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Apparently Sir Cameron Needs to Die was on the recommended shelf at one of my local bookstores! This store is in what I would consider to be a more conservative part of my city so it brought me a lot of joy to see it there.

"Sir Cameron is a loser, his love interest is ugly".

I mean it's true, but that's also really funny to read. thanks for showing me!

jingerpi

I never really wanted to get into this on here but I want to talk about it now so nobody can stop me.

honestly one of the worst things is that I knew. a lot of people talk about not knowing they were trans until xyz event where they realized and went through whatever hardships and then transitioned. people talk about repression and discovery and all these things. and those are all powerful and important experiences I don't see myself as above them in any way. but I knew.

I was never an egg, I was never in denial. when I was 3 years old I dreamed I was a princess. I know this because my family retells it as a funny story. I tried to wear my sister's clothes regularly, I asked people why there wasn't a word for the reverse of a tomboy, I put on makeup, I used she/her pronouns online since I first learned to read and write.

I don't bring this up to do this "I've always been a woman deep down, so you should listen to me as super valid Mr psychologist gatekeeper". my point is that it didn't matter.

I knew, and it didn't matter. it wasn't an issue of having to figure out who I was and then realizing that. it's that who I am was intentionally killed and locked away at every turn. it's not that I didn't realize I was a girl, it's that I wasn't allowed to be one. I was hurt and punished and sent to conversion therapy repeatedly. I can't "go back in time and tell my younger self to save her years of struggle". it wouldn't matter. it wouldn't change anything at all. the issue wasn't a lack of information. it's a lack of power. kids and trans kids especially are subject to so much abuse and we have no power to do anything about it. it is such a great tragedy beyond words. knowing what you want to do and wear and say and be, that you want this name and these pronouns and that cute dress, and being powerless to do anything about it anyway. forced to wear clothes picked out for you by a guardian, only able to use pre-approved nicknames online. only allowed to engage in these specific hobbies and have these specific friends. all of whom treat you like garbage. but it doesn't matter. it doesn't even matter if you know it's unjust, there's no way to do anything about it. it is perhaps the most powerless position anyone can be in. there is no level of knowledge or personal strength that will get you out of it. you just have to shut off until enough time passes for the law to deem you as worthy of being a person.

I think that's a big part of why I'm like this now, once you see that powerlessness, when you experience the depths of hopelessness and disenfranchisement, you can never unsee it. it does something to you

jingerpi

it's easier to think that I did something wrong. that if I were smarter or stronger or cleverer I could've figured it out. and that when I did get out of that place, that it was due to my strength. but the reality is it wasn't. none of it was my fault, and that's almost harder to handle. there's no amount of trial or belief or hope or self knowledge that can magically warp the world to be kind to you. when I got away it's because I was a legal adult. that's it, that's all that changed. the only thing holding me back that entire time

kaijuno

Who that man

zoeberry

the fairy on my windshield as i go down i95 at 210km/h

mellodillo

⁕ This park is Pissing me off...

⁕ I'm

sab3rtooth

patterns left by woodworms on driftwood

onenicebugperday

PLEASE search "beetle gallery" and look at images. The patterns larval beetles leave behind under the bark of trees while feeding are so so beautiful

halondrus

Lady in drive through had a bearded dragon sitting on her boobs and she held it up and let me pet it. killing myself canceled

halondrus

art is not my strong suit but this is my best recreation of what i saw when i opened the window. i have to emphasize that she was supermodel levels of gorgeous

bogleech

"art is not my strong suit" and yet the sublime vibes captured by this evocative line work would only be ruined by any attempt at a redraw

thottistani-deactivated20220220

No gay has all 5:

- A job

- Good relationship with father

- Neurotypical brain

- Ability to top

- Driver’s license

garbage-empress

this is a fun post because people will say how many they have in the tags then you get to figure out which ones.

8nin

"There's millions of Tumblr users" to you. To me There's only about 12 and we all reblog the same five posts from each other

kylieminvogue

"STAR TREK" S1E15 - “Shore Leave”

thylaforever

Spock: 😏

Kirk: 🤨

pocketss

It was important to me that she puts emphasis on the TOK

mangonetics

ah shit they're gaining on us. we gotta jettison some weight. throw all those stolen boomerangs out we don't need em

supreme-leader-stoat

On it, boss!

supreme-leader-stoat

Bad news, boss!

your-local-house-cricket

uses him to scroll on tumblr for 2 hours

hamletisintown

I was baffled so I had to look it up but yeah, it IS in fact a real fucking beetle (possibly Hololepta aequalis just by looking at them but I could very well be wrong bc i don't know shit about this family)

poupon

Are we SURE it isn't a sculpture by @indolentjellyfish ?

indolentjellyfish

Spoiler: there have been attempts

apeiron69

God me and some friends are talking abt being dense af rn and i just remembered this one time i was shopping w my dad and i wanted to get rainbow shoelaces at the dr martins shop. And there was this punk girl, dyed hair face piercings rlly cute, behind the counter and like prince charming putting the shoe on cinderellas foot she offered to lace my gay shoelaces into my dr martins and i let her. “Wow what good customer service!”. And then in the car my DAD had to tell me that she was flirting with me a major L to gay people over the world

apeiron69

She was on her knees for me and everything and i noticed NOTHING im still so embarrassed good god

apeiron69

This world is so cruel

apeiron69

Why would you curse me like this 😭😭😭

kaity--did

Do you know how hard it is to live with a cat that has the intelligence level of literally like a 3 year old but the pure chaos of a high ranking demon?

He’s learned to open the lazy Susan and won’t stop clawing open the flour and rolling in it like a little chinchilla

kaity--did