the adri's parable

babbling

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requests under that post yaay

go ahead and ima draw smth for ya within five years

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do u guys think i have chances

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for people who cares and dont i moved to twitter cuz there is not much people and i need to somehow promote my artworks but i still gonna post some doodles there and most of all talk a lot

i finally feel comfortable in this app so im NOT going anywhere completely

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look me in the eyes and tell me do i look like a problematic artist or not.

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today is my bday and it's my first bday around good friends! all those years i was alone or had only few online friends but now i never feel alone! im sooo happy i turned 17!!! i should've draw something for this day but didnt and a bit guilty

thought im a bit sad: all my friends wished me happy birthday and gave sweet gifts and acted all good around me making me feel really special but my boyfriend not. i mean i shouldn't complain about it but he just acted as always, never said something special for me in this day or even give a little gift... nothing! i dunno why but i feel selfish wanting gifts from him after all he was good with me other days and etc. i still gonna make him bday gift cuz i love him and it's ok if he doesn't wanted or doesn't knew what to give me i guess

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happy bday to me yaay

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happy bday Bogdan

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trying to find a job is so hard what.. nobody told me that! being 16 is SUCKS ive been rejected from everywhere

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im ashamed to be myself

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it has bad quality because its not finished yet

also commissions soon! (when i solve the problems w boosty)

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i just realised that im in trouble. or, to be more precise, in the family's financial dependence. I MEAN YEAH SURE IM A CHILD BUT LIKE HEY why would your own family manipulate you with money and when i say 'i can go to work and earn my own money' they're like 'ononono'.

first of all i would like to try draw for money yaay commissions soon BUT 'cause there are a lot of people on Tumblr with dollars and I need rubles I dont know how to do this

but for now u can see what im capable for (it goes from new to old):

look me in the eyes and tell me if im worth saving............

ima try REALLY hard i will i swear

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drinking coffee without milk feels like drinking alcohol without diluting with anything. sad taste. im out of milk.

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homework

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me

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how everything i draw looks at me

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'i accepted myself' but did acceptance mean to make it impossible for me to take compliments from anybody? my whole life i do things, i think about things i did, i hate them. no matter what i do no matter how hard i try or not try. my 'acceptance' is not for me but for hate that i feel and have no more strength to resist. no i wont whine about how bad my work is. no i wont try harder. and no i dont need your pity. but yes i will continue do what i do without trying make it 'good enough'