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Immigrants

1. Fugitive operations typically  execute administrative warrants and ARE NOT ALLOWED TO ENTER A RESIDENTS UNLESS GIVEN PERMISSION 

2.ICE officers are trained to IDENTIFY THEMSELVES AS ‘ POLICE ‘ unless specifically asked by the individual with whom they are engaging 

[a-momlife2]

This Baby

this baby’s movements haven’t been the most active and its freaking me out! i know its normal as i come to the last 9 weeks of this pregnancy, but still a little freaky! With my first one she didn’t stop moving (Ever)!  Even to thsi my first one doesn’t stop moving when her eyes are opened. Thankful she’s a good sleeper, Has been a good eater too! such a happy and great baby as she grew!! Miles stones were crushed by her, and was away ahead They say every child is different. Let me tell you the cravings with this child have been so... Well vinegar (I fucking hated vinegar!!) Ice like a crazy pregnant women! (5lb bag gone in 5hrs!)  Maybe she’ll be a relaxed baby LMAO 😂

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Things that are on my mind lately 

Little one needs a big girl bed  - $800 ( Bunk bed from BOB’s ) 

Only 3 thing have come off the baby registry - Whats my other half going to help with from the thing that are on the list? Most likely nothing because I’ll want more for her then what he’ll want....

To have a Bed frame to easily get my ass out of bed definitely needed once I have my C- Section! Not like I didn’t have one but Apparently it wasn't good enough for us to have “ We’ll get another one in the next place “ Some nights, are worst then others but most nights I cry myself to sleep out of fear and physical pain just to get out of bed....

Want to put my oldest in hockey! Got a little advice that I should get her in a “how to skate” class as a really good start for that!  If that’s to expensive fore me to pay on my own ill look into gymnastics/dance something outside of the house where there is structure and instructions to fallow by another adult other then family. Help her learn and grow.....

Having to pay for two daycare’s tuition once this baby comes for another year and if its all going to be on me to do so because why would i have help with that.....

Not time as a family- Feeling like we cant do anything “fun” because “we don’t have money” but in reality we would if it wasn’t spent on fucking butt, weed and his fucking hidden pill walk/runs that he thinks hes being sneaky about.

The lack of sleep I’m getting when i should be able to sleep as much as possible before this beautiful baby comes is NEVER going to happen. I know once im done breast feeding going back to drinking espresso will be my everyday norm that i should probably invest in one!

Wondering if ill be able to treat the poor feet of mine before this baby girl comes, Have my house cleaned and organized with all the stuff that is still in boxes put away, My little big girls room reorganized so that way when its time for her big girl bed wont have to move anything around then again, that we’ll have a space for all of the baby bottles and foods that comes with er when its time, Maybe a sofa that will fit all of my family on it, help with cleaning and help with my first not having her father pushing her to the edge of crying complaining, helpl changing new baby’s diapers, hoping for a good milk supply, hoping for cool weather so that i cn go for walks 

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29 weeks 10 more to go!! ( 1 of the very few photos i have of me and a belly )

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Nursery

Babies room is slowly coming together! today I picked up a new dresser that has a top that folds open to a changing table and four nice sized draws (My MIL got one for us that was free off FB marketplace that attached to a bed frame that we don’t have or wanted and three tiny draws that barely open) this one is solid wood that can be sanded and painted but that prob wont happen till room is all set up so i can match it to a color out of her bedding. Today my friend dropped off the cutest announcement sign and baby growth blanket. I’m thinking of having our oldest holding the baby announcement board to have her be part of the birth that the can both have once they are older to and want to see photo's

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I support this child

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My❤️melts

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Ideas for big sister baby sister photos 😍😍

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Week 7/5 - 7/11

This week has been a good one!

My Little one is back in daycare and loving it! trying to get her to talk about her day so she knows what normal conversation is like.... ( growing up we didnt really talk about our days was more of an interrogation, or at least thats how it felt to me from what I can remember) So I start with how was your day at school and I ush gt a sassy little response with a neck crank and huge smile. Sometimes I think its to much from her but I have to remind myself she is has to become who she is going to be and I need to encourage her, water her and let her grow. When I ask questions like what did you do today she respond with a “ I don’t remember’ or “I don’t know” So I’ve had to start asking different questions to know how her day went or what she did.         Who was your teacher today? Were you upstairs or downstairs? Did you get to play in house corner? Who did you sit with when you eat lunch?       After a couple of questions she’ll explain more then i asked and those moments are the o

nes that warm my heart! I want her to feel like she is safe to open up to me. Feel like she is heard, and not judged for what she says or shamed. Right now its the little things that i know will shape her as she grows including our our relationship. My little one has always done and gone anywhere I have and I want her to feel like shes always welcomed ( Unless its a movie that might haunt her in her sleep) 

