Things that are on my mind lately
Little one needs a big girl bed - $800 ( Bunk bed from BOB’s )
Only 3 thing have come off the baby registry - Whats my other half going to help with from the thing that are on the list? Most likely nothing because I’ll want more for her then what he’ll want....
To have a Bed frame to easily get my ass out of bed definitely needed once I have my C- Section! Not like I didn’t have one but Apparently it wasn't good enough for us to have “ We’ll get another one in the next place “ Some nights, are worst then others but most nights I cry myself to sleep out of fear and physical pain just to get out of bed....
Want to put my oldest in hockey! Got a little advice that I should get her in a “how to skate” class as a really good start for that! If that’s to expensive fore me to pay on my own ill look into gymnastics/dance something outside of the house where there is structure and instructions to fallow by another adult other then family. Help her learn and grow.....
Having to pay for two daycare’s tuition once this baby comes for another year and if its all going to be on me to do so because why would i have help with that.....
Not time as a family- Feeling like we cant do anything “fun” because “we don’t have money” but in reality we would if it wasn’t spent on fucking butt, weed and his fucking hidden pill walk/runs that he thinks hes being sneaky about.
The lack of sleep I’m getting when i should be able to sleep as much as possible before this beautiful baby comes is NEVER going to happen. I know once im done breast feeding going back to drinking espresso will be my everyday norm that i should probably invest in one!
Wondering if ill be able to treat the poor feet of mine before this baby girl comes, Have my house cleaned and organized with all the stuff that is still in boxes put away, My little big girls room reorganized so that way when its time for her big girl bed wont have to move anything around then again, that we’ll have a space for all of the baby bottles and foods that comes with er when its time, Maybe a sofa that will fit all of my family on it, help with cleaning and help with my first not having her father pushing her to the edge of crying complaining, helpl changing new baby’s diapers, hoping for a good milk supply, hoping for cool weather so that i cn go for walks