there's a monkey in my brain (its me)

ADHD, autistic, and anxious but STILL KICKIN'! • Hey there! I'm Sunny! trying that coping thing that everyone is talking about. my inbox is open ♡

[adhd-induced-happiness]

hi! :) if you're here because of the checklist post you're legally obligated to solve ONE thing on the checklist before you continue. ok love u bye <3

~ Sunny

[thememedaddy]

[fangirltothefullest]

I need to get this off my chest it's episode 4 of Sanders Sides where Logan expresses frustration that he can't do an episode with Thomas without another side coming in and taking the attention away. Episode fucking four.

He has been feeling that steady sense of "my input isn't enough on its own and im not grtting enough attention and recognition from Thomas" since EPISODE FOUR. He gets some of his gusto back in the debate with Virgil, but he still kind of has to fight to be heard, fight for his opinions to be listened to by Thomas. He has a few moments postponing it but it's quietly spiraling and Logan can't keep hoping for and living for those few and far between moments of praise or recognition.

And this is what fascinates me so much- he's a teacher and wants to teach his facts but he knows no one wants to hear because they make that abundantly clear. He loves to talk but knows everyone tunes him out constantly. He's excited to learn something new, but feels ashamed and embarrassed when he gets something wrong because they keep pointing it out. He's clever and witty with wordplay but he doesnt want to be seen as silly like Patton is because he feels he has to be serious since no one takes him seriously when he's not. He's impressed when Patton(Janus) quotes famous philosophers but also feels intimidated when someone else sounds smart because what's he for then? He gets so excited about things like jam and Dr. Who but he tries not to show how excited he actually is because he's not taken seriously when he does that, and people have made fun of the things he enjoys in the past.

It just struck me that he was vying for attention that early, that he felt like he had to fight for Thomas's attention all the way back in episode 4. And it hurts my poor heart to know that what's happening with him has been brewing for a long time.

[beaft]

i am not a psychiatrist but i do find it really weird how autism checklists are so often focused on "outward" signs of autism rather than what is going on internally. i don't know how to explain it but "do you make eye contact with other people" feels like a much less relevant question than "how does it feel when you have to make eye contact with other people?"

[beaft]

while i'm here, the other one that always pisses me off is "do you interpret idioms literally, for example 'bull in a china shop'?"

well, no, obviously. i know what "bull in a china shop" means because that is a popular phrase with a clearly defined meaning. and if i hadn't heard it before, then i would still not interpret it literally, because it has the cadence of an idiom and i would probably be able to work out from context what it meant. what is the point of this question

[beaft]

third and final complaint: "are you good at noticing subtext?"

i feel like the problem with this question is best illustrated by a conversation i had with a friend a while back, where i said something like, "i feel very safe with you because you don't do subtle hints and you are always very straight-up with me about what you are thinking and feeling."

and he laid a hand on my shoulder and was like, look dude i'm gonna be straight up here. i am subtle with you constantly and you simply do not notice <3

[beaft]

@luckyybones hope you don't mind me screenshotting but you are actually so correct

[despazito]

petition to relabel "strong sense of justice" in autism and adhd to "strong personal convictions"

[remuscore]

Oohhh these weirdo freaks and all their problems. Don’t you hate it when those fictional facets of yourself divide out all your mental issues??

[saxifraga-x-urbium]

[glowcowboy]

ok. enough suffering now. i am seeking out delight

[blanketforcas]

whatever i was gonna say can't possibly be funnier than the mere existence of this draft

[adhd-induced-happiness]

You seem really awesome sauce :3

i saw one of your posts on Pinterest ,, but i couldn ’ t find the original on here ,, so I ’ re reposted it w / credits to you !! i hope that ’ s okay !! ^_^” (if not , i ’ ll take it down , no issue !! )

Hi!!! That’s totally fine haha! I can tag u in it too! :)

[3thereality-deactivated20260506]

just saw this reposted to Pinterest . thought it belonged on here again. . cause . . . real

op ; @adhd-induced-happiness . hi :3

[suicideenthusiast-backup]

oh boy i wish someone would notice my cries for help! [someone actually notices] noooo i'm fine don't worry about me

[glowcowboy]

does anyone wanna hold hands until we feel a little braver

[its-your-mind]

the reblog map is all of us holding hands btw

[beautifulterriblequeen]

We are each other's night sky. No one is alone here.

