Obsessively Avoiding

16~infp~Australia | Pro self dx agender and grey-ace lesbian. Intersectional feminist. Always here to talk :) Attempts to be a positive blog

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i have bpd and someone i follow reblogged your "when someone touches your stuff" post and honestly if someone touches my stuff or even looks at my stuff or comes into my room i flip my shit and absolutely cannot stand it at all it bothers me so fucking much. is that a symptom of avpd? is that normal?

To be honest, I don’t really know, because I (at least I think!) also have ocpd, and I don’t know if its a symptom of ocpd, avpd or both. But it could be! And pd symptoms often overlap.

Also a lot of the posts I make on here are basically catharsis, so not actual medical advice.

😘

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Is it an avoidant thing to procrastinate/never do your hw,, my whole life I've had issues doing my hw/projects, I want to do them but I just CANT force myself,, and once I start to do them I'll dissociate really badly

Possibly, like I think that avoidance does go further than just social situations. In my experience my avoidance makes me struggle with commitments, like hw/assignments.

Sorry that this has been sitting around for so long! If you send it to @avpdcommunity it’ll get answered in an actual reasonable amount of time (sorry again!!!)

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guess whos 17 ur girl here

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Omg someone has come into my inbox and is all like “why do you call urself nb if u call urself a girl” like chill dude it’s not that deep

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So today was interesting...like The Ex™ came up to me today and started talking to me like about how I’ve been doing in the last month (as if she didn’t dump me because “I’m too messed up”) and I was just so confused bc she never talks to me or my friends anymore.

And then the deputy pulled me out of class to ask if I was ok and I was like ...Yah??? And she kinda tried to give me this weird hug and it was weird.

Is there something I don’t know????

[obedientlyviolentshepherd]

tbh the whole ‘you are more than you mental illness" rhetoric is important and i understand why it exists, but its also important to remember that mental illness often effects every aspect of our lives and who we are and that can be scary, even more so with posts like these, and its ok and i love all of you and it doesnt make you any less valid

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Christ it’s been a lifetime since I’ve been on here

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Sorry I’ve been so inactive! I’ve been seriously busy the last few days with some psych stuff, and I’m still recovering from the thing, and I’ve been on the avpdcommunity forum waaaaaay too much. Anyway, I’m gonna try to post more stuff here yeah sorry

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@ the people sending me messages about the bipolar thing, if your wondering why I haven’t answered any of them, I’m just reading them in my inbox, because I don’t really see the point in posting them, seeing as I don’t really have any commentary or anything to add. But they are very helpful and very lovely! I got a diagnosis the other day and I’m still trying to work this out haha. Thank you guys! ily <3

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hey i just wanted to say that im glad ur okay ! please take all the time u need to heal ! :0

Thank you anon! I know this has been here for a while, but I’m sending hugs your way, ok?

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Can you check out our new avpd/bpd blog? @avoidantflower !! Thanks :-)

Sorry that this has been sitting around for so long! If anyone wants another good avoidant blog to follow, go follow these guys!

<3

[actually-avoidant-blog]

Hey Everyone

I’m so sorry. I’ll be deleting those posts and I mght be making a post later about it if you want to know. I’m in the hospital right now, I’ll be out sometime this evening probably (it’s around 8am now). I’m in a calm enough mood to make a post right now, but I still feel absolutely awful. Everyone here is scaring me and I just want to go home.

I’ll still probably be taking a break from any serious blogging, and to the people who sent me positive messages, I love you. I’m so sorry I said those things to you. I’m sorry to anyone who was hurt or triggered by what I was posting. It was irresponsible for me to to that to people who were supposed to be able to trust me. I understand if you don’t want to, but any positive messages sent my way would be greatly appreciated. I’m so happy to be alive, I love you all.

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I’m home! I just want to curl up on my bed and sleep for ten years

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Hey Everyone

I’m so sorry. I’ll be deleting those posts and I mght be making a post later about it if you want to know. I’m in the hospital right now, I’ll be out sometime this evening probably (it’s around 8am now). I’m in a calm enough mood to make a post right now, but I still feel absolutely awful. Everyone here is scaring me and I just want to go home.

I’ll still probably be taking a break from any serious blogging, and to the people who sent me positive messages, I love you. I’m so sorry I said those things to you. I’m sorry to anyone who was hurt or triggered by what I was posting. It was irresponsible for me to to that to people who were supposed to be able to trust me. I understand if you don’t want to, but any positive messages sent my way would be greatly appreciated. I’m so happy to be alive, I love you all.

[actually-avoidant-blog]

Just called an ambulance won’t be able to talk for a while I didnt hurt myself bad god damn I’ve fucked up 

[actually-avoidant-blog]

So I kinda have a question...so I’ve been diagnosed with dysthymia for a while now but now my therapist is saying I’m more likely bipolar II and so I’m going to see a psych about it sometime in February.

So I just want to know if any of y’all have bipolar disorder and what your symptoms are like because I kinda just want to not feel so alone rn.

(just message me on anon if you like)

[rainsfriend]

Sometimes self care is backing out of a situation you don’t feel safe in. And sometimes self care makes you feel awful. But the important thing is that self care is an action that is good for you and will help you in the long run, even if it isn’t really what you want in the moment.

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Happy birthday!!!

thank you! (It’s the day after now but who cares)

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guess whos 17 ur girl here