accomplish those things in my mind. Coming out feeling like the world is shallow and meaningless, when everything in my mind has so much meaning, depth, and emotions.  How do I tell them that I struggle to express myself so instead I go to an alternate world to say all things I wanted to say, do all the things I wanted to do, to grasp and find emotions and experiences that make me feel so intensely. How do I tell them that sometimes I miss my paras, or explain the connection to some of them. Even though not always perfect they are intricate and in depth, and when I imagine them holding me I can almost feel it on my own skin. How do I explain my struggles, insecurities, sexuality, gender identity, since the daydreaming play such strong roles in all of those and more.  How do I explain to them that sometimes my body feels useless and foreign, a fleshy cage. How I struggle at times to physically take care of myself because I’m sucked in somewhere else. How those photos and video recordings of me fascinate me because I feel no connection to the person they caught, because the camera can’t catch my daydreams and without them I am unfinished. Or what about the dread and fear that I will wake one day old, alone, with an unremarkable life because I lived out my dreams in my head. The vicious cycle of wanting to stop, failing, and falling back into daydreams to avoid the feeling of failure. The numbing affect of MaDD. How I feel so fucking shitty about it and whenever I feel fucking shitty about the actual world I just run away there. Or the suffocating feeling that you’ll always be like this. Taking your baggage and running off to that little world in my mind instead of talking about it. How its so hard to understand what I want as a physical person instead of what my parame does. The loss and confusion of identity. There’s so much but how I can tell you any of this since you don’t know what it is and I am too tired and ashamed to tell you.