[dear-ao3]

night sky continues to get brighter. theres always people here for you

[shinigami-social]

Made a painting of all of us “Holding Hands” <3

[wolfsrainrules]

its so so pretty. I feel like "One more Light" by Linkin Park should be BLARING in the background

[adhd-induced-happiness]

Me: hm I wonder if I'm autistic

My mom, completely unsolicited: hey you did a good job on that video call! but you might want to work on making eye contact. and maybe be less monotone. and maybe have more facial expressions :)

Me: hmm

[adhd-induced-happiness]

Me: hm I wonder if I'm autistic

My boyfriend: has a collection of videos of me pacing, dancing and twirling in the most uncoordinated ways imaginable

My boyfriend: actively encourages flappy hands when I need to decompress because "you need it"

My boyfriend: "why do u keep singing the same line of a song over and over"

My boyfriend: "I'll teach our kids tact, you teach them problem solving"

My boyfriend: "you look tired. Are you ok? What's wrong. Tell me what you need. You look tired."

My boyfriend: "I don't mind that you want to watch cartoons. They make u happy"

My boyfriend: *takes me to Build-A-Bear because he knows how much I love it*

My boyfriend: "I just wanted to tell u in advance"

My boyfriend: *gives me his sunglasses when I'm having sensory issues*

Me: hmm

[adhd-induced-happiness]

My fiancé: "you really do not have any situational awareness, it makes it very easy to surprise you!"

My fiancé: *rubs his hands on my legs when I'm having sensory issues*

My fiancé: "I know it's scary to press an issue, but you gotta learn how to ask just one more question to get what you want. Here, I'll help you"

My fiancé: *turns down the music in the car when he sees I'm flinching*

My fiancé: *lays on top of me for deep pressure when my anxiety gets bad*

My fiancé: "you have a very logical brain"

My fiancé: "you know a little about a lot"

My fiancé: "you're very well-researched on <specific topic>"

My fiancé: "do you need some time for yourself tonight? I know it was a long day"

My fiancé: "hey, <person> is coming over later, but you don't have to stay and chat if you don't want to"

My fiancé: "dont worry, I'll keep track of the time"

My fiancé: *coaxes me to relax when I'm starting to get amped up*

My fiancé: "I don't mind if you color while we talk"

My fiancé: "we can take some time to slip away and decompress if we need to. it's OUR wedding, after all"

My fiancé: *gently asks me 500 times to do the same thing*

My fiancé: *vocal stims with me*

My fiancé: *gives me time to work on my passion projects*

My fiancé: "you're definitely weird, but so am i. you're so different from anything else in my life. you're exactly what I need. whatever's up with your brain, it's why I love you :)"

Me: hmm :)

[adhd-induced-happiness]

We’ve been married for a year and a half btw <3

[carmelas]

[merrydapachi]

@lucy-x-5billion

[bloggerinne-deactivated20250930]

i have this unrealistic fantasy in my head where if you calmly and logically explain something to someone perfectly they will understand your position and gain knowledge from the exchange. unfortunately in the real world this does not happen often

[millionsknives]

every person to exist is simultaneously the most glorious and important being created and the most undeserving of all god’s creatures. hope this helps

[echoesofthefall]

[unscheduled-excursion-0000000]

“you come of the lord adam and the lady eve, … and that is both honour enough to erect the head of the poorest beggar, and shame enough to bow the shoulders of the greatest emperor on earth. be content.”

-c. s. lewis, prince caspian