The way his brother looks at him says it all, really. He hadn’t meant for this – for Klavier to shrink away and cower under his hold. God, all he’d wanted was for him to understand, to listen…
Why does he never listen?
“Do you think I’d be working this hard if you were a waste of my time?”
Fear, terror– He’s looking at him as if he’s some kind of monster, as though he’s intended him all the harm in the world when in reality, Kristoph wants the exact opposite. He only wishes it weren’t so damn hard to tell him the truth.
“Klavier, I can’t just sit around and wait for the day you might get famous.
We have bills to pay, a roof to keep over our head – we’ve got to feed ourselves.
These are immediate, pressing issues that aren’t just going to go away until you
make it big in the music scene.”
He relents his hold on his younger sibling, casting his gaze aside distantly. This is how he always has been – pushing his own unpleasant feelings aside out of some kind of misguided sense of necessity. Klavier needs him to be a strong, consistent and reliable figure in his life. Getting upset and emotional isn’t going to help towards that goal, is it?
There’s a sigh; resignation, it seems. He’s given up on trying to explain. Yet again, Klavier gets what Klavier wants, even if it comes at the price of his brother’s precious time and effort.
“It… It’s fine, little brother. I’ll just have to find a second job. If it’s what it’ll take to
make you happy and allow you to pursue this… Goal of yours, then so be it.”
At this rate, he’s going to work himself into the ground – but Kristoph doesn’t mind much. The work provides decent distraction from any lingering thoughts in regards to their parents. Losing a family is never an easy thing, no matter how close to them one may or may not have been. His studies and cases have been the only thing keeping him from wallowing in grief and self-pity, and part of him wonders if he’s even had a chance to grieve at all.
Either way – he’s sure – Klavier will come to realise that his elder sibling was correct all along, that his dreams and expectations are entirely unrealistic and surely then he will refocus his career choices upon something a little more appropriate than ‘sexy rockstar’.
Perhaps he simply needs to let his brother fall, so that he may pick him back up again and set him upon the proper path to success.
“I– I’m sorry. I shouldn’t yell at you like that. Tell you what– I’ll try my best to
convince my boss to let me come and see this gig of yours, hmn? How would
you like that?”