I really hate when people ask me when I want kids and how many. Like why has that been a topic of discussion since I myself was literally a child.
People have always asked if I wanted kids but would get offended if I said no, as if there's only one true answer but then why ask the question?
If I said no, they would say wait till you're older- you'll change your mind. I have changed my mind on things in the past. And even if I do choose to raise kids in the future, I will never ever ever give birth. I have always been adamant on this, and I have always been an advocate for people looking into adopting or fostering.
It angers me that I have to specify that if I did have kids I would adopt or foster. Having children should not mean biologically producing your own offspring but people act like it does, and like it's a failure to not have or want "kids of your own".
It upsets me that I have to justify not wanting to birth or raise kids with "maybe I'll adopt" to appease people.
I've always been good around kids, kids can be highly entertaining, I like kids. This does not necessarily mean that I want kids of my own, but people perpetually draw this conclusion.
I have the utmost respect for parents and for birth givers. It is an extremely difficult responsibility. I condemn them in no way. I don't think I am strong enough to do that, or willing enough to try.
But why do people (primarily those with children) persist in the 'innate desire for bearing offspring or raising a family' to people who are unable or unwilling. Surely you do not want children to grow up with absent, regretful, or resentful parents/families- no one deserves that. Now this is not everyone, but it's enough to commonly and thoroughly annoy me.
I want to tell people considering progressing my tertiary education into teaching is enough exposure to kids to know that I don't want them. Not to mention that too many people have kids for selfish reasons or 'just because', or 'because it's the right thing to do', and the world is overpopulated as it is.
I want to tell people that in my study of the hormonal functions of pregnancy and birth and my knowledge of biology, and simply hearing about other people's experiences, pregnancy and birth do not sound magical or miraculous to me- it's body horror. And I don't say this as an insult to people who have undergone pregnancy and birth- it is an extremely brave thing to do and I'm truly happy for those who have had overall positive experiences/outcomes, and sorry for those that don't. I will be the first person to celebrate the pregnancy you've been waiting for, and I will help you with any fears or complications you may have to the best of my capability. But again, it is never something I ever ever ever want for myself.
WOW that was quite the rant
I wish people would just stop asking this and expecting this. Accept that children are not part of everyone's life plan. Accept that not everyone will find pregnancy a happy yet unexpected surprise.
Idek why I'm ranting, I guess I'm just so sick of having to explain this to people who just don't get it. I guess I also want to know how other people deal with it. It feels like I have to walk on eggshells to slowly and carefully break the truth that I don't want kids and that's exhausting and uncomfortable.
So how do any of you deal with it?