i actually have OCD and this is my blog

Asks open! :) He/him. 23 years old. Secondary blog. Officially diagnosed with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and Borderline PD. Here to post and reblog actual OCD posts and relate to others.

[actuallyocdboi]

all i want, is to be in bed all day and cry or sth idk

[actuallyocdboi]

NEWS FLASH:

I'm exhausted of my OCD.

[actuallyocdboi]

got my driving exam on december 6th! wish me luck

[actuallyocdboi]

i gave in.

i self harmed. I'm sorry.

[actuallyocdboi]

drank, now wanna self harm.

[actuallyocdboi]

what kind of mental health is this

[thedamagedcoda]

Once I defeat my crippling ocd it’s over for you hoes

[actuallyocdboi]

i hope i ever do

[actuallyocdboi]

at least last night I got knocked out by Seroquel so I didn't self harm

[actuallyocdboi]

i want to tell people how i'm feeling

i'm just too scared to do it. this is my comfort zone.

[actuallyocdboi]

@sweetcreatortimetravel

my country (Chile) does have crisis phone numbers, they're just not that good honestly. I really appreciate your comments, it helps me not feel so alone in this. Thank you

[actuallyocdboi]

i want to tell people how i'm feeling

i'm just too scared to do it. this is my comfort zone.

[actuallyocdboi]

I keep thinking about self harm lately.

And I have no idea how to stop

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[actuallyocdboi]

don't you ever fail in one (1) thing and your mind instantly repeats it t you as if you're the biggest failure in human existence? Because GUESS WHO'S GOING THROUGH IT.

[neurodivergent-noodle-deactivat]

yes yea yes.

I thought this was just a me thing, but it’s been bad recently as it is currently exam season! thinking about it, it might be a symptom of my OCD? not sure though.

anyway, I hope you feel better soon. failing at one thing doesn’t make you a failure!

[actuallyocdboi]

probably OCD, because same here. I got tipsy and forgot about it for a while but tonight I'll have a tough time falling asleep trying not to think about it. I'm just so angry at everything. I feel like a failure and like I'll never do better.

[actuallyocdboi]

don't you ever fail in one (1) thing and your mind instantly repeats it t you as if you're the biggest failure in human existence? Because GUESS WHO'S GOING THROUGH IT.

[c-ptsd-culture-is]

Possible c-ptsd culture is feeling like if you don't 100% relate to every bit of trauma anyone describes you're invalid

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[actuallyocdboi]

omw to get my meds

[ocd-culture]

OCD culture is imagining as a kid at night that your house was a bunker protecting you from the outside world and if anything happened it would be your own fault. Being afraid of fires so checking literally every single part of your house 1, 2, 3, 4, 5+ times

same, with the bunker thing! when my OCD is at its worst, the "bunker space" narrows all the way down to my bedroom, but mostly it's my whole house. I think the fact that I still think like that is because of the OCD plus autism blend.

I never experienced a fear of fire in particular myself, but one of my friends did, and it seemed absolutely horrible. but the funny thing is that I also got up in the night to check my house was safe, just for completely different reasons.

anyway! I hope that your safe spaces feel safe, and that your thoughts and compulsions aren't getting in the way too much these days.

[actuallyocdboi]

oh it's getting in the way and i'm spiraling honestly