I started back at work this week just for 2/5 of my work days. Has been so nice to see friendly faces, Seeing how in office work flow is going. I’m happy to not be rooming but at the same time I see how much my co workers are struggling to get everyone on but so short staffed. I’m basically helping the PSS’S or calling to make sure pt’s are roomed virtually. Getting more steps in per day by going back to work and by the end of those nights my feel feel like they are going to fall off. Feels fun to meal prep ( For two days LMAO )  

I also got  new OBGYN this week and let me tell you he is absolutely amazing!! He answered every single question I asked without a blink. Asked about when i wanted to scheduled my C-Section ( I had only been asking my last OB for a month how and when we would go about it without any answers along with trying to get a breast pump from insurance ) At work there is this lady who manganese check in waited for me to get out of my car to tell me that i needed to move it ( Mind you my drive from home to work is a 20 min drive without any AC, then where employees are to park is another 3/5min walk in the heat carrying my water and lunch a purse and of course my starbucks for the day) So i asked my new OB if he wouldn't mind typing me out a letter that states i can park a little closer, AND HE DID ( I fucking love him! ) All I could think after the check in manager watched me parked in a non employee parking yelling DR’s ORDERS BITCHHHHHH. They had me step on the scale and i notice ive gone way up in weight so i had to tell him if i need to start watching what I eat or anything like that he will have to be the one to tell me because i wont listen to anyone but my Dr. he chuckled a little and asked what my preprego weight was and I told him then asked if I saw my weight from today I told him i had and told him what it was. He thought for a second and said no your fine. I told him again I’m not going to listen to anyone unless you tell me so tell me if i need to! Then he asked me what i have for snacks throughout the day and i told him ( I eat a LOT of carbs right now )so he said start cutting carbs out at snack time and cut back fruits because of sugar content. SOOOOOO that will  be something I start doing as of 7/11/2020  ( and no I’m not stuffing my face now with them - all though i do wish i was! )  so look for those updates 

I hope that everyone has a wonderful weekend and are staying cool if you can!!

[a-momlife2]

Ever feel so unimportant in your significant other life?

I do.... But I love him.

Sometimes I feel like when I talk it has no meaning or worth and its usually about the same couple topics that get to me. I try to share my dreams and ambitions and sometimes they are revived and the other half is shutting my dreams down. 

I know I’m not the easiest person to love, and half of that is how i was raised and need to work on it. I can own that, I’m not someone to constantly praised or say thank you for the things that should be done in a home...

Thank you for taking out the trash and recycling...

Thank you for doing the dishes...

Thank you for vacuuming...

Thank you for giving our child a shower...

Thank you for closing the door since the air conditioner is on...

Thank you for sweeping...

Thank you for going to grocery store to grab food...

Nor do i expect to be thanked for those things. I live in this home I see they need to and should be done and just do them ( Side note i rarely take out the trash or recycling )  Am I tiered of doing the other things on a daily. 100% yes! Its as if just because i am working from home with a toddler they should be done because I‘m home like I’m not doing anything else - Entertain out toddler, peeing 73X a day as our baby sits on my bladder an I’m trying to stay hydrated. Making calls to my patients to set up their Video Visits with their provider. Wiping our child’s ass for the 4th time after shitting.Looking at time to start making lunch fr him and out little one so we can eat together.

I’m Hoping some of these things will change as our Little one started back at day care 3X a week and I’ll be in office 2X a week. Or I’ll be working just as hard to keep up in the house since i wont be home as many days then I use to be.( Yay - FUCKING GREAT

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focus on the good 💫

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[a-momlife2]

Feels

Some times my feelings are to much to handle 

Better then not having feelings at all

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So sick of being unhappy but I know i will never live the life I dream of or even get close to what I could have, and why not because I choose to have you instead. To keep our family a whole family not missing a piece of it or one that’s misplaced into a different puzzle that it probably fit into. 

I wish we could fly like we should be but I’ve come to just accept that we’ll never be established, driving cars we will own because they are second hand, Always have to get down on my hands and knees to clean something even when 6 months pregnant because you wont, but will gladly clean someone else’s slider without a blink. 

6 months of being pregnant and still worrying about rent being paid on time  and being told that I’m an asshole, Moody, psycho, crazy and to just mind my own business like its not. Feeling like all those things are true because I can’t stand strong and do whats needed o be done but I’m also not going to fight with a grown ManChild. What’s even worst is that I don’t feel like i can share this with anyone who wouldn’t Judge him or myself ( I’m currently looking for a specialist to see )  

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MUTE

Guys I literally just want to become a mute! Its as if everything and anything that comes out of my mouth isn’t good, nice or kind to everyone and anything. I just am gonna become a money bank and when ever someone ask me for money I’m jut gonna hand it out like nothing

Least that what people see on my forehead