[inkskinned]

oh you made me feel terrible things. cut up, violent things. things i threw up or held down or cried out or sucked in. things i couldn’t write out, things that wouldn’t stay in, things that ruined me.

but you made me feel stupid. foolish. like. i’ve dealt with the worst things. but i can’t scrub out all that god i knew better didn’t i from the seams of me. i never want to feel like that again. like an idiot. like it’s my fault for being dumb. i should have known this would happen.

[sondber]

cruel / day 11

[bpd-hellfire]

i thought everything was kinda calm but turns out i’m just ignoring every single one of my problems

[danger]

[unsends-deactivated20170829]

[saccharind]

[saccharind]

[desnos]

[wordsbysimi-deactivated20210705]

“you can move an ocean away, make new friends, buzz your hair short, buy new clothes, kiss other girls, quit your job, make new plans, do everything imaginable to erase the life you left behind, but it will scream and ache and rip you apart because try all you might, but you could never erase me. not even if you tried.”

—

[etteraths]

[quotes-by-anina-ram]

I did not want to let you go. That is my greatest secret. But I promised myself I would never keep anyone who did not want to stay. And though everyone may leave in the end, we owe it to ourselves to keep our promises. I promised my heart I wouldn’t stop you if you left. And I keep that promise, even though my heart breaks each time I think of you. Betray me all you like, I won’t betray myself.

A. Ram

[thepersonalquotes]

[griffys]

me @ myself: maybe u should try not to depend so much on validation and attention from others because u really let it dictate your mood and it’s so unhealthy

me: huh. interesting. anyway whom here loves me

[breakmyheartwithlyrics]

my top listened to songs of 2018

The Runaways- Dead End Justice

[skyofauroras]

I think one if the saddest things is when you don’t want anything anymore. You’re not in despair, you know you’re not alone, you know it can get better, but you dont want any of it. You’re just tired of living. I’m not sure if anyone can really help at that point.

[safe-to-say-fuck-off]

I’m sorry I use you, but you use me too. We need eachother but not as lovers, we need eachother the way desperate, hurting friends need something more than friendship.

[shmwrites]

they ask

if I’ve ever

harmed myself

and I tell them no

but I don’t say

that I look at things

i know will hurt me

him with someone else

my friends moving on

without me

my father happy

with his other family

my mother

forgetting about me

i don’t tell them

i ask questions

when I know

the answer

will destroy me

or that I beg people

to stay

when they’re going

to leave me anyway

so maybe I don’t

drag a blade

across my skin

but what I do instead

cuts me deeper

than a blade

ever could

i’m torturing myself and I don’t know how to stop.